Hi! LooK Its Me

Hi!

Its me. It's your BEST friend in the big ol humungous freakin world!!
Well, I just want to say that I really do love you almost 100% again.
Tonight I am celebrating my fourth month of insanity. But I am enjoying every minute of it.
That tall, handsome, stranger is responsible for all my pleasure and PAIN. Oh, and I do think it was him that has been phoning me like I had imagined. I couldnt really know for sure, because he never said anything. Well, today was almost a miracle; he called(I think), and it was music to my ears! Here is his very words " hi, is Linda there?, oh, I am sorry I thought this was the nursing home." Gawd... can you believe that? Makes me swoon all over again. The following times he called I think he was just plumb out of things to talk about, because he would just call and then hang up, but hey, we can communicate without needing to talk to one another! He is just one big huge cutiepatootiemuchin teddy bear and if I could get a hold of him I would grab his face with both hand and stick it right between my breasts✨snort*

so...I want you all to raise a glass with me and toast to me and my future husband's anniversary, and then maybe all my dreams and plans and prayers will finally come TRUE! I think there was a thread that asked what heaven would be like? Heaven for me would be to look in my baby's eyes and and tell him how much I love him and need him and then I would kiss him very gently on the mouth. I would hold him, my arms around his waist, stroking his back and caressing his entire body with my warm sweet love.

Gawd will it ever happen— I am seriously very impatient. This is serious. I am being serious! (This is NO butter). Now, I know you all think I am twisted, but I am now ready to open up and share with you myelf my heartache and the joy of my life.

I know I have at times been confusing to people; hey, I confuse myself sometimes. Love can make you do crazy things. At times I feel like two different people. At work I am this go getter, straight to the point and into my work investigative- type- legal person. Outside of work I am in this other world where I am the opposite. I am insecure and lonely and unsure of myself. I love to laugh and enjoy my dogs and reading and the outdoors and cooking and gardening and sewing etc...I do not socialize outside my family or go out on dates. The internet is how I socialize. I have a few problems with anxiety and this is why. I may have mentioned that before I am not sure.

Please, dont lecture me on my faults I know all about them.

Sincerely
SuzyQ!

I guess I am talking to the freakin wall here. Ok, I get it, nobody wants to talk and you are all soooo busy with your important lives. I finally want to tell you somethings and you wont let me!

Actually our anniversay started on the 20th, but Venus was retro so I had to post pone the celebration, if you know what I mean??

Its all screwed up now! If I had my other aliases, I could at least console myself, but NO you had to take that away from me. It is a unkind world out here!

Ok, well time is a wastin and this is some of me and who I am. I am glad to share it with anyone. Have a great eveinging and a terrific weekend!

SuzyQ!

Its your loss! We could have had fun and goodtimes. Ya wanna be a stick in the mud then stay here all by yourself!
I am moving on! Dont expect so much from people and ya wont be sorry! That is my last bit of wisdom.

I don't know what you mean by 'insane' but i think we are all a little 'insane' at times. Reading your posts makes me realise that you are just another person, like a lot of us, who is struggling to get to know yourself and to find your place in this world of ours.

Libragirl...it is no wonder I am enamored of you! You are the most liberal-minded individual! I should take a lesson from you!