Roll the Cameras

I'm pissed again. Guys, would you be pissed if your gf took pictures of her, "hot work buddy" in his Halloween costume .. in her office ... posing on a chair you bought for her? ...and then posted them on FB. I think she just posted more pics of this dude today than she has of me in the last year ... maybe I'm exaggerating just a bit, but this is getting ridiculous.

I was starting to feel it for my Aqua again when she would initiate "I love you" again lately. It meant a lot because she avoided saying that for a while, and she has clearly been obsessed with some other guy. So, I thought maybe I was winning her back when she said she loved me again.

Also, her test is finally over! 2 weeks ago, I was looking forward to being a total dick with her after this test, but then she started acting like she cared about me again. So then I was gonna be nice, and wait and see. Well, now I'm back to plotting dick mode! She annoyed the hell outta me last night too with this weird distant thing she does.

I'm gonna try to get some good footage of a fight, but I don't even know if she cares enough to fight anymore. Who knows, sometimes she thinks she doesn't care but then blows up at the thought of me doing something with another girl. I'm feeling ornery, like getting even, maybe like recouping financially by making money off videos of us fighting. We'll see, wish I already had more footage of my life for the last 6 months. we both agreed a while back that we'd be making some dollars if we had our fights on tape.

Posted by DeeGee
Whats ur sign?

You're 41, get over it....

yeah, you're right DG. I'm over reacting to that ... there's just so much that's gone down, I'm looking for an excuse

We are supposed to go out tonight, so I'll try to just have fun. She seems oddly activated though, probably she will pick a fight pretty quick herself.

I'm feeling ornery, like getting even, maybe like recouping financially by making money off videos of us fighting.

+1

May as well get something out of all this.

Well....my question is... What the costume really funny? Was it a cute costume?

What I'm getting at was maybe it was more about the costume than it was the guy.

Of course, I don't know yall's history or anything.

So what was the "hot work buddy" dressed as?

OMG you're both friggin' crazy o.o

jru -- seriously, friend... WHY are you keeping her in your home?

Do you have Sadistic tendencies and absolutely no respect for yourself?

Believe me.... I never ever wish anyone ill. When I pray for my family, I pray for the whole world... I individualize my prayers and takes me at least an hour until I'm finished with my detailed prayer.

SO

get her out! Gain back your respect to yourself and consequently... she may respect you as well.

Right now it looks like she is playing with your head and she absolutely is not trying to get onto your better side.

Come on... take a deep breath. DO IT!!!

Oooooooh my FUCKING god!!!! I just shot the best video of my life just now this morning! when I 1st started uploading to youtube years ago, I easily picked the best clip out of hours and hours of footage ... and that video still will get thousands of hits in a day while nothing else I've ever put up for years has gotten more than a couple hundred hits in a day. But, the clip I just shot with the aqua this morning blows everything out of the water!

Downside, I can't just show the whole clip because if the wrong people saw it she would lose her whole career. But, i will edit out parts that I can show. I think you guys will get the jist of everything. God, I can't wait to get home ... i'm paranoid something is going to happen to the SD chip before I can get it uploaded.

It was so fun asking her questions that I knew the answer to and letting her lie to me. You guys can fault me for capitalizing on this situation, but she has really just been taking advantage of my hospitality for a few months now. OMG this is so ripe ... clips soon!

btw ... everyone should know ... if you are a cheater, and you don't want your significant other to have the pass-code to your phone ... don't type the code in while your partner can see the screen. 4 numbers are pretty easy to pick out (even out of the corner of an eye)

Posted by jru2
btw ... everyone should know ... if you are a cheater, and you don't want your significant other to have the pass-code to your phone ... don't type the code in while your partner can see the screen. 4 numbers are pretty easy to pick out (even out of the corner of an eye)

You're pretty funny, jru... (hugs) 😄

Posted by HonneTatemae
Why you haven't thrown this dumb, cheating biootch out of your house by this point is a complete mystery to me.

Oh, right.

You're a sadist.

YOU give me the right word then. Obviously my psychiatric practices are not at its finest.

But the message is clear afterall... no?

😉

😉

Posted by HonneTatemae
😉

lol a serious 'Source' format will do 😛


I realized later that Sadism is pain you inflict on others. What you do to yourself is (I think) Sadomasochism. Perhaps there is another word for inflicting pain and suffering to yourself without the sexual connotation. Perhaps it has a sexual connection... dunno lol Freud connects EVERYTHING -- pretty much -- to sex.

see... i've been just thinking. Didn't want to give people a headache on words.

hey, I hope I'm not sadist. I'm not excited about the demise part in the film. I'm excited about having captured an intense real life moment on film.

also, the film is not her demise ... she's her own demise. you'll see. what the clip is about is me trying to talk her out of this path of self sabotage she is on.

So where's the movie? 😉

smh 😛

Posted by Wynter
So where's the movie? 😉

It was 45 min drive in ... editing out all the dead time now. Then I have to put a sound over names, and figure out how much to tease you guys.

I come off like a needy dork during part of it ... yuck, and of course the best parts are what kinda gives away to much of what's going on. hmmm. probably just leave those bits up for short time.

omg though ... she's wanting to see him tonight in person to call it off ... SMH! we had big text fight

me ... yes, control issues: I don't want her to meet him in person at 10pm tonight to express her feelings and make sure that he's ok with their situation having to be put on hold.

funny, now she's complaining to me that he didn't answer her text to meet up. oh well, I guess she won't be able to break it off now, I guess they'll just have to accidentally run into each other this weekend.

I think there is more than just 'talking' going on... 😛


Don't worry, jru... I can tell from myself that I can get needy and obsessive if the situation gets ALL out of proportion.

Still waiting for the video.

Posted by everevolvingepithet
So have you followed her around and stuff?

just once:

no, it's on private ... I've only shared it with you guys. but she knows i filmed that vid above. I left the camera mounted to the windshield of my truck ever since the big stake-out. She's been riding with me a lot lately and is accustomed to seeing the camera mounted in my truck. All I have to do is turn it on before she gets in and I can catch our convo that way. I keep her out of view though.

she still lies so much. i don't even see the point of it. she's conflicted, but probably going to spend most of the weekend hi and with the other guy. god I wish I had started filming sooner ... missed some good money shots already, and a couple of good videos is all I'm likely to get out of this relationship now.

I'm still curious as to what the guy was dressed as on Halloween. 😄

haha!

Posted by truecap
I'm still curious as to what the guy was dressed as on Halloween. 😄

haha!

oh, i'm sorry ... yes, cheesy nothing special costume. It was some vest with weird stuff on it and big glasses.

she's talked a lot about this guy too ... he's her type (looks like a younger version of me), just broke up with his g/f ... i think or else it's just long distance. ...and this guy is going to be at the festival she is going to all weekend too.

omg ... this whole thing is fucking ridiculous.

She won't say straight up that we are broke up because she doesn't want me to go lookin' before she can get moved out and hook up with somebody new. lol, We're at the "I don't want you but I don't want you to be with anybody else" phase of the relationship i guess.

Oh well, good lessons. Now I know how it feels. i still want a home-base relationship where we are free, but me and aqua just don't have a good home base.

Some Virgo guy may come and take her away just like that.


It may be right or wrong.

What matters is she has to go.

She won't say straight up that we are broke up because she doesn't want me to go lookin' before she can get moved out and hook up with somebody new. lol, We're at the "I don't want you but I don't want you to be with anybody else" phase of the relationship i guess.

Yeah.

I'm curious about the other guy's zodiac sign.