Your Beautiful Mind ☽ **

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I've learned recently that my mind hasn't been as positive as I would have liked. It's positive here on DXPNET but I usually come here after jolts of high energy to not affect others. However, the mind works over time and not just when you think it does. My thoughts have been more negative as constant "negative" things have happened recently. I even labeled them negative. This negativity keeps me from doing things right and it has pushed people away.

Losing hope and faith recently has snowballed and leaked into everything and everyone around me. Dirt isn't the only thing that gets on our sheets and countertops, the negative energy does as well.

Are the counters clean? It's not just dirt.*

Are the people around you happy or pulling away? It's not just them.*

Why do you think we can't find the love of our dreams.? It's not just up to fate*.

We STINK* to them because of how we use our minds. This is the answer to me.

I lost my best friend and the love of my life because of how my mind has been. A lot of negative things have happened recently too, and I just gave up. The quality of my mind over an extended period dropped. This proves to me that I need to always talk positively and allow my mind to be a loving Father, a loving Mother, or my best friend. This always must be. Always*

Also, NO ONE, NOR SOCIETY SHOULD HAVE THE RIGHT TO OWN YOUR MIND OR TELL YOU HOW TO USE IT.

It is ours, it is our organ. If you are not in control of how your mind is being used then that is similar to being a slave or a pet. you will only meet people that your parents and those around you at a early age desire you to. It will be up to the quality of thinking that was taught. It won't be up to you.

EXAMPLE:

1.

n- there is no point in getting up and typing this.

p- i can type this! i can type this!

2.

n- im always messing up, no one will love me.

p- everything will be okay. this is only a slip in the mud!

3.

n- this mistake is stupid. i am stupid.

p- you are not stupid. These are puzzles to help you evolve.



You are loved still as if you were a baby in the eyes of God and those who love you. This should be the quality of the mind or even higher 24/7. It is linked to what I believe to be our true essence.

We are powerful, loving, ancient beings of light.

When we are depressed or feeling that everything is pointless, that means your mind is sick. * It has a cold and it's best to take control. Yes, it's okay to be there because these moments are crucial to learn and grow. But when you are ready, it's best to steer your ship over there in the direction desired!!

**

"YES, Captain Sparrow! I SEE THE MOTHERLAND! CONTINUE ON IN THAT DIRECTION!! 60 KNOTS!! "NOOO JACK! NOT INTO THE DAMN KRAKEN!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?"

***

If we have negative parents or guardians, it's best to enhance our minds because there is a good chance the quality, not necessarily the same thoughts, but the quality is still the same as theirs. However, if your mom or father is living prosperously and making it, and you two are close, give them a huge hug right before you even finish reading this post please.

I have taken notice of this though.

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IMPORTANT FOR ALL MEN AND WOMEN WHO MAY BE IN A LEADERSHIP POSITION. ESPECIALLY MEN.

The people we lead will go where we go even off a cliff and into the wrong direction. If you are overweight, your child will most likely be overweight, especially if you two see eye to eye on things. This doesn't mean you are a bad parent, but our children and everyone that we lead deserve to be led in a positive direction on a prosperous path.

I'll post videos here of people who think prosperously as much as I can. However, one of my best friends, Fergie, My dog, may crossover soon and I may not be on as often. I'm going to do my best to treat this like a graduation though if she does decide to go. I will do better with blanketing her in love for the travel she may take. She will be with my mom, her sister, and all beings of light.

Also, groups of people who think positive is a plus too.

Even if you are an atheist, sitting in the back of a church while drawing or listening could help. You don't have to believe but believe in the quality*. Their minds are usually highly positive. Most people who go to church are and turn out to be pretty prosperous and better because their mind is linked to who they truly are and connect to Light* or God* or Source. * Or the father* You decide.

One Last thing...

If you are smoking or consuming THC and you don't have a positive mind, please stop for a while. You won't get the benefits of the plant if you are led to being negative. You will just be ungrounded and floating around not doing anything. I have fallen to this before as the plant is known to easily increase frequency (CBD AND THC) but it is the MIND that is in control. The more negative the mind is, the harder it will be for the plant to lead you into your heart.

WARNING: this could even lead to negative intelligent invisible beings if you constantly let others control the mind and give in to fear. It's like a slow door that is opening and then they can enter into your reality without knowing. They are smart and so are the living and that is why you must take control of the mind first.

It is crucial not just for us but but for the ones we love and everyone around us. They may not be with you as long as you think if your mind stinks and nothing is getting done to solve it. .



Have a beautiful mind for 24 Hours. Increase the quality and the quality around us will increase.

☽ **

Michael's beautiful mind and how he chose to deal with racism in the 80s.





☽ **

Negative Title but he tells a beautiful lesson and reason.

what's the tl;dr?

Do you think that positivity feeds the mind and heart which can then increase psychic connection? This is why I believe all children are still psychic and see things. The younger they are, the more powerful and the more imagination they have.

Please praise them for their imagination when possible.

I don't think I got this as a child. Well, I did but not taken seriously.

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( Imagination + feelings ) Psychic Doorway

***

Also too, This is mostly anecdotal but I just feel Negativity and Lower beliefs created by us, by man, shrinks this connection to our pyschic/God abilities, our mediumship abilities, and is the real* dark spell over man.To keep an on going negative thought pattern to keep most people going in the wrong direction due to 2% link caused by man's beliefs and systems. The others though are the ones who succeed and influence others.

My father once told me that he was preconceptive; he could dream of events before they happen. However, he says he lost it as he aged. This I assume is due to the beliefs from his parents (who were heavily alcoholic, not to judge them or throw under the bus but to get an idea of the rate at which his abilities may have receded in

Posted by hydorah
what's the tl;dr?

You funny lol. alright

Your Beautiful Mind ☽ ** (short and sweet diet coke version lol)

HAVING A NEGATIVE MIND STINKS AND CAUSES PAIN

do you agree?

Posted by BadderBunny
@xxAjuxx As far as a negative mind attracting negative entities, I dont know about that, but it does attract other negative people. And yes it may push people away who dont want to be effected by negativity. I feel though its situational as to what is causing the negativity whether that is true.

I agree that its good to try to replace negative thoughts with positive thoughts when you can. But its also okay to give yourself some time to process that negative energy. Especially when it comes from loss and grief which is a process. Its okay to be angry when bad things happen to you and acknowledge you are justified to feel that way. However if you feel sadness and negativity are dragging you down, its also okay to seek counseling. Sometimes you can't just get over it and be okay. Sometimes you need someone to process and co-regulate your emotions with.

In terms of connecting with people who have positive energy whether it be spiritual leaders or friends, yes that can help pull you out of your darkness. Even just listening to positive music can lift your mood. I'm not a Christian, but I find gospel music and other inspiration music really lifts my spirits and raises my vibration when I am down. Faith in something better is contagious.

People tend to smoke tobacco or marijuana to helo them mellow, but I have heard it can actually maje symptoms of anxiety and depression worst, so I agree.

Beautifully well said. Thank you. I agree.



It helps reading too because it can be a little abusive on self to try and run from feelings that are hard. This can create possible shadow personality in myself if im not careful, . The lesson may be "negative" but our minds don't have to follow the undesired experience because of it.

Posted by BadderBunny
@xxAjuxx As far as a negative mind attracting negative entities, I dont know about that, but it does attract other negative people. And yes it may push people away who dont want to be effected by negativity. I feel though its situational as to what is causing the negativity whether that is true.

I agree that its good to try to replace negative thoughts with positive thoughts when you can. But its also okay to give yourself some time to process that negative energy. Especially when it comes from loss and grief which is a process. Its okay to be angry when bad things happen to you and acknowledge you are justified to feel that way. However if you feel sadness and negativity are dragging you down, its also okay to seek counseling. Sometimes you can't just get over it and be okay. Sometimes you need someone to process and co-regulate your emotions with.

In terms of connecting with people who have positive energy whether it be spiritual leaders or friends, yes that can help pull you out of your darkness. Even just listening to positive music can lift your mood. I'm not a Christian, but I find gospel music and other inspiration music really lifts my spirits and raises my vibration when I am down. Faith in something better is contagious.

People tend to smoke tobacco or marijuana to helo them mellow, but I have heard it can actually maje symptoms of anxiety and depression worst, so I agree.

and this is hard ...

but I will see her in light as much as possible.

Your relationship ended Aju? 🥹

i feel like positive thoughts/emotions and negative thoughts/emotions can peacefully coexist with one another and there’s no need for us to beat ourselves up for having any of them. 🙂

just let yourself feel whatever you wanna feel without making it a bigger deal than it really has to be.

what i mean by that is, try not to be like, “i’m feeling negative lately and i’m giving off negative vibes to the world and people are running away from me.”

to me, that sounds like you’re almost trying to like punish yourself for feeling negative?

as long as you’re not like lashing out at other people, being hostile/violent towards other people, it’s really not that big of a deal.

you’re just quietly feeling negative. you’re not like bothering anyone. you’re just having a universally human experience.

if people happen to run away from you, they were most likely gonna run away at some point. that’s how i see it.

i mean, you’re obviously not a downer who’s trying to like suck all the joy out of people as far as i know. in fact you’re always trying to spread love and light to people (at least whenever i see you on here. i dunno how you are in private but yeah)

people will always gravitate towards people who are trying.

trying to be better, trying to do good, trying to do the very best that they can.

people will always gravitate towards people like that no matter what.

so don’t worry.

you have the right mindset already. you’re not trying to stay in one spot feeling sorry for yourself. you’re trying to get up and be hopeful again. that’s always the right direction to be heading in.

Posted by Wizardzz

Posted by hydorah
what's the tl;dr?

Peace and light etc etc

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I'm breaking the 4th wall I suppose here

But I always wanted to be transparent on this site.

Because I'm just like everyone.

I hope this video is better for explaining guys.

I did my best to explain how I'm feelin.

Thank you all for putting up with my crap

And even taking the time to interact with me.

(12th house neptune might be a sign of many blindspots I haven't seen about myself)



@hydorah

@Wizardzz

@BadderBunny

@Serenidad

@MyStarsShine

Posted by xxAjuxx

Posted by Wizardzz

Posted by hydorah
what's the tl;dr?

Peace and light etc etc
click to expand

I'm breaking the 4th wall I suppose here

But I always wanted to be transparent on this site.

Because I'm just like everyone.

I hope this video is better for explaining guys.

I did my best to explain how I'm feelin.

Thank you all for putting up with my crap

And even taking the time to interact with me.

(12th house neptune might be a sign of many blindspots I haven't seen about myself)


@hydorah

@Wizardzz

@BadderBunny

@Serenidad

@MyStarsShine

so sorry about your dog not feeling well…it’s hard to see your pet in any sorta pain and not being able to alleviate it.

but so i’m glad your dad’s like at least helping you out with money? you didn’t mention that until halfway through the video so my ass was looking up ways to send money overseas through paypay/payforex (a famous cash app here in japan) 😂

you were saying you might get evicted but where are you planning to go? are you gonna like stay with your family or ? do you have a plan of some sort? are you employed right now? sorry i’m asking way too many questions. you don’t have to answer if you don’t wanna.

also yeah i agree with the futility of

in-fighting amongst all minority communities, not just blacks.

for example like gangs killing each other for a street block, a piece of land that doesn’t even belong to them in the first place (i mean, it technically belongs to the city or the government or whoever tf owns it, not them) dudes killing each other over a verbal diss, a perceived slight.

they’re directing their anger/hostility at the wrong people/things. but gangs in general offer a sense of camaraderie and belonging. as well as a false sense of power and control which appeals to many especially to those who come from broken homes where they felt isolated and shit. my dude went to school with a few latin kings. he himself wasn’t affiliated but he was around that environment and saw a lot of violence. it was a never ending clash/war of egos, he said.

he said ego will make us do crazy things we know we shouldn’t do, keep us oblivious to seeing the facts of a situation and seeing through to the heart of the matter. he says ego is strictly emotional but wise decisions are made from knowing the cold hard facts and ego will often get in the way of knowing the facts that we need to know.

like you mentioned in your video, we’re all special in own unique right but once we start thinking we’re more special than others or once we start operating from that sense of entitlement, it all goes down hill real quick.

but you’re gonna get through this. you’re realizing all these things now. some people go through their entire lives not realizing crucial things.

Posted by serenidad

Posted by xxAjuxx

Posted by Wizardzz

Posted by hydorah
what's the tl;dr?

Peace and light etc etc
click to expand

I'm breaking the 4th wall I suppose here
But I always wanted to be transparent on this site.
Because I'm just like everyone.
I hope this video is better for explaining guys.
I did my best to explain how I'm feelin.
Thank you all for putting up with my crap
And even taking the time to interact with me.
(12th house neptune might be a sign of many blindspots I haven't seen about myself)

@hydorah
@Wizardzz
@BadderBunny
@Serenidad
@MyStarsShine




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so sorry about your dog not feeling well…it’s hard to see your pet in any sorta pain and not being able to alleviate it.

but so i’m glad your dad’s like at least helping you out with money? you didn’t mention that until halfway through the video so my ass was looking up ways to send money overseas through paypay/payforex (a famous cash app here in japan) 😂

you were saying you might get evicted but where are you planning to go? are you gonna like stay with your family or ? do you have a plan of some sort? are you employed right now? sorry i’m asking way too many questions. you don’t have to answer if you don’t wanna.

also yeah i agree with the futility of

in-fighting amongst all minority communities, not just blacks.

for example like gangs killing each other for a street block, a piece of land that doesn’t even belong to them in the first place (i mean, it technically belongs to the city or the government or whoever tf owns it, not them) dudes killing each other over a verbal diss, a perceived slight.

they’re directing their anger/hostility at the wrong people/things. but gangs in general offer a sense of camaraderie and belonging. as well as a false sense of power and control which appeals to many especially to those who come from broken homes where they felt isolated and shit. my dude went to school with a few latin kings. he himself wasn’t affiliated but he was around that environment and saw a lot of violence. it was a never ending clash/war of egos, he said.

he said ego will make us do crazy things we know we shouldn’t do, keep us oblivious to seeing the facts of a situation and seeing through to the heart of the matter. he says ego is strictly emotional but wise decisions are made from knowing the cold hard facts and ego will often get in the way of knowing the facts that we need to know.

like you mentioned in your video, we’re all special in own unique right but once we start thinking we’re more special than others or once we start operating from that sense of entitlement, it all goes down hill real quick.

but you’re gonna get through this. you’re realizing all these things now. some people go through their entire lives not realizing crucial things.

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Thank You so much @serenidad

You can ask any question.

I've set up a GoFundMe a while back to help Fergie. You can donate there but this isn't why I was making the post. Any amount or nothing at all, you have such a good heart, Serenidad. My dad is helping me but this is all my responsibility still.

I am self-employed now at the moment as my car is no longer running. Fergie's health worsened at the same time too and I just felt it important to stay home with her and work while this process takes place; this was my excuse at the time.

Also, my videos are not going to keep snowballing into these types of PLUTO-themed videos lol. I know it's a heavy and serious video but I do promise to make more that are artistic, entertaining, educational, and lighthearted with comedy. I just felt it would be an interesting introduction to see me at my lowest first and then watch as I progress to have a healthier mind.



I didn't get to talk about why I was the way I was though. The link is from a trauma that happened to me as a child. I think if I never became aware of this, I would have evolved into #10029 Pokémon called "The Narcissist". I'm not a narcissist and I never was but there was potential of me becoming that. These traits were slowly getting worse I think over time. The empathy or "sensitivity" I did have kept people on thin ice though as it would make it difficult for people to be blunt with me fearing I would not talk to them again or maybe commit suicide. Some were blunt, but I wasn't listening due to my mind at the time.



I didn't understand the natural law of give and take plus I thought on a deeper level I didn't have anything to give. My thoughts and opinions about spirit were always wrong and my art was less than. but I had empathy still it was correct to think how I was, but the repercussions --bla bla this is still my own doing. Maybe this just helps me boost my seriousness and potential to be an effective teacher about all of this though.

I was born in Misawa because my dad was in the Airforce. Did you say you were in Osaka?

cause my dad was in the Air Force. Didn't you say you were in Osaka?

Posted by xxAjuxx

Posted by Wizardzz

Posted by hydorah
what's the tl;dr?

Peace and light etc etc
click to expand

I'm breaking the 4th wall I suppose here

But I always wanted to be transparent on this site.

Because I'm just like everyone.

I hope this video is better for explaining guys.

I did my best to explain how I'm feelin.

Thank you all for putting up with my crap

And even taking the time to interact with me.

(12th house neptune might be a sign of many blindspots I haven't seen about myself)


@hydorah

@Wizardzz

@BadderBunny

@Serenidad

@MyStarsShine

(((Aju)))

All that you say resonates with me ❤️

The thing that stood out in the video is the ✨light✨and hope that shines out of your eyes when you smile and it is beautiful to see. Your face is totally transformed.

🙏🙏 sent for you and Fergie.

Posted by xxAjuxx

Posted by serenidad

Posted by xxAjuxx

Posted by Wizardzz

Posted by hydorah
what's the tl;dr?

Peace and light etc etc
click to expand

I'm breaking the 4th wall I suppose here
But I always wanted to be transparent on this site.
Because I'm just like everyone.
I hope this video is better for explaining guys.
I did my best to explain how I'm feelin.
Thank you all for putting up with my crap
And even taking the time to interact with me.
(12th house neptune might be a sign of many blindspots I haven't seen about myself)

@hydorah
@Wizardzz
@BadderBunny
@Serenidad
@MyStarsShine




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so sorry about your dog not feeling well…it’s hard to see your pet in any sorta pain and not being able to alleviate it.

but so i’m glad your dad’s like at least helping you out with money? you didn’t mention that until halfway through the video so my ass was looking up ways to send money overseas through paypay/payforex (a famous cash app here in japan) 😂

you were saying you might get evicted but where are you planning to go? are you gonna like stay with your family or ? do you have a plan of some sort? are you employed right now? sorry i’m asking way too many questions. you don’t have to answer if you don’t wanna.

also yeah i agree with the futility of

in-fighting amongst all minority communities, not just blacks.

for example like gangs killing each other for a street block, a piece of land that doesn’t even belong to them in the first place (i mean, it technically belongs to the city or the government or whoever tf owns it, not them) dudes killing each other over a verbal diss, a perceived slight.

they’re directing their anger/hostility at the wrong people/things. but gangs in general offer a sense of camaraderie and belonging. as well as a false sense of power and control which appeals to many especially to those who come from broken homes where they felt isolated and shit. my dude went to school with a few latin kings. he himself wasn’t affiliated but he was around that environment and saw a lot of violence. it was a never ending clash/war of egos, he said.

he said ego will make us do crazy things we know we shouldn’t do, keep us oblivious to seeing the facts of a situation and seeing through to the heart of the matter. he says ego is strictly emotional but wise decisions are made from knowing the cold hard facts and ego will often get in the way of knowing the facts that we need to know.

like you mentioned in your video, we’re all special in own unique right but once we start thinking we’re more special than others or once we start operating from that sense of entitlement, it all goes down hill real quick.

but you’re gonna get through this. you’re realizing all these things now. some people go through their entire lives not realizing crucial things.

Thank You so much @serenidad

You can ask any question.

I've set up a GoFundMe a while back to help Fergie. You can donate there but this isn't why I was making the post. Any amount or nothing at all, you have such a good heart, Serenidad. My dad is helping me but this is all my responsibility still.

I am self-employed now at the moment as my car is no longer running. Fergie's health worsened at the same time too and I just felt it important to stay home with her and work while this process takes place; this was my excuse at the time.

Also, my videos are not going to keep snowballing into these types of PLUTO-themed videos lol. I know it's a heavy and serious video but I do promise to make more that are artistic, entertaining, educational, and lighthearted with comedy. I just felt it would be an interesting introduction to see me at my lowest first and then watch as I progress to have a healthier mind.



I didn't get to talk about why I was the way I was though. The link is from a trauma that happened to me as a child. I think if I never became aware of this, I would have evolved into #10029 Pokémon called "The Narcissist". I'm not a narcissist and I never was but there was potential of me becoming that. These traits were slowly getting worse I think over time. The empathy or "sensitivity" I did have kept people on thin ice though as it would make it difficult for people to be blunt with me fearing I would not talk to them again or maybe commit suicide. Some were blunt, but I wasn't listening due to my mind at the time.



I didn't understand the natural law of give and take plus I thought on a deeper level I didn't have anything to give. My thoughts and opinions about spirit were always wrong and my art was less than. but I had empathy still it was correct to think how I was, but the repercussions --bla bla this is still my own doing. Maybe this just helps me boost my seriousness and potential to be an effective teacher about all of this though.

I was born in Misawa because my dad was in the Airforce. Did you say you were in Osaka?

cause my dad was in the Air Force. Didn't you say you were in Osaka?

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where is the gofundme page? you can either post it here or dm me the link or something.

i’m in the tokyo/yokohama/chiba area. never lived in osaka. you’re prolly confusing me with someone else haha lol 😅

@xxajuxx hope u ight

Aju you’re just like I imagined you. You have a beautiful spirit and it shines through. Sending positive thoughts to you and Fergie.

What I see is you practicing mindfulness. To see the reality of the situation objectively. Without judgment. That’s a hard thing to do. You can only take things each day and do the best you can. Always good to set new goals. We all fail but not all of us can get back up. That’s what we can’t lose. Determination…..and hope.

Hi Everyone,

Fergie is allowing and feeling the effects of those who pray for her!

She even got up to eat my orange and she hates oranges!

Guys, I'm going to share my GoFundMe here.

This was created a while back, but I only post because it was mentioned.

This will help and ease things but again, this is my responsibility. My full name and location I realize will now be known so; you can call me by that name if you'd like. I just hope that by showing and giving more of myself, I can show that I fall and I'm not perfect. I'm behind the screen like you. Maybe this can also be a way to help inspire as I aim to show my progression. I already am thankful to you all, and this is why Dxpnet is Gold. *

If you donate, please know that there is still a good chance Fergie may still decide to go home. This will mainly help to aid her comfort and rent. This is challenging to say but it's the truth as unhealing wounds are signs of the body preparing her to go. I can give spiritual readings and painting if you donate.

Also, if you live in Hawkins Indiana like me you can come by and get whatever item you see in my little Facebook shop. It's one of the ways I'd like to give back as I am creating more and more ways to give and be of service.



https://gofund.me/d1b367cb





@serenidad

Oh, You are in Tokyo? What in the world was I thinking?



I will be there too.

Posted by MyStarsShine

Posted by xxAjuxx

Posted by Wizardzz

Posted by hydorah
what's the tl;dr?

Peace and light etc etc
click to expand

I'm breaking the 4th wall I suppose here
But I always wanted to be transparent on this site.
Because I'm just like everyone.
I hope this video is better for explaining guys.
I did my best to explain how I'm feelin.
Thank you all for putting up with my crap
And even taking the time to interact with me.
(12th house neptune might be a sign of many blindspots I haven't seen about myself)

@hydorah
@Wizardzz
@BadderBunny
@Serenidad
@MyStarsShine




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(((Aju)))

All that you say resonates with me ❤️

The thing that stood out in the video is the ✨light✨and hope that shines out of your eyes when you smile and it is beautiful to see. Your face is totally transformed.

🙏🙏 sent for you and Fergie.

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Thank you so much, Star! 🙏

The power of a smile is beyond, healing. *

The next videos will be a bit lighter though.

I'll still add more where I'm talking like this.

Posted by BadderBunny

Posted by xxAjuxx

Posted by Wizardzz

Posted by hydorah
what's the tl;dr?

Peace and light etc etc
click to expand

I'm breaking the 4th wall I suppose here
But I always wanted to be transparent on this site.
Because I'm just like everyone.
I hope this video is better for explaining guys.
I did my best to explain how I'm feelin.
Thank you all for putting up with my crap
And even taking the time to interact with me.
(12th house neptune might be a sign of many blindspots I haven't seen about myself)

@hydorah
@Wizardzz
@BadderBunny
@Serenidad
@MyStarsShine




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Hi. Sending prayers for Fergi's recovery and hoping for improvement towards your financial situation. Sounds like you have a plan from what you told Serenidad. I wanted to say I agree its important to accept accountability for the things in your life you have the power to change. Its important to cultivate the right mindset for success. Its important that we take accountability for our choices that lead us to where we are.

Its also important we have wisdom to know the difference between what we have control of in our lives and things that are happening outside of us that effect our lives. Its important that we dont take so much responsibility, that we dont allow others to take accountability for what they have done to add to our negative life experiences. You take the blame for everything that is currently going wrong in your life. While thats honorable, I would also encourage you to reflect as to whether or not its valid. Are there some things that occured beyond your control? Are you giving yourself enough grace?

Edit: You also made a comment about negative self talk. I think we all have those negative automatic thoughts sometimes. Its just important we don't allow those to become core beliefs about ourselves.

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thank you so much @BadderBunny



This helps me in so many ways:

" Its also important we have wisdom to know the difference between what we have control of in our lives and things that are happening outside of us that effect our lives. Its important that we dont take so much responsibility, that we dont allow others to take accountability for what they have done to add to our negative life experiences. You take the blame for everything that is currently going wrong in your life. While thats honorable, I would also encourage you to reflect as to whether or not its valid. Are there some things that occured beyond your control? Are you giving yourself enough grace?"

This is true. This is very true to me.

This I believe my dad mentioned too. You both are right.

Posted by s-
love to Fergie aju & u

Thank You so much s-

I appreciate this. Fergie is resting now.

Posted by nominal_
thanks aju

nice wee reminder that my frequejcy has been low, and not where it needs to be

sending healing/love to your friend

watching our dogs transition is hard , my boy took his last breath and passed in my arms 2 yrs ago and it stoll sucks

also the collective energy/soup is bombarded with lower energies so don't beat yourself up if you slip,

stay strong

That is exactly what this feels like. I slipped into some negative hole for giving into negative thoughts, or rather negatively using the negative thoughts. I need to stop purchasing with my feelings and beliefs.

It's a different passing for animals with me because we decide when or how the door home opens.

My prayers go to you too. The passing of someone innocent, a dog or cat,

any animal is just, --they deserve the highest rank for being here with us.

Posted by route666aybb
@xxajuxx hope u ight

thank you,

route666aybb !

I really appreciate that. I hope that you are well too.

Posted by geminiflyby
Aju you’re just like I imagined you. You have a beautiful spirit and it shines through. Sending positive thoughts to you and Fergie.

What I see is you practicing mindfulness. To see the reality of the situation objectively. Without judgment. That’s a hard thing to do. You can only take things each day and do the best you can. Always good to set new goals. We all fail but not all of us can get back up. That’s what we can’t lose. Determination…..and hope.

Thank You so much geminiflyby. I appreciate that.

Exactly I agree. I can't help but to agree now.

Without Determination, Faith, hope, and Belief. Without them...

Challenging things happen ..

It can be challenging to keep but I have to retain for myself and Fergie. I have to.

I had to watch that video because I saw even gobby and aquaboy were extending compassion, so I thought this had to be serious so I watched the video, I ain't gonna lie this was a long 35 minutes but I was playing a videogame at the same time. Here are my reactions in order of importance:

-I think you could be an actor . I swear if you send that vid to a big hollywood studio you'll gonna get some job, I'm not joking

-I already said it several times but you really need to express more Yang energy. It's not something that's out of the pisces experience, quite the contrary. Get away from the japanime, miyazaki is not your friend.

-I don't know what's the money problems but it's time to keep your head straight and look for help wherever you can so if you have to make friend with your dad, then make friend with your dad

-about the message for us brothers, yes it's probably all true

I agree with you and serenidad. Referring into a positive mindset is important but so is experiencing negative. Ying and yang exist because both are nessesary. You can't have only one and be healthy, but you can't tiptoe on the line and stay neutral between them either.

I suggest reframing your "I deserve this" perhaps to "I needed this". I don't know you so I can't say why exactly you think you deserve things, but if you just look from a different angle you'd see perhaps you didn't deserve it, rather, it sucks but helped you see things you weren't seeing so you needed it.

I don't believe in heaven and hell, god and the devil persay. I do believe in something bigger, or sone might say, greater, than us. I think of it more as something different though. Like we're not God's but might seem a bit like one to, say, an ant. There's more than we're capable of seeing, hearing, understanding, without a doubt. Look at how little of our brain power we tap into.

Anyway, what I'm saying is, we as humans like to label things. Put everything into neat little compartments. This is good. This is bad. We want to eliminate everything we put in the bad basket. But maybe we need to realize we can't do that. Most shows that feature demons and angels of a sort touch on this. They both at some point realize the "opposing party" is nessesary. To provide equilibrium. So yes, don't camp out in the thoughts you've labeled negative. But don't sweep them away and try to live only in the sun.

I'm making a mish mosh of thoughts lol but I'm multi tasking and it's not one of my best abilities. But it's better than my singing 😂 anyhow...you don't "deserve" what's happening. You might have needed it for reasons your human form isn't fond of but your soul might have needed to experience. I hope you're reaching the other side of those things now and will move into better things.

Posted by xxAjuxx



Hi Everyone,

Fergie is allowing and feeling the effects of those who pray for her!

She even got up to eat my orange and she hates oranges!

Guys, I'm going to share my GoFundMe here.

This was created a while back, but I only post because it was mentioned.

This will help and ease things but again, this is my responsibility. My full name and location I realize will now be known so; you can call me by that name if you'd like. I just hope that by showing and giving more of myself, I can show that I fall and I'm not perfect. I'm behind the screen like you. Maybe this can also be a way to help inspire as I aim to show my progression. I already am thankful to you all, and this is why Dxpnet is Gold. *

If you donate, please know that there is still a good chance Fergie may still decide to go home. This will mainly help to aid her comfort and rent. This is challenging to say but it's the truth as unhealing wounds are signs of the body preparing her to go. I can give spiritual readings and painting if you donate.

Also, if you live in Hawkins Indiana like me you can come by and get whatever item you see in my little Facebook shop. It's one of the ways I'd like to give back as I am creating more and more ways to give and be of service.



https://gofund.me/d1b367cb




@serenidad

Oh, You are in Tokyo? What in the world was I thinking?



I will be there too.

lol yeah i’m mostly dwelling in that area. anyway, i just sent the money. i made the amount into an angel number cuz i wanted it to have like a positive vibration or something lol 😂

that number means you’re being protected by angels or something. here’s the link to what the angel number means. hope your situation improves.

https://www.lovetoknow.com/life/astrology/angel-number-333-meaning-love-support-protection

@serenidad

@Everyone

Real Quick Message Everyone but I will respond to everyone properly!!!

https://vocaroo.com/19YqQDYT5lbW

❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏

THANK YOU!!!!!! !!!!!!!

It’s very ♥️warming to see people being so generous

https://www.gofundme.com/f/vjdbs-anotherchance?utm_campaign=p_cp+share-sheet&utm_medium=copy_link_all&utm_source=customer

Posted by hydorah
I had to watch that video because I saw even gobby and aquaboy were extending compassion, so I thought this had to be serious so I watched the video, I ain't gonna lie this was a long 35 minutes but I was playing a videogame at the same time. Here are my reactions in order of importance:

-I think you could be an actor . I swear if you send that vid to a big hollywood studio you'll gonna get some job, I'm not joking

-I already said it several times but you really need to express more Yang energy. It's not something that's out of the pisces experience, quite the contrary. Get away from the japanime, miyazaki is not your friend.

-I don't know what's the money problems but it's time to keep your head straight and look for help wherever you can so if you have to make friend with your dad, then make friend with your dad

-about the message for us brothers, yes it's probably all true

Thank You, Hydorah!

wow lol, I really appreciate that. I actually was an actor in high school and college. I may dabble again especially on my channel.

I was just coming from the heart and so I did not care how I came across in this video. I was upset and done with myself. That's the key to be more believable on screen when you don't care because that means you have fully empathized with the character.

That is interesting. The Yang Energy. Hydorah, I know. I actually did shadow work that helped with my yang energy. You might have noticed the change, how I type now. I don't use as many emojis and I say more what I mean --more blunt. I'm not sure if I'm ever going to try and get rid of all the Yin you see. I think that's part of my mom so I don't mind.

Well, my money issue came from my lack of respect for work/service and it has caught up with me. Work/service feeds the life style you want and I just lost touch with it. Maybe depression but I don't want to make excuses. It's embarrassing.

I'm glad you loved the video though, Hydorah. What game were you playing? My channel is going to be a gaming channel/ spirit/ animation, education/ comedy mix of things.

Posted by TheGreenFairie
I agree with you and serenidad. Referring into a positive mindset is important but so is experiencing negative. Ying and yang exist because both are nessesary. You can't have only one and be healthy, but you can't tiptoe on the line and stay neutral between them either.

I suggest reframing your "I deserve this" perhaps to "I needed this". I don't know you so I can't say why exactly you think you deserve things, but if you just look from a different angle you'd see perhaps you didn't deserve it, rather, it sucks but helped you see things you weren't seeing so you needed it.

I don't believe in heaven and hell, god and the devil persay. I do believe in something bigger, or sone might say, greater, than us. I think of it more as something different though. Like we're not God's but might seem a bit like one to, say, an ant. There's more than we're capable of seeing, hearing, understanding, without a doubt. Look at how little of our brain power we tap into.

Anyway, what I'm saying is, we as humans like to label things. Put everything into neat little compartments. This is good. This is bad. We want to eliminate everything we put in the bad basket. But maybe we need to realize we can't do that. Most shows that feature demons and angels of a sort touch on this. They both at some point realize the "opposing party" is nessesary. To provide equilibrium. So yes, don't camp out in the thoughts you've labeled negative. But don't sweep them away and try to live only in the sun.

I'm making a mish mosh of thoughts lol but I'm multi tasking and it's not one of my best abilities. But it's better than my singing 😂 anyhow...you don't "deserve" what's happening. You might have needed it for reasons your human form isn't fond of but your soul might have needed to experience. I hope you're reaching the other side of those things now and will move into better things.

Thank you! @The GreenFairie

I understand what you mean. I actually think it's dangerous to the psyche for one to try and run from the negative emotion so quickly. I do. But that can NOT be the default quality. It's too risky. I've lost too many people because I wasn't the man I needed to be. It was their time to go I suppose but it boils me so much and that's what you see in the video. I'm staying in the sun no matter what.



Now, if it's hard to pull way, then it's probably a lesson. But I can't stay there as long as I used to anymore. It's deadly and I really think it's that important. I honestly think thinking of yourself as negative kills the Earth. Because when you are negative you are stopping yourself from showing your light and raising the planet. The Earth is hurting because of so many of us are not rising as the trees and healing humanity which heals the planet. There is a tare that I feel.

It might even be, to some extent, why on the economical plane, why the middle class is being shrunk. The small percent, the ones who are more positive because they reached their dreams are sucking too much recourses from the Earth and it's killing her. It's a strange opinion but it's been something that I'd like to express further at a later date I think.



We need the negative to exist though. This negative event has shown me blind spots I was missing and as a Scorpio moon, I HATE blind spots! Transit Pluto just entered into my first house too so now I have a huge ass blind spot event that all my family to see. They are eating popcorn with front row tickets. They are a loving family and I cherish them so much.

Posted by neve
.....Aju 💗

I'm sorry for what have happened recently in your life 💔

I wish i'm able to ease your pain and Fergie's through more practical ways, but honest to God, comforting words and prayers is all that i have rn. 💔

Aju...thank you for always being a responsible and introspective person, even when you're experiencing a heartbreak and sufferings just like now...it also showed how kind and big your heart really is, and how much capable you are of giving/forgiving and being selfless 💗

I hope things will get better as soon as possible for both of you and Fergie...💗💕💗


Love always, Kittens.

No No. Your time here responding is beyond important so thank YOU. Everything here is helpful. Thank you for the prayers too. The prayer is extremally powerful. It opens the doorways 🚪 🚪 🚪 and I'm grateful. I really really am.



I appreciate that. I don't always feel it's an advantage on the Earth plane to feel so big but thank you. I want to have a larger heart. It's not big enough.

Posted by serenidad

Posted by xxAjuxx




Hi Everyone,

Fergie is allowing and feeling the effects of those who pray for her!

She even got up to eat my orange and she hates oranges!

Guys, I'm going to share my GoFundMe here.

This was created a while back, but I only post because it was mentioned.

This will help and ease things but again, this is my responsibility. My full name and location I realize will now be known so; you can call me by that name if you'd like. I just hope that by showing and giving more of myself, I can show that I fall and I'm not perfect. I'm behind the screen like you. Maybe this can also be a way to help inspire as I aim to show my progression. I already am thankful to you all, and this is why Dxpnet is Gold. *

If you donate, please know that there is still a good chance Fergie may still decide to go home. This will mainly help to aid her comfort and rent. This is challenging to say but it's the truth as unhealing wounds are signs of the body preparing her to go. I can give spiritual readings and painting if you donate.

Also, if you live in Hawkins Indiana like me you can come by and get whatever item you see in my little Facebook shop. It's one of the ways I'd like to give back as I am creating more and more ways to give and be of service.



https://gofund.me/d1b367cb





@serenidad

Oh, You are in Tokyo? What in the world was I thinking?



I will be there too.

lol yeah i’m mostly dwelling in that area. anyway, i just sent the money. i made the amount into an angel number cuz i wanted it to have like a positive vibration or something lol 😂

that number means you’re being protected by angels or something. here’s the link to what the angel number means. hope your situation improves.

https://www.lovetoknow.com/life/astrology/angel-number-333-meaning-love-support-protection

click to expand

OH MY GOSH!!!

OH MY GOSH!!!

THANK YOU serenidad





You put that there for that!?



I saw it too but I didn't recognize it at the time. See. I was like "3..3...3?" hmmm...it went completely over my head at the time. I was just excited and very grateful, bless you. That energy does help this situation big time.

You guys are so beyond awesome. Is it okay if I send the painting out there to you to Japan? It'll be reuploaded to you first of course.

Posted by MyStarsShine
It’s very ♥️warming to see people being so generous

https://www.gofundme.com/f/vjdbs-anotherchance?utm_campaign=p_cp+share-sheet&utm_medium=copy_link_all&utm_source=customer

Thank You , Star 🙂

You guys are really beyond. Dxpnet is Gold*.

Posted by Saturn_Returns

Posted by xxAjuxx

Stay strong. You'll be okay.

*cyber hugs*

click to expand

thank you*! Saturn Returns*



hugs* xx

Posted by xxAjuxx

Posted by MyStarsShine
It’s very ♥️warming to see people being so generous

https://www.gofundme.com/f/vjdbs-anotherchance?utm_campaign=p_cp+share-sheet&utm_medium=copy_link_all&utm_source=customer

Thank You , Star 🙂

You guys are really beyond. Dxpnet is Gold*.

click to expand

🩷

Currently going through the same thing right now with the dog dying, the relationship ending, trying to recover from illness, feeling like I don’t belong in my own life, and negative thought cycles taking over. Reliving a traumatic thing that happened to me as a child, which hasn’t bothered me before, like it took 20 years to come through or something. These past couple months have been the hardest of my life! Wouldn’t wish any of these things individually on anyone, let alone all of it at once. Just popping in to say you are not alone and seeing someone going through something similar is a huge bummer, but also makes me not feel so alone. We are all struggling in our own ways. We have to have hope that there is a light at the end of this tunnel.

Posted by xxAjuxx

Posted by serenidad

Posted by xxAjuxx



Hi Everyone,

Fergie is allowing and feeling the effects of those who pray for her!

She even got up to eat my orange and she hates oranges!

Guys, I'm going to share my GoFundMe here.

This was created a while back, but I only post because it was mentioned.

This will help and ease things but again, this is my responsibility. My full name and location I realize will now be known so; you can call me by that name if you'd like. I just hope that by showing and giving more of myself, I can show that I fall and I'm not perfect. I'm behind the screen like you. Maybe this can also be a way to help inspire as I aim to show my progression. I already am thankful to you all, and this is why Dxpnet is Gold. *

If you donate, please know that there is still a good chance Fergie may still decide to go home. This will mainly help to aid her comfort and rent. This is challenging to say but it's the truth as unhealing wounds are signs of the body preparing her to go. I can give spiritual readings and painting if you donate.

Also, if you live in Hawkins Indiana like me you can come by and get whatever item you see in my little Facebook shop. It's one of the ways I'd like to give back as I am creating more and more ways to give and be of service.



https://gofund.me/d1b367cb




@serenidad

Oh, You are in Tokyo? What in the world was I thinking?



I will be there too.

lol yeah i’m mostly dwelling in that area. anyway, i just sent the money. i made the amount into an angel number cuz i wanted it to have like a positive vibration or something lol 😂
that number means you’re being protected by angels or something. here’s the link to what the angel number means. hope your situation improves.
https://www.lovetoknow.com/life/astrology/angel-number-333-meaning-love-support-protection
click to expand

OH MY GOSH!!!

OH MY GOSH!!!

THANK YOU serenidad




You put that there for that!?


I saw it too but I didn't recognize it at the time. See. I was like "3..3...3?" hmmm...it went completely over my head at the time. I was just excited and very grateful, bless you. That energy does help this situation big time.

You guys are so beyond awesome. Is it okay if I send the painting out there to you to Japan? It'll be reuploaded to you first of course.

click to expand

no don’t worry about it , you don’t have to send me anything 😂

and sorry i couldn’t see the pic (?) you posted there. it didn’t load for me lol dxp has been acting weird i can’t really see nor post pics in any of the threads on the site lol

Posted by nanochip
Currently going through the same thing right now with the dog dying, the relationship ending, trying to recover from illness, feeling like I don’t belong in my own life, and negative thought cycles taking over. Reliving a traumatic thing that happened to me as a child, which hasn’t bothered me before, like it took 20 years to come through or something. These past couple months have been the hardest of my life! Wouldn’t wish any of these things individually on anyone, let alone all of it at once. Just popping in to say you are not alone and seeing someone going through something similar is a huge bummer, but also makes me not feel so alone. We are all struggling in our own ways. We have to have hope that there is a light at the end of this tunnel.

Thank you @nanochip !!



What is your dog's name? Send a picture to me and I will see him/her in white light and pray, okay. These times are beyond aren't they? Something is telling me though that the both of us are about to break through something once we hit this ground and come out the other side even more beautiful than before. xx





*Also, CBD may ease your dog. I gave Fergie some and she sleeps like a baby. It should not have any THC though or zero point what ever of it. I'm sorry for the pain they are going through. I hate pain for animals.

Posted by nanochip
Currently going through the same thing right now with the dog dying, the relationship ending, trying to recover from illness, feeling like I don’t belong in my own life, and negative thought cycles taking over. Reliving a traumatic thing that happened to me as a child, which hasn’t bothered me before, like it took 20 years to come through or something. These past couple months have been the hardest of my life! Wouldn’t wish any of these things individually on anyone, let alone all of it at once. Just popping in to say you are not alone and seeing someone going through something similar is a huge bummer, but also makes me not feel so alone. We are all struggling in our own ways. We have to have hope that there is a light at the end of this tunnel.

(((nano)))

Sorry to hear this 😥

How is Cinder doing?

You ended things with the Pisces? Weren’t you planning to move over?

I hope things will improve for you and Cinder soon

🙏