Horus
@Horus
19 Years
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I know what I have to do but it is so hard to walk away. Yet even though it is not my fault I still feel guilty.
I was having hard times still recovering a year later from a 4 year marriage. I was pretty much abandoned with two kids. Then because of my financial situation he came back to get them. So I became a very angry woman. Wanting really nothing to do with the opposite sex.
So, I was getting myself together. Then sometime in June (my life changed) I met this guy. Our first meeting was casual (I thought he didn?t notice me) but I felt a nice chemistry. In the mist of me rambling about how (I don?t care about men) and wouldn?t mind being a side girl because, I was not ready to commit to anyone no time soon. He heard that and made his move.
I ask him ?do you have a girl?. He said ?yes but we are having problem?. I asked ?do you live together? and right now honestly I don?t remember his reply. He offered to take me out to the movies. I replied with the affirmative because of our initial connection. But, when the next day came he text me to confirm we were still on. By then I had time to really analyze things. I though to my self man he has a girl/ but they r having issues/ and he is nice. So, instead of telling him no (because I really did want to go) I took a rain check.
Now 5 months later his girl is 3-4 months pregnant. Yet he claims to be so in love with me and wish he could make our relation reality. Now I am sitting hear trying to be miss tough girl and be with him but I cant. Its been occasions where I was going to leave and he would get really up set. I mean real tears claiming his love and how he wished it could be. In turn I get all soft and, every time I try to pull away, every time I am like that?s it I end up in his arms.
I mean what can expect coming from my extremely emotional failed marriage. Being with a guy and never having an argument or not even a fight. When we r together he makes me feel like I am his full attention. But now he?s treating me like a deal with it type attitude (don?t want you to leave but deal with it).
Mind you he never says stay. He never tells me what to do. He doesn?t talk much or express his feelings. I just seem to always understand him. He would squeeze me so tight. I remember telling him that?s his way of saying I love you. Now when ever I am @ my end points he squeezes me oh so tight like he doesn?t want to let go. But he goes home every night.
But the funny part is I don?t want him to