Caplady05
@Caplady05
14 Years
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I recently met and feel deeply in love with a August 24th Virgo man in Dec of 2010. Being a Capricorn I'm very cautious when it comes to my heart and feelings, but this man won me over! As of right now I am in the states and he is deployed overseas we haven't met in person but I've seen him around my town a lot and exchanged a few words here and there but nothing like that on that level because we didnt know each other until I contacted him on FB which was in Dec. Well he was asking me to be his lady and told me he loved me, and me was skeptical and cautious but very flattered and it made me feel good, so I gave in and decided we can be a couple and things were GREAT! I mean GREAT! Even though we were long distance we were making plans!
He was talking marriage and kids and moving in with him, I didnt bring it up or mention it but I seen all of that and more with him. He made me feel so good and giving me the love I deserved. Sadly all that ended 3 1/2 weeks ago! I feel and he told me himself he was scared! He told me that marriage is a big commitment and what if he is wrong about us and blah blah what if this and what if that, and I did my best to calm him down on that but at the same time I was getting upset because we were moving in the right direction and he put the break on it fast! Ever since we had that conversation full of what ifs and fear our relationship went downhill quick! Less communication, arguments, all crap! Me I was loosing it! But not to him.. then I told him we needed to talk and figure out what we gonna do, and what I wasn't expecting was a breakup from him.. He said he had so much going on to be in relationship and drag me thru his stuff and not being a good boyfriend and hurting me and saying how he isnt ready fro a relationship and doesnt want one..I was devastated....
And yes I did let him know what i felt! What about my feelings in this?! But he told me he couldnt get rid of me out his life if he wanted to because we know each other better than anyone else would, and he wants me to stay in his life as his friend.. I agreed even though it hurts me EVERY SINGLE DAY to not talk to him like we use to and communicating all the time throughout the day.. We speak now almost everyday, but not like how it use to be....
ANY ADVICE ON WHAT I SHOULD DO?! Its killing me because I love this man so much and I know he cares for me and loves me just as much