Aqua girl...pissed and...confused

Hello. So here is my story.

I am a lesbian aquarius. For 1 year now I am dating a leo woman.i am 26 she is 24

We had enormous passion. Great love with a lot of power, romance, promises, etc...she went to amerika for 4 months but came back because.of me..she was so scared of me leaving or cheating and at the sime time I was worshiping her, changed my whole life because of her, i made a lot of sacrifices for her, treat her like a queen, the same as she did with me. But she went crazy with this america thing...she just completley lost it...if we font chat for 1 hour she was going crazy. Sure that i am with somebody else. I was trying to reasure her, trxt her, say how much i love her and so on. I was supposed to look for an aprtment for both of us while she was way and I did. All day long I was going to work and looking for apartments, texting her, letting her talk.to me awfull stuff which I just didnt desrve

At one point after a month she decided to come back. She just couldt handle it and i was dtarting to act more annoyed and angry but who wouldnt?! She came back and we had horrible summer. We moved in an aprartment, but because of her early arrival we did not had lot of money, we couldnt find a job for months, we were constantly fighting, all the fucking time

At the end we decided to move out...actually I proposed it and she was very much against it but we did not had a choice i though she saw that too at one point. She even said it a few times. We agreed to gather money for three months and do it again. We did not even liked the apartment that much...on did I forgot.to say she was lying to her parents for 3 months that she is in the states...and i was trying to convice her that this is not ok.

We moved.out. i found a job but she didnt. She was becoming more and more nervous, making a problem out of everything. I really did try to help her, to make her feel special, without her finding a job our plan for moving out was slowlu fading. She found a job that really liked and she got fired after a month, not her fault, just asshols I guessed, they didnt even pay her. I was giving everything i have for both of us. I wanted to take her to a holiday and shit and was saving little by little. Judt after she got fired her mother got sick, she became impossible. Making a huge fights out of everything, blaming me, refusing to see me, share with me, telling me that i am the one to blame for everything....and at one point I started acting bad too...because i was tired because i was treating to do so much and she just wanted more...she wasnt trying to fix it...she was just throwing blame.

At one point in the begginig of december she went completley cold. Not answering, refusing to see me, she went with her parents for the holidays in her home city. I did evrrything in my power to bring her back. She started acting me with do fucking bad...like we dont know each other, like we did not had this great love, like i never existed, talk to me in the most disrepectful ways...i understood that she wrnt to see some girl, she tried to kiss her, by my leo says she didnt kiss her back. But they are trxtinf she is saying that there is nothinh there. I went crazy, calling asking begging writing letter videos everything

..she doesnt even move. She is saying that i deserved it in a way that I neglected her, that when she was in agony i did not even care...and this is not true! She doesnt understand that what happend between us is a fault for both of us. And i can undarstand.if you wanna leave me...but she doesnt

...she is acting like there is nothing abmormal...that i am overdramstising

..that she needs time...she told me so many times she loves me and that she wants me and that she doesnt wanna leave me thst she wants a nee begginig...but at the same time she continues.to act so horrible...even i just start talking with her for random thing, without drama and everything...she just cant

..i understand a lot of stuuff about leos....that they wont show even if they are hurting..that when they feel neglected the can became mondters....but....i dont desrve all of this...i really dont i and i chased her so much showing everything and ok if she doesnt want me...tell.me.....but why say u love and that you want a new beggning and then this....i will leave her now....i mean idk what else to do

..i mean she hurt me like hell and i love her so much but there is a line...she wants to put everything on me...so tell me....is this love according to you leos...should i excpect this person to return apologizing showing reall effort and desrie for this...should i just let her be until she clears her head....i dont undarstand how can somebody can love you in such way and the direspect you like this....who does that.!?!

So can you explaing me the logic here thank you 😄

If you explained both side foreal and without nothing left out then Ill say fuck dat hoe already. I understand her to some certain extent but she is outta line with treating you like garbage and then lowkey have side boo. Leos that pulls this shit and then play the blame game needs to muthafuckin recognize. Its pathethic she needs to own her faults and setbacks otherwise shes just a childish leo that never grew up and needs to be taken care of ugh bye you do ur own thing and get money. Shell be back watch.

Logic? None of yall using logic if u still worrying about each other. She aint trying you trying too much she wants to be a baby and wants u to beg to come back i know how thirsty leos can truly be

I undarstand...

I will.leave her...but do you think she will.come back? I dont even know why i still.love her...after all of this...

Do you think that this is love....do you think that...idk...i am.just trying.to warp my mind about this.

Posted by Aeryan
I undarstand...

I will.leave her...but do you think she will.come back? I dont even know why i still.love her...after all of this...

Do you think that this is love....do you think that...idk...i am.just trying.to warp my mind about this.

I know it hurts too much but youll get over her soon. Shes immature she needs to grow on her own literally. Once someone who is everything she wasnt finds you. Youll see what we mean by leave her now before it gets too serious again. She lost what she should have loved without any selfishness.

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@Aquarius09

So you think I'm a lesbian or that I'm aggressive like a fire sign?

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@Aquarius09

So you think I'm a lesbian or that I'm aggressive like a fire sign?

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No no. I just want you to help her.

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@Aquarius09

So you think I'm a lesbian or that I'm aggressive like a fire sign?

No no. I just want you to help her.

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Can't relate.

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@Aquarius09

So you think I'm a lesbian or that I'm aggressive like a fire sign?

No no. I just want you to help her.

Can't relate.

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Ok.

I would.love some more opinions..i am trying to deal.with everything and would.love.to hear somebody talking. 😄 thank you

Posted by aquarius_beauty
Leos and Aquas have this undeniable connection but somehow one or both always ends up hurt.

I say walk away. I left my Leo and cut him off last night. I'm just not going to tolerate someone treating me in a way I don't deserve to be treated.

what??

why?

tell us what happened!

if you want to of course...



I mean what did he do to make you so upset?? that you just walked away.

my man always pissing me off and we piss eachother off all the time. well not daily but gosh...

damn...that man. *smh* but I love him lots.

He even said, to me, jokingly, "I could be mean to you and you still love me."

lol

"but honey snuggle buggle snug snug snug....you are very good to me!"

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his favorite saying so far, is ..."why do you love me?"



"because you are my husband!"

"What??!!! that's not a good excuse."

And I snuggle buggle into him happily purringgg...

"it's good excuse!!!"



I found this photo on pininterest, and thought it's a good one to describe the cuddly wuddly!!

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Posted by aquarius_beauty
Leos and Aquas have this undeniable connection but somehow one or both always ends up hurt.

I say walk away. I left my Leo and cut him off last night. I'm just not going to tolerate someone treating me in a way I don't deserve to be treated.

what??

why?

tell us what happened!

if you want to of course...



I mean what did he do to make you so upset?? that you just walked away.

my man always pissing me off and we piss eachother off all the time. well not daily but gosh...

damn...that man. *smh* but I love him lots.

He even said, to me, jokingly, "I could be mean to you and you still love me."

lol

"but honey snuggle buggle snug snug snug....you are very good to me!"

edit



his favorite saying so far, is ..."why do you love me?"



"because you are my husband!"

"What??!!! that's not a good excuse."

And I snuggle buggle into him happily purringgg...

"it's good excuse!!!"



I found this photo on pininterest, and thought it's a good one to describe the cuddly wuddly!!

Yeah 😭 it hurts soo much @lisabethur8 . But I can't stand being ignored. He's been distant since I saw him last Thursday. I think it had to do with my ex or maybe because he has someone else. I honestly don't know. I'm just mad about how he claims to care about me, takes ownership of me (saying I'm his), and saying he has feelings for me only to ignore me. My Leo friend said she does that when she's upset and closes off to people but it's just so hurtful. I've told him not to do it in the past. He was doing good, then he did to me last night. I'm just moving on. I can't keep doing this to myself.

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i'd trust your intuition if you think it was about your ex.

a man's pride is gonna hurt if you have your ex around or if you're pining over an ex ect.

he wants to be number one in your life, so if you feel that it's the ex, then trust that intuition.



you just gotta go to him and talk to him, if you value him and his love. you can't just walk away just from that. you need to communicate and maybe do so, in a very soft atmosphere.

try and do that!





gosh I just saw my post above, I sound like yupvirgo and his wife. so barf-worthy of lovey dovey.

Hello again people.

I have some update, if somebody is interested.

Please....I need somebody to tell me something...something that makes sense.

So, after NY we are stil at the same position. I understoon (she told me after asking her a million times) that she kissed the other girl I was telling you about in the first post. She told me that she feels awful, that she loves me and wants me...and that she is sorry...and she wants another chance.

And...I expect that she will treat me better you know...like before...she will show me how much she loves me and shit...this is normal right—? It is normal to expect it....

No....she is still defensive and anry, she acting horrible with me...horrible...i was crying everyday telling her please...please why are you acting like this...leave me if you dont love me....and she says no I love you...please relax for a few days, forgive me and come....I wont chase you...I wont do a big gesture....I asked her to remove the girl from her life...she told me no....I asked her ïf I tell you that all it takes for me to relax and trust you again is you to come and hug me...and tell me how much you love me...would you do it...she said no...she says I am dramatic, that I need to relax, I am trying to explain to her that she is acting horrible...and she just deny it....i mean these leo people can say white when you show them black just for the sake of everything. And at one point I become pissed, so I go and tell her "listen..eighter you fight for this relationship the way I am...or just go...because I dont undarstand why you say I love you but you are not doing anything>...."" and then she goes angry...I stop texting her and then she starts texting please my love, i love you lets be together, I want you, I want our relation ship, please, I love you dont you see it, I am trying to make you forgive me....but she doesnt....she never invited me out...she never came trying to lead normal coversation...she is still rude and sarcastic....basically she wants to destroy everything and just open a new page and start over....without taking care of what she destroyed...life doesnt work like that. And the way she treated me before...our love...the way we treated each other...now everything looks like every second fucked up relationship between two people.

I made a date with her tonight...I am planing to go and tell her straight forward that I love her but she is just not the person I know and this person will never leave me suffer like this without doing something. You cannot lie to somebody and treat them like dirt and then say "sorry, relax for a few days and come back, I love you"....

And I will do it........

But please tell me....tell me why does she keep saying that she loves me....that she wants me....but when I ask for hug..when I cry in front of her she acts like this...why does she keep being so disrepectful....what is the fucking logic...even if I say ok lets just stop....she goes nut and starts typing ï love you please dont", she tells me "I will see you tomorrow if you dont want to, I will see you even if this is the last thing i am going to do"" and the next day she doesnt do anything...

WHYYYYYY

Please....please...help me undarstand....what is this....

Sorry...i just really need somebody to talk to, I feel really bad...and my friends are already sick of telling me "just let go, stop it, stop expecting that she will do what it takes, she is just stupid"....but this isnt enough for me...to just name somebody stupid and move on....I guess because I am aqua haha....I need somebody to talk to...not to give me hope....but to help me undarstand.... 😢

Posted by Aeryan
I undarstand...

I will.leave her...but do you think she will.come back? I dont even know why i still.love her...after all of this...

Do you think that this is love....do you think that...idk...i am.just trying.to warp my mind about this.

This is not love you're an Aquarius. You have a hard time letting go of people who treat you like crap because you're loyal and value frijendship and a connection. You deserve betrer but you wont accept that you do and will continue loving a chick who doesn't respect you until one day they light goes off in your head that you need to get a grip.

Hi again.

Reading my post after a few days makes me realize even more how you're right about everything.

I did meet with her that night and I did tell her, I told her that I love her with all my heart but I really deserve better than this and she used to be different and now she is somebody else. I told her that I deserve somebody that will...who wont make me feel this way.

We said a lot of things. She said she loves me and just wants a new start. I asked her "Do you realize the way you treat me?", she said yes, I asked "Then how come you expect somebody to come and start something normal when you dont even treat them with respect"". I told her that I couldnt believe that from all people she will act like this, I told her that I am very sad that I let person like this have such control over me. And I told her that I dont deserve it and thats way I am walking away giving her freedom to do whatever makes her happy. She didnt want it....but I left anyway.

It was on sunday,since then we didnt chat or call....nothing....I feel bad...but I know its for the best.

I never chased somebody like this and I never let anybody treat me like that. I lost my self respect and self love for something I thought at the time its bigger than personal pride....but I guess nothing is bigger than loving yourself....so..she was the first person I did this for...and hopefully for the last.

I feel bad....but in a way....it was the right thing to do....its like my whole body said thank you....its really strange feeling. Anyway...thank you all...for talking to heart broken girl that forgot how to love herself first.

Hi again.

Reading my post after a few days makes me realize even more how you're right about everything.

I did meet with her that night and I did tell her, I told her that I love her with all my heart but I really deserve better than this and she used to be different and now she is somebody else. I told her that I deserve somebody that will...who wont make me feel this way.

We said a lot of things. She said she loves me and just wants a new start. I asked her "Do you realize the way you treat me?", she said yes, I asked "Then how come you expect somebody to come and start something normal when you dont even treat them with respect"". I told her that I couldnt believe that from all people she will act like this, I told her that I am very sad that I let person like this have such control over me. And I told her that I dont deserve it and thats way I am walking away giving her freedom to do whatever makes her happy. She didnt want it....but I left anyway.

It was on sunday,since then we didnt chat or call....nothing....I feel bad...but I know its for the best.

I never chased somebody like this and I never let anybody treat me like that. I lost my self respect and self love for something I thought at the time its bigger than personal pride....but I guess nothing is bigger than loving yourself....so..she was the first person I did this for...and hopefully for the last.

I feel bad....but in a way....it was the right thing to do....its like my whole body said thank you....its really strange feeling. Anyway...thank you all...for talking to heart broken girl that forgot how to love herself first.