I've been dating a man who I been off and on with....This man went through a bad marriage of 16 years and was married young..lost damn near everything! I fell head over heels for this man and he has a problem with drinking and got a DUI in december and I still stood by him...I would pick him up in the middle of the night drunk the whole nine yards...Its been a rough road to travel with him, but you cant help who you love. I recently tried to work things work with this man and he acted as if he really didnt care about me at all. There was no affection and ect...in the middle of trying to work things out I caught him having an affair with his bestfriends wife....(we were not together) when this took place, but the bottom line it caused trust issues...between us! I tried not to let it happen, but so much had already happen between us already with the partying everynight running around with one of my bestfriends and they both claimed to be "just friends" (were not friends anymore) due to that and other issues...anyhow since our split ive been dating and I had sex with another man and i didnt hide it either...I told him! He was (I just upset) about it, but he also told me that he "loved" me, but "wasnt in love with me"......Im so hurt.....I told him you know when I caught you having an affair i forgave you, but you were still sleeping with me and ect....as far as im concerned were even! That sounds bad, but I got really tired of the waiting and wishing game with this man.... I dont know what to do anymore because the sick part is I still love him....and I put up a hard front with him because im tired of being weak with him....He acts as if he doesnt care, but if he didnt care why was he made i slept with someone else..... This leo drives me crazy! How can you say "I love you and would do anything in the world for you, but im not in love with you".....How is this possible? Im lost....hurt...confused and wish I could change his mind and i just dont know how to do it or really see if he means that.... Should I let him see me happy with someone else? Does that really work....to make someone realize "hey I do love her and change there mind"?? Any advice...Please dont rag on me ive been trought enough of that.....
