The Pisces that I tripped on mushrooms with, who I had not so pleasant a conversation when we last spoke through text about 4 months ago, her birthday was the 26th. I sent her a letter through e-mail. Just a happy birthday letter, telling her how wonderful I think she is and there are no hard feelings. And I attached a video of my self covering a song we both listened to when we tripped. (Moments by Jhene Aiko and Big Sean) (I’ve sent her videos in the past as romantic gestures so nothing too new/out of character). I’m really ok with what I sent. I just wish there was a way I knew if she recieved it 😢. For I don’t really need a response, I just wish I knew. In the e-mail/letter I kept it on her with undertones of romance. As well as expressing to her that she was right regarding me being the one who needed saving and someone to talk to, when I was instead trying to save her. And I that I’m doing better now, and updated shortly about my life. Ect. But that was just a short paragraph out of the round about 10. In which I expressed how proud of her I am, that inrecognize how much she has been through and she came a long way. I told her how much she inspires me creatively. How much my memories of her make me smile. That she is always in my dreams and my heart. And basically kept it very poetic. I write poetry/spoken words so that type of writing comes very easily to me. I touched on getting older. And wiser. And how I think of her sometimes when I look at the moon and wonder if she is looking too. And that sometimes I tell complete strangers about her, not our most intimate parts, more so because conversations come up in which I smile greatly talking about this wonderful person I met who had changed me. I.e. her. I tried to write something to make her smile. I even showed the letter to my therapist, who legit cried haha. Which I thought was funny a little. But she expressed how much my letter seemed to act as a gift with no hidden agenda. All in all I just am curious if sending an e-mail was the best decision. I just didn’t have many options. And it seemed odd to me to send it through text or insta message. Or something stupid like that.
