Scorpio Man and Taurus Woman

Perhaps pleaaee help me to analyse.

I was tgt with this scorpio man when im 16. It's pretty much a puppy love but it left lots of feelings between us after we break up. We broke up because of me being young and unable to understand scorpio man complex thinking.

But throughout the five years, I keep a online journal where he is the only one that has assess to it. If I am feeling down or shit, he will definitely text me to check out on me. He is my emotional support throughout the 5 YEARS.

He acknowledged that we have this emotional dependency on each other but we never meet up at all throughoit this 5 years.

So I keep surpressing my feelings because I do not want to make the first move.
But after a car accident and everything change. During the crash, I thought of him. I text him and asked him for the moral support when im in the hospital. He didn't come down due to work.

Ever since then, we text each other for like maybe 20days since he crash. But most of the time he is busy with work and collage. So he hardly reply me. But I try to keep the conversation going.

But sometimes when his phone running out of battey he will inform me because he knows I always look forward to text him intensively for 30mins before bed.

Somehow, I don't know wad he wants. But his hot and cold is crazy shit.

Should I move on but is hard because he is my only emotional support and I don't trust anyone else.
Or what? ?

What can I do to get him back or get him interested or what.
How I wish I can dig out his heart and brain to know what is he thinking.

Stop surpressing your feelings.. If you like the guy, let him know.