Why cant I be strong right now when I need to be?

I hate the situation I'm in right now. I am someone who plans and plots and only acts when the moment is right.

As it is I have been forced out of my planning stage and being forced to act now. I have a predicament where i have to choose between my relationship and my safety.

Naturally I have been house hunting and doing everything i can to fix this but everything i have done has had a stop put to it for different reasons.

The way its looking right now my relationship is on the line. My emotions are everywhere. I want to break down and cry. I just want my mans arms around me and to just stay in his arms and to let everything sort itself out. I know i cant but i feel everything slipping away and as much as i try to keep it together and fix it, I feel like the universe has other plans.

I'm so scared, angry, lost and feel like giving up.

Why cant i hold it together?

why cant I keep my emotions in tack while I fix this?

Posted by Impulsv
Along with the above perhaps the lesson to let go n just be. What is truly yours will never leave when
All the acrobatics seize.

THIS ^^

+1

Posted by scoripoblood93
As it is I have been forced out of my planning stage and being forced to act now.

I have a predicament where i have to choose between my relationship and my safety.

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Forced.

When a situation won't budge, there's usually a reason-- and if you don't know what to do, then don't

do anything.

If you have to put yourself at risk in order to keep the relationship, something isn't right.