Does this happen to anyone else?

I have an active and emotional mind and I’m always thinking about something things.

Some of the things I that pop into my head are really embarrassing and random (I can’t control them) and my reaction to deal with said thoughts is to scream NIGGER! or NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER!

When I first did it, it would come out as random mumble (kind of what crazy people say in the street) and then it progressed into me saying “monkeys” and now I say “nigger” (not my choice)

I’ve done it for a really long time it’s kind of like when you’re about to go to sleep and you think about slipping over and your body reacts to falling over and tenses up to prepare for the impact.

I can’t help it and it gets worse when I’m hung over

Also I’m starting to not be able to control it when I’m in public, like if I’m at work or or in town

I’ve said it infront of Africans and I feel really bad about it and then I get paranoid

Does anyone else do this shit?

For fucks sake when are they going To Take the censorship off this forum?!?

I need to explain that I say the N word, if you censor the site then shit gets lost in translation and everyone is all the more dumber!!! FFS!!!!

You have zero control over it?

And your body seizes up right before. Sounds like the symtoms for Tourette’s...

But talk to your doctor cause I’m not one.

I just looked up this video and had a good laugh, kind of made me feel better.

Shakedown - When I first started and started mumbling stupid crazy shit I sounded crazy and that made me embarrassed and then slowly over time I got into the habit of saying monkeys instead of incoherent nonsense. Then all my friends and family started to tease me because I would say monkeys all the time and then slowly it turned into nigger, Because if I said a swear word it would make more sense to yell it than monkeys. I used to say just Ni@@er but now slowly it’s starting to change to Ni@@er Ni@@er Ni@@er! And if I say it fast enough it sounds like nikanikanika and I try to pass it off as that if someone is offended.

Ugh it’s doing my head in I’m just gonna go to the doctor

Ok I figured it out, it’s called Coprolalia and it’s Latin for Sh $ t talk lol

It’s a mental illness brought on by lots of things and I think the reason it manifested in me was when I damaged my brain from drug use lol

I stayed up for 5 days straight smoking crack and I was attacked in my house a couple of times and I snapped and had a nervous break down and I triggered my flight and fight response and had ptsd from it ever since