She is frivolous and imprudent. She lacks judgement, and is full of self-importance. She has difficulty in realizing her plans, because she lacks clarity and rates her qualities higher than they are.
-136 Square Mercury - Saturn
She is reserved, conservative, ambitious and stubborn. She might have problems expressing herself, particularly verbally, due to shyness or fear of criticism. Social success may be slow and laborious, but she does not give up easily and is patient.
Whatever you say and write is self-censored to some degree. It's hard for you to pour out your emotions, no matter how emotional or needy you feel on the inside. This is because you are always aware of what others might think of you with what you say. You are careful with what you reveal to others. You make plenty of disclaimers, and often come across as negative or sarcastic without intending to. You often review conversations you have had with others, and you often kick yourself for saying something you didn't intend to, or for not saying something witty. There can be some feelings of insecurity about how you speak and communicate in general. Self-consciousness and hypersensitivity is experienced with regards to your intelligence and/or ability to get ideas across to others, especially in youth. You need plenty of positive feedback from others in order to feel more confident and less "blocked".
Recognize that you are most likely harder on yourself about how you communicate than others are. Ask people close to you for an objective point of view. Chances are, they find you to be astute, intelligent, and an effective speaker or writer. We often tell our kids "don't worry about what others think", but telling this to a person with a hard Saturn aspects is not enough, nor is it realistic. They will worry. You rarely accept compliments whole-heartedly, yet you crave them and need them. Others around you tend to stop complimenting you, feeling that you either don't need compliments or don't want to hear them. Nothing can be further than the truth!
-86 Square Mercury - Neptune
She makes errors of judgement, and lacks sincerity. She lets things happen, and is happy in her dreamworld. Confronted by reality, she is hesitant, incapable of being tested and falls back into her imaginary world. She might become a drug-taker."
Reading this gives me anxiety.. scary how accurate it is.
I do have a difficulty expressing myself verbally. (even in writing)
I primarily think in pictures and feelings, so it is always harder for me using words.
But I have an ease to express myself through art and dance. Non verbal, body language is my "first language". I love finding symbolism behind images. I often don't finish my phrases, but I'm trying to insinuate something ..or because i don't know what to say 😢
I think my bubblyness and carelessness comes from my mercury in libra haha
The men in particular?