Saturn in the 7th house?

Posted by KittyKnitter
my saturn is pisces in 7th house. it is the house of relationships.

i bond very quickly with people i meet. i make them part of my pack(leo female). i feel i owe the people who are there for me. i struggle with people's expectations and judgments of me and relationships have been difficult because i give more than i get. or i used to. i am working on this. to be fairer to me. i tend to be caught up in what other people want and i don't like conflict so i often give in rather than have an argument. i am trying to do better at being assertive and not being afraid of being abandoned or rejected. i am an only child and felt alone all my life and i am a loner. but i need my relationships. i learn and grow through them and they nurture me. but they can be draining too.

i like being alone but i have tended to go from one extreme to another. from being alone all the time to too much socializing and not enough me time. i quickly learned that men would shape me into what they wanted. i chose to stay in relationships where i was dominated. even though i wasn't happy, the leo female inside me felt like she had to compensate for being strong. i chose weaker men. i talked myself into accepting less than i deserved and gave up on my dreams, all because someone weaker wanted my power and i gave it away. i didn't know how to find balance and i didn't want the conflict that was necessary to gain my freedom.

i was in my late 20s when i began a relationship with the father of my child who was abusive. he was only 5 years older but domineering. i didn't want the conflict to gain my freedom and i stayed. i was in my 40s when i chose to leave. by then i knew enough about myself again, to know that i didn't need to settle for less than what i deserved. i am now in a relationship with a guy who is 14 years older. we both are loners and we both are non traditional. we like being different and we work well as a team but we also do stuff individually. we are both intense. we challenge and nurture each other.what i have learned is that i don't have to lose myself in someone else. i can be a better person with their help and we can build something new together. that isn't something i would have learned any other way but the hard way. i don't know if other people with the same placement feel this way but i am curious.


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