my boyfriend (taurus) walked out on me after 10 years last weekend. I am completely devestated. Four years ago I had an affair. Very young and too immature back then to understand why he was the was he was (unromantic, unaffectionate in public, punishing me for all the girls who treated him badly in the past). The affair ended and although I was sure i'd lose him straight away forever, I came clean because I'd grown up, learnt a lesson and loved him dearly. I was ready to walk away but he asked me to stay. He said although he was angry he couldn't hate me for it because he knew that the affair lasted longer than it would simply because i can't hurt a fly, he said he would try and forgive me and that he wanted to be with me.
Four years later he walks away because he can't forget and that has made him fall out of love. He is clearly also very upset and wants to be friends because he still loves me in that way. I want that too but I love him too much just to be friends. I have tried everything to help him deal with this, I know i have more than made up for what I did and he agrees but he said in order not to hate me he had to not love me and eventually he got used to that.
I don't think I deserve any less, I'm just paying for it years later but I do not want to lose him. We have a brilliant Cancer/Taurus connection. But his decision (which is one more thanm he has ever made) scares me that he has gone for good.
Does anyone have any advice about whether its possible to re-ignite what he thinks he's lost, or how as a cancer I can move on from the loss of such a deep connection?
"Does anyone have any advice about whether its possible to re-ignite what he thinks he's lost," No because it's not about what he THINKS he's lost, it's about what he KNOWS he's lost. I'm sure because he's recently ended this that your probably still in denial that it's over but I think after 4 years...he knows that this isn't something he can live with.
You have to respect that at least he tried to make it work during those four years & despite your best efforts he's not able to forget. Sometimes the mistakes we make cause irreparable damage. He clearly cares for you because he wants to remain friends, Your only options are to accept his offer of friendship, which btw is more than most would get, or walk away completely. Maybe after some time apart you'll be able to have a friendship with him.
Did something happen more recently that would bring those things back to light? Does seem funky that it took him 4 years but that's how some people are, it could've been sitting in the back of his mind the whole time and then something else happened to just make it too much for him to deal with and accept.
l Agree Cancer's do not normally cheat , but we do get scared if we really love someone so deep ,so to protect our selves we \sometimes test our love by getting off with someone , so we don't feel insecure, or we take the one for granted thinking they will always be there,because we get carried away . were a random sometimes and do things of the cuff for no reason, then think what the Hell! am l doing , by then its to late.
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Four years later he walks away because he can't forget and that has made him fall out of love. He is clearly also very upset and wants to be friends because he still loves me in that way. I want that too but I love him too much just to be friends. I have tried everything to help him deal with this, I know i have more than made up for what I did and he agrees but he said in order not to hate me he had to not love me and eventually he got used to that.
I don't think I deserve any less, I'm just paying for it years later but I do not want to lose him. We have a brilliant Cancer/Taurus connection. But his decision (which is one more thanm he has ever made) scares me that he has gone for good.
Does anyone have any advice about whether its possible to re-ignite what he thinks he's lost, or how as a cancer I can move on from the loss of such a deep connection?