I have to get this off my chest

So I want to share my experience with Scorpios. I am a Capricorn woman and have dated many people and signs through the years but I have always been drawn to Scorpios. They have a dark, magnetic, intense energy. They are intelligent, hardworking, attentive to detail, and I love our witty banter whether it's with a love interest or simply a coworker. I love the sex with them, as people see me as boring old goat but Scorpios bring out the inner freak. So scorpio #1 and I met and instantly hit it off. He fought months for me and I finally gave in. We have been dating for about 5 years and have really grown into who we are as people together. Well, he is of course into some interesting concepts when it comes to sex. 2.5 years ago or so I met Scorpio #2 at my job. He was far my superior but someone I relied on a lot for help when I was training. I noticed all the "big bosses" seem to worship his feet and all the while his eyes say "I don't care". I moved around a lot in my job so I kinda forgot about him except when I came across something I didn't understand and then I'd always call and ask him. He was so nice and seemed genuinely happy to speak to me. Then about a year ago he started talking to me and we had a lot in common. We're both obviously into some of the darker mysteries of life and so it bonded us. He started telling me how admirable I was and such. To be fair, at this point, Scorpio #1 and I hit a major rough patch. For months it was like walking through mud trying to work things out between us. I talked to #2 about this and he always said I deserve better blah blah blah. So moving in my job, eventually our paths crossed and we had to work together daily. #2 would make snide comments about my boyfriend, but would do so casually as if a joke in front of other people. I didn't like some of the things he'd say so I'd just squint my eyes and ignore it, or respond as if it didn't even bother me. I'm sure being a double scorpio he knew it ate into me. Then he started being mean to me, arguing with me about everything, belittling me. I hated him. Eventually I moved on again and didn't have to see him anymore. Me and #1 worked out everything and I fessed up for all my sins, and #1 understood and said it was okay, just to try not to get my feeling involved with someone else. Recently I reached out to #2 again. I don't know why I just can't stop thinking of him after all these years. So I thought maybe I can just get this out of my system (plus I was intoxicated). Everything went good I thought, he was responding diligently and like he was enjoying the conversation. But then he suddenly disappeared. I haven't spoken to him since. That same night he called our work and asked for a vacation, which I wonder if it's because I came onto him again and he's embarrassed? Occasionally we do cross paths. I don't want to be with #2, I don't think. #1 is so emotional and a slob, but otherwise we have a great relationship full of conversation and openness. I just have been so attracted to #2 for so long, and #1 encourages me to get it out of my system (in a physical way) so that's what I tried to do. I'm embarrassed now, but I've decided just to pretend it didn't happen and move on. Thoughts/comments on this are welcome. I won't get butthurt.

Also I should probably note that I moved up the ranks at our job very quickly. Even though I worked for someone else, the company credits #2 for all my success. I see serious issues out of the way he works. I joke that he is a slave driver but at times I do think he wants everyone to be miserable. If it isn't his idea, it isn't worth it. It's so annoying. So I need to note that at first yes I was very interested in this man, but then it just became a lust. Why do Scorpios make you lust after them even if you hate them. Ugh