Personal vs collective happiness

In every form of education that i receive either forced or voluntary the common message is that you are always first in every situation or moment. While the only one who truly exists in physical form is of course yourself. You bolster yourself through experience and interaction with others. These experiences, interactions and moments are provided by the collective which despite what your subconcious may be telling you, runs strong and true without you.

So while we are out there learning that we are the best, and most awesome human being to exist and therefore deserve everything, we tend to forget that great things take time and are shaped not through perfection but trial and error. Emotional reveloution in your relationship shows you just how entrancing and rare and beautiful your defining moments are.

Its easy to be self aware and self serving but for some reason they tell you that its tough and make you work at it while everything around you plunges into chaos. I think people have become to self absorbed to be able to experience love in its pure form. When your always looking for something better and you think you find it there is an inevitable flood of new peeves or problems.

It is a great thing to respect yourself and know that your living life and breathing in energy. After much deliberation i believe the partner must come first. If thats reciprocated you would be unstoppable finding that union proves difficult but as i absorb wisdom i see that without your partner you are just you an entity with little or no purpose.

Perhaps its just me but as a pisces i feel a little incomplete without someone to share with and love fully.