need some prespective

i have a friend and it's online, we started off as friends..and became friends/lovers to basically nobodies. i really liked this person because he is so melllow and so nice..i felt that i did most of the initiating which i have never done because i really felt infatuated with him. i liked that he was super smart and he had very unique views on the world, he has his own idea of how the world was and i was intrigued.

however..i ended a relationship recently, so im still recovering, it looks as if i've moved on but deep down i know that i havent completely moved on. it felt like he was unhappy because we spent to much time talking and it would not amount to anything , overall we're still figuring out our lives on top of that long distance. h said like we're living in fantasy land so he would not commit, long distance is like all fantasy

so i asked him to stay as friends with me since we started arguing over the smallest things, and i thought that he would be okay with it..he always encourages me to find friends and he said he would still love me. instead he started to blow me off he would ask to talk to me and then when i said 'sure ofcourse!' he didnt reply or he would say he changed his mind, and doesnt want to play games/talk to me anymore. i tried to be okay with it even though it kind of hurts

today he asked if i wanted to talk. i said yeah, and we're already talking (texting). he didnt reply, i asked to call but he said no. he changed his mind. maybe he's upset or sad and not being honest. maybe it was all made up in my head that he ever liked me, and i did lose my chance. my friend says its an ego thing, but idk

Posted by nanobot

Did you ever meet irl and how far is the distance?

no we only video chatted, he lives in the central part of US and im from canada. so its kind of far but not too far