I post this to try and find some insight on controlling some things that naturally occur in me that I have just kind of delt with or ignored or passed off in the past. Its happening more and I would like to control it to use at my will and reconize it before its in progress. I was driving thru montana the other night and radio is on real low. Its snowing and hard to see. I had my brites off and was descending a long grade in the pass when the snow was turning to rain in the lower elevation. I hadn't seen another car in sometime. This voice over the radio says "don't your brite lights work real well" as clear as sitting next to me but I was alone. So I turn on my brites, round a corner and say aloud "what the f is that" and slow to a stop. Its a 70 foot tall pine tree laying acrossed both lanes of eastbound I90. I never would have stopped in time without the brites giving me the added notice. Just too dark. There are other times when I'm told things, or I see them. For a second these ghost will hang out with me. Sometimes I just know things. Its weird. I met a women once and when she said she was leaving her man. I said no your not and told her why. I was correct and she admitted it and was shocked. Scarred too. I often do this but I have no control. It just appears in my thoughts and it is as true as if I had been told or experianced it myself. Whatever it may be. Often with my own life, relationships if I become very detached I can see or feel what is going on when I'm not around. I have yet to be proven wrong with this. Although its usually a bad thing. I was in basic training oin 97 and I had a thought. On a phone priviledge night. So I called home and said is mom ok? She had passed that morning actually minutes from when I first knew something was wrong. What I'm looking for here is how do I summon this rather then wait for it to appear in me? Problem is it confuses me. I start to doubt myself as for what is real in my own life. I sometimes think I did something with someone then realize it wasn't me with them, but I know every detail and word as if I was. Its not that I feel I'm going nuts, I do figure it out, it just would be nice to control it, rather then it controlling me. As for the ghost. I haven't had any scary,harmful, or alarming encounters with them.(never same one) they simply pass through. Some speak,some don't. I usually see the non speakers and just hear the speakers. Of well. Any insight?
