Just sharing w/you other lady GEMS!

~SEXY REAL WOMAN~

She moves without intention
She looks around in splendor
She find attraction with wonder
She does not place the light
She soaks it up with much delight
She lives for the fed
She loves the night
She roams with wonder insight
She has wisdom beyond her right
She is not so full of might
She is yet a bombshell of explosion
She shares with all
She keeps no one from the water
She insist for one to drink and quinch

She lives to fill the void
She sustains herself with truth
She minds the will of life
She denies all to take the freedom
She keeps it in her eyes
She dares with her stare
She wants to be seen as deep as the water
She wants to show there is nothing but shallow
She is the one whom all desire and admire
She is alone in her success
She only shares with one
She sheds to all

03-22-09 LDS

Listening To Myself In The Drops

It is pouring down, running, flowing, clean, refreshing, cool and breezy. It sings with out words, it has a beat like I will never hear again.

I find the light through the grey so in awww of temptation,

to bust out with rolling mightiness in such a manner, no one,

can place the word to the sound of the ground.

It crashes, bolts out like no one else can do,

just as quickly as it rolled in and crashed it is gone, like a flash of silence.

I mistook the time, the crash, the breeze.

Wanting to spread and wrap around it,

all inside my head, i can not reach it, for it is inside my heart.

The roll is for all, the crash is for one, the silence is for me.

It has passed, it will not return, can not make it again, can not re-inact.

Lost is the drop of the weather, gone is the time to share, past is where it stays

My future is for only me to care.

LDS
7-29-09

NO name

To see someone so unhappy.

He puts on a fake smile and gets up everyday

kisses the morning with fingers in his hair

he looks around the rooom

he remembers she is not there

Once last night he reached out for her

He felt the comfort of the pillow

moved all things in his way

no, she still did not stay

LDS
7-28-09

Ahhh to play the game of life

To go through this time, it is but me, and I am tired. I have given back, and I think its time to cut loose of the hook. I do not wish to destroy, the sneak attack was done without alarm, no warning, no time, no chance to avoid the harm. I see the warrior, cold, ready, in total combat. What he does not realize is, I am nor was not the enemy, nor did I go behind enemy lines. He came to my land, and I defended it with all I felt necessary to win the battle. Once I put him back behind the line, I have decided not to waste anymore time. For he is not a worthy enemy, I will let no man make me hate, for I am more woman than he man. Self-Respect, I from myself DEMAND! I will not let him take that from me, nor allow myself to hand the war over in defeat. For a worthy opponent I did not seek, I only saught a alley, one made of man, tender, with feet. How do I express the goodbye, and still keep him a friendly alie? I am not sure with this can I deal, nor do I wish to speak toe to heel. From whince he came, with no horse to carry me away, I send him back, forever to stay. The gallant soldier with him I did lay, I rose off my knees, and rode off on my bay. The water is deep, the ocean is wide, for that love, he did collide, his missed his target, and was swept ashore, by the very missle, he sat out to deplore. The deployment was short and somewhat sweet, with this I carry on, on my own two feet. I will not crumble to the ground, for a whole solid person, that is who he found. I wish him well, and with this I see, he will never really see ME!

LDS
7-27-09

Not even really a friend

Today, I miss the smile, I miss the times of past, when I thought of rolling in the grass, living, lovin, carin, sharin. Today, I hold a wall, I can make it too damn tall, It is there, it rises, I feel it, and the sun is disappearing from my face, I feel my head, not my heart, for that right now, is a cold cold place. I hate the cold, I never want to visit there, but I find I truly can not shine, today, the clouds cover my face. Normally on a day like this, I would have but one wish. To feel his arms around me and he near, to feel the flesh, the care, the things we once shared. I know it had a poison lace, but god today, I miss his smiling face.

I can be honest, it was not that bad, it is really very very sad, to have shared such intamicy, laughter, pain, to come to me when GOD knew I needed a man, this is who he sent, I recognize all attempts, but why did he send a reverse man, why not a gentle kind caring real hand? I guess it was for a reason, as they say, not a season or a lifetime. I feel like I committed such a crime, while rolling in grime. To be torn so deep and yet never realized the reeper, he creeped. When I seen the shadows of the tell, I realized, quickly this time he fell.

Fools can wear many faces and charms. The question still remains, did her really mean me harm? I dont believe this answer will come to me, I think this answer is one only he can seek. I protect myself and this leaves doubt, for when each day comes and goes, I know there is NO DOUBT.

A friend magnet, is that really me, or is it that others can only see? To open and let others see in, that is the hardest part, he really was not even a friend.

LDS
7-31-09

My goodbye to him

Bye boo, I cant take deciet, lies, a man who is not good for his word, i cared, i missed, the shot was more than i can bare, the wound, was more than you care. I will love you always, but not w/out sight, i seen a angel, who was in a mistical light. take care of you, for what I wish is dreams of yours to come true, and blessing that are only imagined, in you dreams so true. i will miss the man, not the boy, for i was never, just a toy! How fitting that I just recieved, your deliverance, of me? i am more than you dreamed of, more than you wanted, I am more than you expected, I am that one, the one that, cost you exactly what you wanted. Bye babe, bye boo, bye boo boo, sweetheart, honey, baby, etc.......you lost me in the time we had, you lost me when you got mad. You wanted exactly what I had to offer, but you sir, what not what the lords platter. You and only you, could be all that an none, for you could have been, the only one. Love ya babe, no hate still, just keepin it real. I am a one man woman, and love what I have to offer.

LDS
7-16-09

To know forever

This is why I am single
I choose not to mingle
I dont want false and concrete
I want breeze and air
I am not a toy
I dont have to have a boy
I want a man
I choose who I can
I know this was a mistake
I knew it before I took the first break
I already delt the winning hand
I knew he was not a man
I knew he was not kind'
I knew he would not shine
His bliss is not from Heaven
It was nothing but a screen
I knew he never said what he mean
I pulled all out and moved around
It was him who always found
I moved and moved and moved
He keeps finding me like a screw
I choose I choose I choose
He never really knew I grew
I learned and passed it on
I took the gavel and hit the song
I cut the depth of love into
I Grew I Grew I Grew
The pain was felt and held
It never disappeared into a shell
I opened up wide and said "Ah"
I found always there was GOD
Deep and pure
That I am secure
Confident and Loved
To be one that rose above
To find the world so bright and cold
To know forever
That man I will never hold

LDS
7-16-09

Independent Woman

Independence

What is it to me?

To be Independent

To really be free

It means I can live

the way I want

I can live open

I can be honest

I can walk away

I can choose to stay

I can let my voice be heard

I can let my silence rock the world

I can make as much money as I choose

I can loose as much money as I want

I can let go

I can hold on

I can be strong

I can be weak

I can be whatever I choose to be

I can make it happen

I can watch it happen

I can support the style

I can make anyone smile

I can sing out loud

I can sing from my heart

I can make new beginnings

I can make a fresh start

I can take it all in

I can leave it where i seen it

I can make it happen

I can do it alone

I can choose to not be on my own

I can choose to be anyone I want

I have been a daughter

I have been a mother

I have been a wife

I have been a victim

I have been a boss

I have been a suvivor

I have been a achiever

I have been a motivator

I have been a inspiration

I have been motivation

I have been a hero

I have been a loser

I have been a lover

I have been a fighter

I have been a addict

I have been a lady

I have been a freak

I have been in love

I have made it all leak

I have made it all hummmm

I have a beat of my own drum

I have a winner

I have a champion

I have a convict

I have honor

I have dignity

I have pride

I have a opinion

I have a heart

I have feelings

I have emotions

I have devotion

I have loyalty

I have determination

I have success

I have it all

Know that is what I call

Independence

I am all that and more, the real total package

LDS
07-06-09

i loved them all!!! thanks for sharing! 🙂

What/Who is LDS?

Posted by P-Angel
What/Who is LDS?

LDS = PGA

LOL @ P-Angel

Tonight, I floated in the quiet of the lake, shores around me the moon lit my face, you were not there to see me, yet I felt you within me I could not help but think you should have been beside me We should have been lovers in open beneath the sky lights the stars on top of the water it should have been us afloat I opened my damn heart now i have to give up hope I dont know why i thought you would be around a while i guess i thought i seen that when i made you smile your eyes did not say goodbye they only told me you knew how to lie i wish i could have shared tonight with you but instead, you were only in my head The peace of the water crashing against the boat the sound of the shores sang with loads of hope i watched the stars you put into my eyes i only wanted to sit there and have a real good cry the tears could not come for i was not alone the sound of the music was not love or any shown i couldnt give myself to him i couldnt touch him i couldnt be with him cause you were there i got to let this go i keep thinking i can yet the evidence is shown i am honest to myself and with this i will be honest with you if you knew to come simply kiss me

LDS
8-3-09

As he tells me to smile

he does not know

i have tears running

just at a heavy heavy flow

for the sound of my words

does not show

how i am really feeling

he should never never know

he thinks he can make me happy

he really wants to try

he does not understand why

or why or why

but he thinks he can win

he thinks its good to begin

with this he really does not know

what i never let show

i feel his love deeper than me

i feel his need for children

not me

i feel the love he has yet to share

for his kids never knew he was there

he was never really there

for the life was but a dream

with his selfish esteem

he secured his man in bed

he secured himself in head

he thought that was all it was

he thought that was love

he still has no idea

that the thoughts he can not hear

will be the ultimate orgasm

he will not be the one she holds dear

for when love is complete

you never feel the bottom of your feet

when you know its real

yes its scary to really feel

the weight does not exists

the room floats in a mist

the sky has not a end

and you would first and always

call her friend

for she took the time to know you

like you didnt know yourself

she took the time to help you

understand what you felt

she did this in hopes maybe it would be she

that you decided you would be free

instead you seen restraints without a end

and still you called her friend

problem with a end

LDS

8-3-09

Deleting from my life

I wish I could delete from my life what i wanted, poof, no longer it would exist or have any kind of effect on me. Yet, this I know is not how it is. Does not stop me from "wishing" and boy, would i have a long long list.

I walk through this day, thinking of you, wishing you were by my side.

Realizing one day may never come and it will be another who love I will realize.

I pray and hope it is as grand as the one night stand

I hope and pray it takes me away, far to another land

I talk about it often, I will make it come true

I wonder, I think, I dream, is it you?

I find my self making it all happen

day by day

way by way

time by time

it slips away, it falls away, it makes mistakes.

I deal with it all

I make it all sit and wait

I wonder will it all hesitate?

My success is the knowing

My failure is the showing

My love is unknowing

My time is undefined

My rules are nothing but mine

My love one day will grow

with leaps and bounds untold

When my children speak of this

I hope they realize, about this wish.

08-10-09
LDS

Let me stab at this on this night of thought racing through my head.

I have yet another tale
Its raining outside
He is in his bed
He calls me, one, two, three, four times
In the hour of need
He calls to me
He tried to fight the feelings
he can not deny
Yet that fire burns him inside
Another whose path has crossed mine too
He is still calling me Boo
I tell them both they are to go away
I have found the love
of my stray
He has called to me
in his time of need
He found
what really laid him deep
Within his soul he found the light
He know tells me
He shows me
He knows me
He wants to grow with me
He will plant seeds and see what wonder
the life of a planted root he is under
The emotions run too deep
For even one of them to un-seed
For each has a piece of heart
It will forever remain in the dark
For with his love I glow and glow
The face of happiness he also shows
we share the mind, spirit, and much delight
For one day soon, they will see
How much his love
really means to me.
They do not listen
for they dont want to hear
It is a fear
I said would come near
Now for me to be wrapped in him
they do not want this blanket to condemn
It is love each will seek,
its love only one can hold
He stood the test of time
Now he is all mine

LDS
10-12-09

Acceptance

Acceptance is such a difficult thing,

to really encounter there will be no ring,

to justify why

make a brand new

to trade secrets

and really feel you

to move across the paths

to let you run in waters so deep

open to what may dwell with you

and me looking for that deception

that will erupt

waiting for the bomb to explode

this too shall for you grow old

as your eyes have seen so much

your mind is looking for my touch

the body needs the feel of flesh

the way we always mesh

it works

it is solid

it is good

Can you really be from my hood?

I and you,

me and we,

us and them

where r all your friends?

I have so much to give

Are you really really ready to live

I think not

Your spot its still so hot

Gotta fan the flame

you have to find

you are more than a game

you are but a player

on the board

You one day,

will feel the void

You will not be able to fill it with whole

You will only feel it grow

As time passes you by

It is time that you knew,

I cry

I see you each day

I feel you each way

I was open

You are lost

It is you,

who supplied that cost

You cost yourself

exactly what you wanted

Me,

I will fill it up

and live a fantasy!

LDS

10/30/09

Seems I am always that monkey out on a limb, ALONE!

Yet, I also choose to be there, ALONE

Notice, the face turns up towards the sun

The blue of the sky is my high

There is no such night from day

I always always want to say

I am not alone, I am always with

MANY!

LDS
11-01-09

Heartbreak Heartache Heartattack

Posted Nov 29

WHEN I FELT MY HEART BREAK

I WONDERED HOW LONG THIS WOULD LAST

YOU TOLD ME HOW MUCH, HOW LONG

THAT WAS UP TO ME

I LISTENED CAREFULLY TO EACH SONG

I WATCHED, I LISTENED, I TASTED

I GUESS I STILL MISSED IT

I WANTED THAT KEEPER TO BE MINE

I LONGED TO BE HELD TIGHT

I REALIZED MY THOUGHTS WERE STILL THERE

I REALIZED HOW MUCH I REALLY STILL CARED

I KNOW WHAT LOVE IS

I AM HAPPY TO BE OPEN TO ALLOW THAT INTO MY LIFE

WHAT I DID NOT REALIZE

IS YOU DID NOT MEAN THE WORDS YOU SAID

YOU NEVER INTENDED ANY INTENTIONS

WELL TO FILL YOUR OWN DESIRES

TO THIS I DID REQUIRE

MORE THAN JUST A SIMPLE "CAN I"

FOR THAT YOU LOST BACK WHEN YOU DECIDED I WAS JUST A LAY

I HAVE CAUGHT ON EACH AND EVERY TIME

EACH TIME YOU UPPED YOUR GAME

I LET IT COME TO ME

EACH TIME YOU BROUGHT NEW WEAPONS

YET THE SAME OLD SAME OLE I HEARD YOU SAY

YES I AM EVERY MANS DESIRE

BUT SIR

YOU ARE WHO LIT THE FIRE

YES I CAN BE THAT DYME STORE HOE

BUT SIR, NOT FOR YOU, NOT ME, OH HELL NO

MY BAD I GOT IT I GAVE IT THAT WAY

YOUR BAD YOU TOOK IT THAT WAY

EASY

ONLY FOR YOU

YOU NEVER GAVE YOURSELF CREDIT WHERE CREDIT WAS DO

NOT ONLY THAT

SO LOW OF ME

THAT IS HOW YOU REALLY REALLY SEE

THE ACTIONS THEY RUMBLE WITH THUNDER

OF NOTHING

WHICH IS HOW YOU ALWAYS LEFT ME IN WONDER

WELL NOW I PROTECT ME

AS I REALLY REALLY SEE

YOU DONT WANT ALL OF ME

JUST THE BEST PART OF ME

SELFISH AND SORRY

THAT IS WHAT THAT IS

I AM BETTER

JUST LOOK AT MY KIDS

I AM WISHING YOU DIDNT KEEP THAT FLOW

BUT ON AND ON AND ON I MUST GO

FOR YOU HAVE NO CONCERN

YOU HAVE NO PRIDE

YOU ONLY TOOK ME FOR YET

ONE MORE RIDE

THE HEART IT HURTS

THE HEART FEELS

THE HEART IS REAL

THE HEART IS LOVE

THE HEART IS WHAT IS MADE FROM ABOVE

THE HEART IS JOY

THE HEART DOES SING

THE HEART REALIZED

A KEEPER YOU WILL NEVER SEE

SO THE HEART MUST PROTECT

EVEN IF IT ALREADY SEEMED DEAD

THE HEART ACHED

THE HEART BEGGED FOR A BREAK

THE HEART NEEDED ITS HAPPY PLACE

THERE WAS ONLY ONE

THAT WAS LIKE TOO MUCH FOR IT TOO TAKE

WHEN THE STRESS RELIEF DID NOT COME

THE RELEASE WE TWO HAD SHARED

THE NEEDS OF ONE NEEDING TO BE FILLED

THE NEEDS OF ANOTHER YOU WENT AND KILLED

I WAS LOYAL

I WAITED WITH THE PATIENTS YOU ASKED FOR

I MISSED THE SIGNAL OF

FOOL, DONT DO THAT DANCE AGAIN ON THE DANCE FLOOR

SO THEN