wanted to share with you...

Ok. just have to share. I have been having the hardest year of my life. So, many bad things has happend.One of my cousins killed himself and I found the body, then the love of my life left me,got depressed,my best friend died in a car accident, almost lost my job because... I just couldn't get my act together.I was crying and being pathetic all the time. And it seemed like every morning I would get up in a hole.

I have always loved God. and I could not believe that he could break my spirit like that. And why he has abondend me.Even hated him for awhile.I didn't pray and decided to not ask him for anything anymore... because all I got was heartache.And the more I prayed the more it seemed like I was losing my mind.

Now almost 9 months later things are looking up for me. Just got a promotion -yesterday, the vice president is comming to meet me next week. And I might be on my way to New York soon. Always wanted the job there.

I met someone,he swept me of my feet.And now I am sitting here crying my eyes out. Because God really did save the best for last.And he never gave up on me. And all of the things that I went through... seems like a lifetime away.

Thank you all for being there and the great advice. Didn't always listen.

I shared the bad with you . So now I want to share the good.

Love you all and I appreciate all of you so much. Ok ,can't stop crying....LOL

Very happy for you bella 79.. Life has a funny way of challenging us and making us dig deep down into ourselves..I had and am still having a bad year but I hope thing will turn around as well, it is hard to stay positive when everything is going wrong!! And I have also questioned "what did I do to deserve this? " ..But i know it will turn around..

I hope your life continues to be blessed with good things..I hope your new man is not a Libra or at least not a damaged one LOL..

Keep riding the wave Bella it's a good place to be and you deserve it!!!!

Hi Bella,

I'm so sorry for your loss, but I'm greatly happy to hear that things are starting to look up for you. Thank you for sharing this, because you give many of us who have hit/are hitting rock bottom hope for a better tomorrow. =)

keep hanging on to God! Happy for you!

er, you might want to change your icon / avatar.

Thanks everyone.

Felt a little, OK a lot overwelhed. Got scared. Things are moving to fast. This weekend!!! Luckily I had time for myself.I started thinking about all the what if's .

New guy that I am seeing just said that he appreciates me and I should stop thinking and analysis so much.And I should learn to enjoy the here and now.

I will just try and take one day at a time and see how things go.And try not to get ahead of myself, like we Leo's do.

Yay!!! Bella!!! God Bless.

Wooo, Bella girl God threw a load a blessings on you all at once, lol....congrats 😉

Sorry to hear about your cousin and your best friend...

Thanks everyone... it is still sinking in.

Still learning to take a day at a time and just enjoying the here and now.It is definetly not in my nature to go with the flow. I like to know where things are at...I am a lot controlling.So,it good to have someone that understands that about my personality.

I went back and read my old post and can't believe the things I wrote.It is amazing how when you have moved on the things you have said and did seems so crazy and out of character.But when I was in it. The situation seemed like life or death to me.

Ex- Libra still has the capacity to unsettle me.... But no longer in a HE DRIVES ME CRAZY KINDA WAY".

It would also seemed that some Leo's on this board had a "reality check"... something happend.Whatever happend it is good. It is about time....

Yay Bella!

You are such a wonderful person I am glad things are looking up!

Awesome about maybe moving to New York! I am a little envious. 🙂

Be well my friend!

HUGS!

Hey! You had a pretty picture. Now you're back to Lil' Devil. Good photo for a while there. Hope everything is flowing GOOD for you!

thanks Atom and little_sparrow

Atom, I am good. Work is just hectic, but love it. busy planning a baby shower for my younger sister, for next week.

And summer is just starting! so, it is all good.I put my photo back...

Hope that all is well with you as well.

OK. So, I got the promotion but no moving to New York.I am young maybe next time.
I am so tired just want to go home and sleep...

Right now I just need to chill where I am at.And assess things.I am really happy now.