hi libras i just wanna know

hi guys, 5days ago i broke up w/ my libra, he lost so much time 4 me that it scared the fuck out of me & assumed that he's ignoring me or maybe he's found some1 coz he's been cold and distant, though he leaves me messages in bet that he's busy but i feel diffrent so at first that was okay as i have always been passive & was never clingy & possesive only lately when he's not giving me much time that my insecurities are ignited, i admit my fault that its so immature of me, but seriously i got scared that he will soon reject me, so i talked to him & said im breaking up & wished him well so he said "hmm cool, bye" then he even deleted me on fb and block me that day. the next day he unblock me. we didnt talk for 2 days, the next day i message him was explaining to him & said i was sorry & hope he's doing good, he responded though & says he loves and misses me, so i replied & his next message was "if u want to stay, stay, if not fine just leave" he says "u hve no patience so we'll see what future holds in the next few days". i didnt respond to that anymore i just decided to keep quiet & give his space seems he's so upset about me then like 15hrs later he messge me saying "no message means no patience, its hard to say goodbye but il get used to it, i think u just wanna break it up coz uv found some1 & u just want me out" so i said "no message means im contemplating not being impatient and ive no one except u" then we talked & he's acted so diff i can see how upset he was w/ me, he's always been the patient & calm one but now omg he's on a rampage! he called me b**ch, ask me to get lost, says he rejects me & he dont want me anymore that im worthless he evn says im fooling he thinks i lied in 1 thing w/c i know for sure i didnt. right now, i dont think he's understand my point as ive explained myself, he used to always have the balance and he always sees my point but now seems he doesnt. its like "i dont wanna hear anything right now, im not ready for ur explanations". he's never the type to breakdown but now he is. u know i let him say what he wants so that all the anguish he feels towards me will come out just so he can breathe and relax. he's said so many hurtful words but i just kept quiet & digest them all im hurt but i didnt really took it personally coz i know its my fault & he's just at the peak of his emotions, this is the first time he did it. he says he never will leave me he loves me and will die for me then says bye and change his mind ask me if i want

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To continue then he'll get all fired up and push me away again and ask me if i want to continue yes or no. he saw that i was just taking everything all in, all the hurtful words until he lay low and stop yelling. my last message was, " i hope u find ur answers & know that i aint lying, i hope that 1 day u stop hating on me and that all the anguish u feel towards me goes away and i hope u still see whats good in me,i will fuck off now until the day u think im worthy". he just read it but didnt respond to it. i just wanna ask,libras avoid conflict and always seek balance, my bf acted diff for the first time, uhm when u said something like those words do u get guilty & process things? esp if uv proven that we aint lying or fooling u, do u ever feel sorry or will u ever say? we havent talked for a day as i said i will fuck off & also to give him space to think things over but i have a feeling that he's getting guilty by his words. thanks guys, any insights here are welcome. and yes its my fault i admit guys. thanks

hi tiziani and kingvirgo thanks for ur response and LOL kingvirgo u made me laugh though 🙂.. hmmm when he was getting outta control and starts talking BS about me i was hurt coz that was the first time he did that but not very much affected coz i know that i aint anything like that.. then he ask me to get lost so i said okay i will then he starts saying i dont have a heart to understand ppl's problem, when he certainly knew that i do and he knows that most ppl come to me for comfort and advise then he said i dont hve a heart.. btw u think it has something to do with this? before he starts getting cold and distant i told him about a friend (sagg guy) coz this friend is like trying to hit on me, and actually im not really the type to go out and mingle with a lot but i do have some guy friends i dont wanna sound conceited but the only concern is that my guy friends are always showing interest in me and u can tell they are trying to hit on me, so my bf would call then as my follower.. my bf was never a jealous guy but that night he's got pretty upset and says "i can read ur friend he's trying so hard to get to u so" i said "well goodluck to him i can smell from here i know he's trying but i got u honey" and seriously ive never cheated in any of my relationships im a loyal pisces to a fault, i even shared to my bf the conversations how plain friendhip i talk to my friends.. my bf always project a cool image, so i wouldnt know if he's having problems or not but after that night he says he is jealous of my friends the next day he starts getting colda nd distant and thats when he ignores me though leaves me messges and says he loves and misses me and im his always.. u think the jealousy also hassomething to do with it? coz i know i didnt do anything big except that i tried to break up bec of my insecurities other than that nothing, no 3rd party or so.. i hope we find our way back.. *sigh*