Indecisive, midlife crisis, and attention whore

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EDENTHEHERO
@EDENTHEHERO
9 Years

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Sooo I'm a gemini who has dealt with scorpio woman born on Halloween not sure of the moon sign in her astrology but the 3 things I listed in my topic are why I had to cut the relationship. Shes someone whose never sure of anything. She has ideas and dreams and makes all sorts of plans only to never follow thru with any of them. I'm someone who can't sit still and not act on something I really want to accomplish and also I can't avoid the elephant in the room because I hate to harbor any feelings and need to do away with them asap. So after 2 years of not much communication we tried being together after she just broke up with someone and I just ended my efforts in trying to get someone back. I felt guilt for the person she broke up with because I knew how they felt and I was cautious getting back with her. I paid extra close attention to how she acted and would speak on things I observed and she took it as judgement. She would be on the end of my phone constantly and when I realized her old ways of distancing and not speaking or responding to text messages after hours its because she needs space but most importantly she needed her ego stroked by the many followers on her page. When I seen there were 3 suspects that have her engaging in heavy convo I started to come to terms I can't deal with having heavy emotions that can't be expressed to her without her feeling pressured. So I cut the relationship and said lets just be friends. I was much happier as her friend yet still always felt this connection with her more than friends. I know how I made her feel and how I took her mentally to other places. Shes now denying anything was ever that real and loving between us. I believe its only because she is hurt I broke up with her and then we have a vacay together and she takes my phone to put music on and sees an ex that I broke up with before her text me and call me. I know that prolly killed any chance of more with her later but I know she was doing her and talking to many others. So I guess what i'm looking for from one of you scorps is to explain why treat someone like a convenience or make them think it was never anything? she expressed after our break up that she loves me still but we may make better friends than lovers. I kinda knew that going into even friendship with her that shes full of shit lol. She loves when people are all over her and thirsty. I for one don't like to consume a lot of energies because I have such positivity inside me and will protect it til the end. Her ways make her look extremely fake. Now don't get me wrong I was a bit spiteful in reaching out to my ex but at the same time it didn't sit right with how I ended things with her and waned to apologize. my scorp ex questioned me like 3 times about the ex prior to her. I told her exactly what it was and there wasn't any feelings for my ex I just needed to put good karma out there. But I think that just fueled her desire to move on. I'm obviously obsessing over her remark.