I WENT SICKO ON YOU BECAUSE I COULDN'T HOLD THE PAIN INSIDE OF ME BY MYSELF. I WISH I COULD, BUT I COULDN'T FIND THE WAY HOW TO DO IT. THIS KIND OF PAIN I REMEMBER I HAD WHEN SERGE DIED,THAT WAS WHY I WAS KILLING MAX. THAT WAS NOT ME, THAT WAS MY PAIN! I JUST LEARNED HOW TO DEAL WITH IT NOT A LONG TIME AGO. HERE IS THE SONG THAT REMINDS ME OF YOU: "NOBODY WANTS TO BE LONELY" ...ITS WIERD BUT SOMETIMES I THINK YOU LIVE INSIDE OF ME. I DO NOT WANT TO GET ROMANTIC HERE OR ANYTHING 🙂 LIFE IS JUST HARD WITHOUT YOU, STABBORN TAURUS!