Acceptance?

Do you accept where you are in life? Let go of your past, just live in the moment or try to plan the future?

I think for me, I have finally let go of the past. That is a wonderful thing because it's so hard for me to do. I have been on this journey of personal growth, letting go, and I suppose it's brought me a certain amount of peace. I was always a relationship person in the past, but I've accepted that person is no longer. Maybe it's getting older, that second saturn return or who knows just life. When I left my ex, I was a complete mess. But it wasn't really me that was not facing themself.. okay I wasn't either & that's how I ended up there. But I wasn't the one with the addiction. It brought about issues for me, even though I loved him so much and we had a decent life. Is it that different than the rest of the world? That perfect thing, is it even real?

Well anyway - it's gone. He needs a transplant, and so much has changed in the last ten years. I don't even recognize him anymore...it is sad. What I did was walked along this road searching for myself again. I have had some relationships, but I the truth is I have been happier without them. I miss a partnership and that would be nice in theory, but in reality maybe not. I can blame the area or blame a certain person for not being available. But truth is I haven't met anyone who's worth it. All this online dating is shit. A bunch of desperate and lonely people. I'm not, I just get bored and need a bit of socialization sometimes. My son said the other day... Mom - I think you just like to talk to these guys and that's it!! Damn him... he's so right. Sex is good and everything, but actually it's not everything. If I have to deal with a bunch of crap from you, it's not worth it. So I'm not a relationship person anymore. I won't settle. I care more about me.

I was looking at this spreadsheet of my aspects and meanings that I created a few years ago. It's ironic, I didn't really get it before. It's not breathing relationship person. Perhaps the truth is when you throw away what you were "supposed" to be and just be you, aspects make more sense. lol I know it's a journey especially for people of my generation. You young ones are lucky, you've grown up in a world who is more okay with whatever you want to be. Well mostly anyway.. a lot different than for me or most people I grew up with. It's a little crazy to look at the changes when you look back in the past.

So I think I will just be okay in my life. Stop trying to plan that future with some relationship. Just accept me for who I am and be okay with that. Honestly, I am so much happier this person than trying to live up to someone else's expectations. Relationships seem to be full of that. On the other hand, I feel at peace, I am much better off financially, I have two sweet loving adult children who think I'm amazing. Life could be so much worse. My dream is to live in some little place at the beach, and just write, soak in the rays and enjoy life. Perhaps I should've taken the Cap up on moving to Mexico lol Who knows if that will happen (not the Cap, he's still blocked), but the beach dream. Funny how no significant other is in that dream no isn't it? hmmmm maybe just see how it all evolves.. accept whatever happens. That's where I'm at now. I'm finally accepting it.

Why am I posting this? I don't know why not? Maybe it's like a diary & no one wants to read it. Or perhaps it's a place for anyone else to write about acceptance or not.

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At the end of the day, the only person you have to answer to is yourself. There's nothing wrong with the journey of self-discovery, no matter what the orgin. If you're happy with you, be happy with you.

Yep! I am 🙂 Tired of others trying to get me to do what they want… just for sex or relationship.

is content the same as acceptance?

Posted by Weeds
is content the same as acceptance?

Could be but not necessarily.

Posted by alexscaries
The more I read dxp the more I think most women on here are the female equivalent of mgtow only without the sexism.


Not a criticism. After being alone most of my adult life and going through girls like dominos I realised I thrive better in relationships I need personal space, but no point having space if you can't share it.

I agree, it’s just difficult to find. I spent a lifetime with my ex and we did function pretty well together. You know where I could be my self, have my space etc. it wasn’t until his issues became much worse and he didn’t face them that it began to become a problem. Not facing things just blows up in the end. That is what happened. Recently, I was looking for that thing again, be yourself, have some space, don’t have to overthink, trust them etc. I have not found that except one that is just an untraveled road not meant to be. Everyone else is just not worth it. They cause me too much stress. So why should I be in something that causes me stress, overthinking and I’m not allowed to have space and also they want some picture in their head that is not me? But they think I’m great.. oh until they can’t control me 😂😂🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ and get exactly what they want. Apparently they didn’t want me after all.. just a picture in their head. I’m just tired. 🤷‍♀️it feels like it was easier to find pre internet. Just saying. Either that or everyone has to much baggage now. Of course I wasn’t even looking then… so back to that.

Posted by StubbornSagittarius
Don't think I'm there yet. I keep going back and forth with the past. Past feels familiar and comfortable and future is unknown and scary for that. I can't seem to let go of my fears of the unknown. For some strange reason I have to have plans and somehow I never seem to have them

Yep I was there for a long time. Now I’m just tired, so whatever comes comes. I’m tired of being afraid of the future.

"Do you accept where you are in life? Let go of your past, just live in the moment or try to plan the future?"

I tend to live in the future. Or in my imagination, because that is where the future is, not? Can't really delve into the past, because it either hurts or makes me feel guilty, since people I loved are now dead or lost/estranged in other ways.

I would like to be more mindful of the present. Not only when surrounded by beauty or particularly content, but Every. Single. Day. I'd like to learn to enjoy my present life even more. Acceptance is the first step towards it. It is peace, serenity...until the next crazy plan, that's it!...sigh...

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"Do you accept where you are in life? Let go of your past, just live in the moment or try to plan the future?"


I tend to live in the future. Or in my imagination, because that is where the future is, not? Can't really delve into the past, because it either hurts or makes me feel guilty, since people I loved are now dead or lost/estranged in other ways.


I would like to be more mindful of the present. Not only when surrounded by beauty or particularly content, but Every. Single. Day. I'd like to learn to enjoy my present life even more. Acceptance is the first step towards it. It is peace, serenity...until the next crazy plan, that's it!...sigh...

Exactly! My plans always fall through.. I gad struggled with this a long time but I’ve really been in the present more recently. The last couple of years.. it’s hard to stop looking towards future though 😉 all I know is i ‘m happier when I stop trying to figure it out.

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You need to look at the source, roots, upbringing. A lot of our issues and personality comes from early upbringing. We usually repress those things by saying don't look at the past keep moving forward etc. Well its necessary to face the pain and stop running for transformation.

I spent all lot of years doing that. I had a lot to work through & I did. The pain is gone, just it is sad to see him pretty much 1/2 of what he was. Sad because I was with him for 20 years & he’s sick and married to a controlling bitch and he just goes along with it, even at the sake of hurting his kids. Pain of the person in my childhood who made me doubt myself is gone.. I overcame his control.. and now he has Alzheimer’s & is actually nice to me. Oh the irony! ( my stepdad) I am such a stronger person due to all this the work I’ve done the last ten years. So it’s kinda like now what? I find myself not putting up with shit. Hell I start but I quickly see it & am like no thanks. That’s better but not quite sure how i go from here. I am definitely different than I used to be. The future is unknown so for the last year I was working on me & prep for retirement or putting myself in a good place. Soon I’ll have that damn license & I have no clue what’s next! Relationship wise I don’t want to settle, but I’m all in for something that’s right. But until then, I’m good with me. Like I said I feel so much more peace than I used to. And the world seems to be filled with people who’ve screwed themselves up..

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Don't think I'm there yet. I keep going back and forth with the past. Past feels familiar and comfortable and future is unknown and scary for that. I can't seem to let go of my fears of the unknown. For some strange reason I have to have plans and somehow I never seem to have them

Yep I was there for a long time. Now I’m just tired, so whatever comes comes. I’m tired of being afraid of the future.
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Why are you afraid of the future? And what future are you afraid of? Lonely?

So if you are going to accept yourself for single woman and will stop searching - you’ll end up a single woman. Or you just wanted to vent about late failed relationship?

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Well I wanted a partner, but a decent one seems so hard to find. But the truth is I don’t want just anyone.. just to not be alone. I want something that’s right. I can’t find anyone here…. Well I’ve tried and typically it’s either they try to make me into their perfect idea of a mate or they have serious financial issues or disabled or whatever acting like a victim. They all seem old!! 😂 ok fine I’m older but act & look younger. I think all the good ones are taken.the rest have royally fucked their lives up & I look like a great catch .. like what to take care of them? No thanks. A certain someone still is trying to get me to move but that’s a stupid situation i’m not putting myself in it. If he wanted me, he should come get me for real. Otherwise it’s just fantasy. So I’m just irritated & don’t know how to get there. I’m stressed out thinking about it, online is just having people who shouldn’t have access to me, have it.lonely & desperate and that’s annoying. The latest one was a good emotional connection but truthfully that’s it for me, and he’s all head over heels & thinks he’s in love with me.. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️plus he has nothing to offer as a partner & is too needy & clingy. We never even had sex like wth!! They are like cling-ons..

And I can’t afford to go back south unless I went with a partner, plus kids are here in the middle of freaking nowhere. I’m afraid if I don’t leave here, I end up alone or be with some loser. Alone sounds better than that!!

A bit frustrated—? And maybe if I concentrate on now and enjoy life whatever it is, something will happen 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪 I’m tired of it all. And I’m tired because I’m working my ass off too 🤷‍♀️

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The more I read dxp the more I think most women on here are the female equivalent of mgtow only without the sexism.

Not a criticism. After being alone most of my adult life and going through girls like dominos I realised I thrive better in relationships I need personal space, but no point having space if you can't share it.

I agree, it’s just difficult to find. I spent a lifetime with my ex and we did function pretty well together. You know where I could be my self, have my space etc. it wasn’t until his issues became much worse and he didn’t face them that it began to become a problem. Not facing things just blows up in the end. That is what happened. Recently, I was looking for that thing again, be yourself, have some space, don’t have to overthink, trust them etc. I have not found that except one that is just an untraveled road not meant to be. Everyone else is just not worth it. They cause me too much stress. So why should I be in something that causes me stress, overthinking and I’m not allowed to have space and also they want some picture in their head that is not me? But they think I’m great.. oh until they can’t control me 😂😂🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ and get exactly what they want. Apparently they didn’t want me after all.. just a picture in their head. I’m just tired. 🤷‍♀️it feels like it was easier to find pre internet. Just saying. Either that or everyone has to much baggage now. Of course I wasn’t even looking then… so back to that.

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A lot of people say it was easier pre internet, but they forget a huge factor we were all younger then, less fussy and arguably more idealistic so willing to take a chance on people we wouldn't usually date.


An argument on here is often men on dating apps are only looking for sex. Ever been to a bar? Seems like an excuse to not date. Lots of men on OLD are looking for marriage guess what women don't match with them because they don't find them sexy that's the paradox.


It's to be expected people get complex as they get older, only people call it baggage.

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yes people get complex as they get older. I know I have. But a lot of people have a lot of baggage, and have made really horrible decisions that put them in a bad place. Then you get to my age, and you have less time to reinvent yourself. Of course, you still can if you have the drive. But, so many are just feeling sorry for themselves. It’s not attractive seriously. Yes I suppose when we were younger, we just didn’t think about it so much. We just had fun. But we met people through friends and they tended to be in similar situations. Opening the world up on these online dating sites bring everyone to your world. My area is an issue since it’s either the poor or the rich, hicks or the hippies mostly.. .. not so much the middle & good jobs are hard to find. I have one.. but finding someone in my age range who isn’t married or otherwise unavailable in a decent situation is tough to find. Maybe partially the complex thing too. I have no idea the answers anymore. It seems whatever I’m doing hasn’t been working. But I feel better about me anyway. So who knows where this road takes me. I guess I’ll find out eventually 😉

my saturn return was absolute shot. i've lost family members. eyesight not getting any better and my lungs also shot. but i've never really had much of a problem with where i'm at unless family's suffocating me (which i've gotten away from for some time now). and i met a really good guy, big on teamwork like me.

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my saturn return was absolute shot. i've lost family members. eyesight not getting any better and my lungs also shot. but i've never really had much of a problem with where i'm at unless family's suffocating me (which i've gotten away from for some time now). and i met a really good guy, big on teamwork like me.

Sounds like you’re in a good place 🙂 personally my Saturn return was the transition between first & second marriage, second Saturn return was after math of that 2nd marriage & dealing with myself preparing me for the future. In the meantime I had mostly a good life.. I always did. Fun, enjoy life, work my ass off lol 2 loving children. I must have done something right 😉 I’m definitely at a crossroads. But maybe time for it just to evolve 🙂 Good luck!!

I saw this on Facebook… lol sounds about where I am. 😁

“At some point on the journey, you may reach a point where you want to ease the throttle of transformation. Not where you stop growing, but where you stop utilizing your will to effect personal change. You're still growthful, but it's different. It's gentler, and more about accepting what is, than changing it. You reach a place where you are more embracing of who you are, and of how far you have come, and you feel ready to work with what you've got. It's important to notice this moment, if it arrives. Because there is a real peace in that tender self-acceptance. And, ironically, it may ignite the most profound change of all.”

— Jeff Brown

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The more I read dxp the more I think most women on here are the female equivalent of mgtow only without the sexism.

Not a criticism. After being alone most of my adult life and going through girls like dominos I realised I thrive better in relationships I need personal space, but no point having space if you can't share it.

I agree, it’s just difficult to find. I spent a lifetime with my ex and we did function pretty well together. You know where I could be my self, have my space etc. it wasn’t until his issues became much worse and he didn’t face them that it began to become a problem. Not facing things just blows up in the end. That is what happened. Recently, I was looking for that thing again, be yourself, have some space, don’t have to overthink, trust them etc. I have not found that except one that is just an untraveled road not meant to be. Everyone else is just not worth it. They cause me too much stress. So why should I be in something that causes me stress, overthinking and I’m not allowed to have space and also they want some picture in their head that is not me? But they think I’m great.. oh until they can’t control me 😂😂🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ and get exactly what they want. Apparently they didn’t want me after all.. just a picture in their head. I’m just tired. 🤷‍♀️it feels like it was easier to find pre internet. Just saying. Either that or everyone has to much baggage now. Of course I wasn’t even looking then… so back to that.

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A lot of people say it was easier pre internet, but they forget a huge factor we were all younger then, less fussy and arguably more idealistic so willing to take a chance on people we wouldn't usually date.

An argument on here is often men on dating apps are only looking for sex. Ever been to a bar? Seems like an excuse to not date. Lots of men on OLD are looking for marriage guess what women don't match with them because they don't find them sexy that's the paradox.

It's to be expected people get complex as they get older, only people call it baggage.

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yes people get complex as they get older. I know I have. But a lot of people have a lot of baggage, and have made really horrible decisions that put them in a bad place. Then you get to my age, and you have less time to reinvent yourself. Of course, you still can if you have the drive. But, so many are just feeling sorry for themselves. It’s not attractive seriously. Yes I suppose when we were younger, we just didn’t think about it so much. We just had fun. But we met people through friends and they tended to be in similar situations. Opening the world up on these online dating sites bring everyone to your world. My area is an issue since it’s either the poor or the rich, hicks or the hippies mostly.. .. not so much the middle & good jobs are hard to find. I have one.. but finding someone in my age range who isn’t married or otherwise unavailable in a decent situation is tough to find. Maybe partially the complex thing too. I have no idea the answers anymore. It seems whatever I’m doing hasn’t been working. But I feel better about me anyway. So who knows where this road takes me. I guess I’ll find out eventually 😉


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There's a golden rule men look for a reason to match (low cut top does it for me), women look for a reason not to match, could be a really strange reason like he's wearing a pair of sneakers.


I think that whole working on yourself thing people do is the biggest lie going in dating. I'm not saying you do it, but there's a lot of people who make really easily rectifiable mistakes and men think it's because they are not jacked or millionaires, which is really dumb.

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Well low cut top if you’re looking for sex 😉 I don’t have a problem finding sex, I have a problem finding someone to spend the rest of my life with. That means respect, the ability to be a good partner, and love, sex and companionship. There’s a lot of disrespect out there…I do get attention. I look younger than I am, and guys my age or older go a bit crazy for that. I actually tend to date younger lol. I have tried not worrying about person not being in my same level financially & they are either intimidated, insecure or want me to take care of them. If I wanted that, I could’ve stayed married. It just doesn’t work. Is it my fault for not dating good matches, ya definitely. But what about when there are none?Maybe I just wanted fun.. I spent a lot of years protecting my children so as to be one stable parent & not repeat my childhood with them. So I was probably pretty unavailable emotionally in those years. Then there’s the Cap who was a possibility, instead he broke my heart and I no longer trust him. It took me awhile to get over my emotions for him, my ex, and the other one whose just a complicated story. There were a number of guys who wanted me, I didn’t want them as a long term relationship.. short term was okay. But the last couple of years I said whatever to all that., and pandemic & just kept meeting the 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ factor.. so had no interest in the bullshit. I think that I am finally actually ready for long-term and not so interested in searching through a bunch of non-possibilities. Okay maybe I’m jaded.. I might need to stop working so hard & live life for it to smack me right in my face lol.. like I said acceptance of who I am was important & not caving to others who wanted me, but doing what I wanted & making what I want important and matters. Instead of that mutable, oh I’m having fun so who cares if it wasn’t my thing and let’s makes sure YOU are happy. I am important too and now I insist on that.. instead of just going with the flow. I am perfectly happy to compromise and be a partner though.. the balance is important. So it’s just not as simple as you make it. It’s different in my age range too.

Slowly finding acceptance that the large pine in our front yard is time to be removed. We trimmed it up last year cause I wanted to save it but after this last 'storm' we lost a ton of large branches, widow makers as they call them. Some of the branches clipped our oak trees damaging them and could've struck the house or worse killed a neighbors kid.

Within our neighborhood there was 2 houses and a few vehicles damages by falling trees all pines. Sigh it tis what it tis

Posted by alexscaries
The more I read dxp the more I think most women on here are the female equivalent of mgtow only without the sexism.


Not a criticism. After being alone most of my adult life and going through girls like dominos I realised I thrive better in relationships I need personal space, but no point having space if you can't share it.

You lie often. Why?

I live in the moment most of the times since I have no real goals. 🤣 I've planned two trips abroad that's as far as my planning goes. I go with what I think will make me happy. ☺️ The past is the past. I don't have any problems leaving things in the past. Forward ⏩ that's the only direction to go. ⏩⏩

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Posted by StubbornSagittarius
Don't think I'm there yet. I keep going back and forth with the past. Past feels familiar and comfortable and future is unknown and scary for that. I can't seem to let go of my fears of the unknown. For some strange reason I have to have plans and somehow I never seem to have them

Yep I was there for a long time. Now I’m just tired, so whatever comes comes. I’m tired of being afraid of the future.
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Why are you afraid of the future? And what future are you afraid of? Lonely?

So if you are going to accept yourself for single woman and will stop searching - you’ll end up a single woman. Or you just wanted to vent about late failed relationship?
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Well I wanted a partner, but a decent one seems so hard to find. But the truth is I don’t want just anyone.. just to not be alone. I want something that’s right. I can’t find anyone here…. Well I’ve tried and typically it’s either they try to make me into their perfect idea of a mate or they have serious financial issues or disabled or whatever acting like a victim. They all seem old!! 😂 ok fine I’m older but act & look younger. I think all the good ones are taken.the rest have royally fucked their lives up & I look like a great catch .. like what to take care of them? No thanks. A certain someone still is trying to get me to move but that’s a stupid situation i’m not putting myself in it. If he wanted me, he should come get me for real. Otherwise it’s just fantasy. So I’m just irritated & don’t know how to get there. I’m stressed out thinking about it, online is just having people who shouldn’t have access to me, have it.lonely & desperate and that’s annoying. The latest one was a good emotional connection but truthfully that’s it for me, and he’s all head over heels & thinks he’s in love with me.. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️plus he has nothing to offer as a partner & is too needy & clingy. We never even had sex like wth!! They are like cling-ons..


And I can’t afford to go back south unless I went with a partner, plus kids are here in the middle of freaking nowhere. I’m afraid if I don’t leave here, I end up alone or be with some loser. Alone sounds better than that!!


A bit frustrated—? And maybe if I concentrate on now and enjoy life whatever it is, something will happen 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪 I’m tired of it all. And I’m tired because I’m working my ass off too 🤷‍♀️

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They say you need to open your heart and be willing to let someone in and I think there's some true to it. You won't find love with a closed heart. Go with an open mind and stay positive.

Maybe that's why I'm not finding love. My heart is cold as ice. 🧊💙🤣

Reading this seemed like a reflection of what's going on inside my head! I was thinking of this specially these days.. I do not have any children though but everything you wrote here is exactly what I'm thinking of... and about being happy outside relationships.. at least I know I'm not being odd about that! But I believe that maybe one will be also happy if it's the right relationship. Still what is important in the end is looking after your mental health before anything

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Don't think I'm there yet. I keep going back and forth with the past. Past feels familiar and comfortable and future is unknown and scary for that. I can't seem to let go of my fears of the unknown. For some strange reason I have to have plans and somehow I never seem to have them

Yep I was there for a long time. Now I’m just tired, so whatever comes comes. I’m tired of being afraid of the future.
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Why are you afraid of the future? And what future are you afraid of? Lonely?

So if you are going to accept yourself for single woman and will stop searching - you’ll end up a single woman. Or you just wanted to vent about late failed relationship?
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Well I wanted a partner, but a decent one seems so hard to find. But the truth is I don’t want just anyone.. just to not be alone. I want something that’s right. I can’t find anyone here…. Well I’ve tried and typically it’s either they try to make me into their perfect idea of a mate or they have serious financial issues or disabled or whatever acting like a victim. They all seem old!! 😂 ok fine I’m older but act & look younger. I think all the good ones are taken.the rest have royally fucked their lives up & I look like a great catch .. like what to take care of them? No thanks. A certain someone still is trying to get me to move but that’s a stupid situation i’m not putting myself in it. If he wanted me, he should come get me for real. Otherwise it’s just fantasy. So I’m just irritated & don’t know how to get there. I’m stressed out thinking about it, online is just having people who shouldn’t have access to me, have it.lonely & desperate and that’s annoying. The latest one was a good emotional connection but truthfully that’s it for me, and he’s all head over heels & thinks he’s in love with me.. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️plus he has nothing to offer as a partner & is too needy & clingy. We never even had sex like wth!! They are like cling-ons..

And I can’t afford to go back south unless I went with a partner, plus kids are here in the middle of freaking nowhere. I’m afraid if I don’t leave here, I end up alone or be with some loser. Alone sounds better than that!!

A bit frustrated—? And maybe if I concentrate on now and enjoy life whatever it is, something will happen 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪 I’m tired of it all. And I’m tired because I’m working my ass off too 🤷‍♀️

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They say you need to open your heart and be willing to let someone in and I think there's some true to it. You won't find love with a closed heart. Go with an open mind and stay positive.

Maybe that's why I'm not finding love. My heart is cold as ice. 🧊💙🤣




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Even MY heart is cold as ice unless I see EXACTLY what my heart desires and you know the rest! But there was a small gap between 2 last rships…

You must be attracted to a rare kind. What is it?

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When I see it I know it instantly too. Either I like you or I dont. But most often I don't see it.🫣😂

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The more I read dxp the more I think most women on here are the female equivalent of mgtow only without the sexism.

Not a criticism. After being alone most of my adult life and going through girls like dominos I realised I thrive better in relationships I need personal space, but no point having space if you can't share it.

You lie often. Why?
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Why would you say such a moronic thing?

I used to think you are real. But apparently you have an ego of a small dick man!

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Oh, you are mad at me about something else. 😝

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Oh wow, this thread is like a time machine. I will find out that acceptance is key and relationships are not that great in reality. I am single but don`t want to be anymore. Your story tells

me I should not expect too much happyness and a fairytale ending. I vibe with water sign women, but in addition to being warm and empathetic they can be manipulative and an emotional mess as well. Also I am struggling with my stuff recently and I have come to the realisation that the only way forward is to not be at war with myself.

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I think peace vs acceptance. Im mostly at peace with things, but not resigned to the point of accepting what I want to change. Not that I've sorted out the how lol. That's where peace comes in. I'm at peace with it, but I still want to move forward. A lot of things haven't worked as I'd like but being unhappy about it won't change it, nor will just accepting it. Like a dam in a river. Redirect around it.

This makes total sense to me. I try to move forward so much but it hasn’t worked that way, or perhaps trying to plan it doesn’t. I seriously want a plan & I think that’s why I struggle. So many Capricorn placements 🤦‍♀️ I definitely have more peace & acceptance than I did. However, that doesn’t mean I stop living and this is my future right now. I see it as walking a road, and I do think things I’ve put in place help me continue on. But there are things or people that must be let go. They are no longer part of the equation. There are children and empty nest coming but that’s been a slow process. It’s all part of letting life evolve I suppose. I guess my acceptance is letting it just evolve. Stop trying to force things. 🙂

I’m going through a weird transition period in my life where I’m not sure what i want or how to get there. About to get a divorce. Finally finding myself again after a very tumultuous period.

I pretty much do, as far as I can tell. I don't really think of the far past as a real problem tbh. I'm sure a psychiatrist would think my far past is still a deep rooted problem in my life, but luckily I have the attention span of a fucking squirrel. So really I can only think back to like 2020. As for the future, why plan? You could die tomorrow and it all mean nothing.