Venus in Scorpio My killer

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Melisse
@Melisse
13 Years

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Shorlty Im sun in Libra, moon in libra, mercury in Libra but venus in scorpio.
I have absolutely nothing in common with Libra character. Im not light headed and Im not easy to go with. More like Im too complicated.Sometimes even I cant understand myself. I hate this. Im too emotional.No we can say that Im Hyperemotional but only in love. In other things Im cold and uninterested. I wont even say anything about intensity and possesivness. When it comes to my feelings I become inadequate. + I hate
guessing other persons minds. Im reading them so easily. And its pain. Because it gives + even more emotions when I see that someone whos important for me plays with me, doesnt love me, just has fun.Knowing it hurts as hell. But strange thing. Even from pain sometimes I get pleasure. But sometimes I feel that I cannot bear anymore. Okey theres one guy. I loved him for whole 4 years, From these 4 years,1 we were friends, 2 we were together. then he simply said that I was obsessed that he couldnt take it anymore and just left me. I dont want to explain what Ive been through during that 1 year. Ive become even more dark. Lets call it like this. I always liked mysterious things but what I am now. I have dark thoughts. Sadistical thoughts. I was suffering myself not only mentally but hysically as well. Then I tried to lock all these things inside. But it made me crazy from there....
And now this guy is back.. Point is that I see he feels nothing towards me. Yes when he came back I didnt give up easy.. I wanted him to repay abit for my sufferings. I guess it was mistake. and I tried to manipulate. But if he loved me. How could his love disappear in one day? .. He letted me down already 10 times if not more since his back. but I cant do anything with myself. Im head over hills into him. I suffer I suffocate. he says he wants to be friends with me now because when he came back loved me but then he saw smth in me that made him stop. I tried getting rid of him. But I cant stay without him. Btw. Hes SUN in lEO. and Venus in Leo.
He desnt simply understand that I usually dont mean what I say. that I mean one thing but I say another. ..
Shortly I dont know whats the way out of this. If he leaves again Im sure Ill end up being pshycho.
I want him back! ..
Sorry I really need help/.