Not sure what to do with this darling Taurus Man..

Well hey, I'm new here. So first of all, hello, and thanks for reading. So I'm a shy Leo, and I'm having a bit of trouble understanding the rhythm of (my?) Taurus man. Essentially I feel it's his move, is it my move? What's happening? Then I peel apart too many details. Long story long:
He's a young Taurus in his mid twenties, I as well. We have been dear friends for a year now. I know we always held a special place in each other??s hearts, as both friends, and crushes. When we first met, he was preparing for a long journey out of state, but it was expressed that we liked each other, shyly, but didn't want to force bc of distance. He always called me, and our mutual friends would ask me for updates as he was only speaking to me. We kept in lose touch but it faded out with life's transition.

He became a trusted friend, and I to him. Then I got into a relationships, with someone he knows, but isn't a big fan of. When he came back to town, he didn't look me up, instead, he showed up at my show and hovered in the background. I asked if he was upset I was dating someone, he said no, that he was just confused and no explanation was necessary. We continued on in loose touch, with some very loving and special friendship moments.

Well things went sour with my ex and like a dear friend, this Taurus was there for me during the breakup. We again, maintained loose contact, always somehow finding a reason to pop up in each other??s lives (it was pretty even on both sides)
And now, half a year after my break up he is back and settled into our location. I am almost healed and balanced. We decided to hang out, randomly and have a lovely dinner with his very lovely friends. Then he takes me home and we end up visiting a park. I was cold so after much hinting (from him) I lay down beside him so he can put his arms around me. We ended up kissing very sweetly and passionately for hours. He told me I was very —sensual??. The weird part was that it wasn't weird. It felt so natural and comfortable, whereas I'm usually MORE shy and afraid when getting physically closer. It felt really good actually. We parted ways and he texted me immediately when he woke up- small talk (unusual for him) and then the following day, more small talk??_usually we speak rarely, but when we do it's checking up or trying to hang out, or having a very deep conversation where we are consoling one another on life's lessons.

This was a few days ago, and perha

oops, it appears to have cut me off. continued: I want him to ask me out. I do not want to do it cause I feel too vulnerable. (it's silly, yes) I texted — I hope to see you soon.?? He said likewise. Then an hour later he said, — You are a very passionate girl. I just wanted you to know that.?? I didn't know what to say. 2 hours later I was running and the sunset was so beautiful I just wanted to look at it and describe it and hear his voice so I called him. No answer. I texted him just telling him that. And making a joke about running towards it and not getting closer. He wrote a cute response back saying he wanted to call but was hungry and cooking. I said that's okay, I need to work on something now, but enjoy and have a good night. He replied —Good night daydreamer?? And now it's today and I'm over analyzing. I'm yearning to see him. I feel a pull. I know I should keep calm, but I feel a bit afraid. Any tips, or observations? Should I just ask him to come over Friday? Or chill. I'm actually feeling weird so I'm not being natural. He's being a bit different too tho. I just miss him is all. (: Thank you for your time.

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Perhaps it wouldn't be so bad to wait a little bit. Um, a little bit could be anywhere from two weeks to a month. If not a month, then three weeks maybe. There's nothing wrong with hyou expressing imterest to him, and that's actually a good thing since that gives him all the more reason to continue pursuing you, but you're not in an established relationship yet so there's no reason to go crazy and have a date every week or two. Also, you shouldn't totally throw yourself at him. The feelings expressed due to eager anticipation is more significant and much better when you've been apart for a while doing your own thing, and you'll have more to look forward to and talk about.

LOL SOULTALK! It so is. The honest is actually endearing. He is pretty simple and says what he means..when he talks that is. 🙂

2NR3: That sounds logical, however, I need to honor my natural pace as well. I'm thinking we might just not be compatible cause I'm already frustrated, as I was last year when he went away..which is why he lost me to someone more...persistent, sure.

I definitely shouldn't be reacting like this, so I think I'm not ready myself. I'm a bit skittish as it is, so I need someone sure and direct to feel safe.

Last night we spoke on the phone and I was very sincere and patient (just needing to express myself) We discussed the kiss, and he was struggling to explain. He said, wasn't it weird that just peaked so quick, there was so much passion. And I said, well the only weird thing is that it wasn't weird. I felt really safe with you. The kissing was great, but I was just very content to be immersed in nature and in your arms. It felt really natural and I felt at peace. Then I asked him to come over on Friday and hang out. I said I would make brownies...then he got all squirley saying he was actually planning to go out of town this weekend ( i believe him) but then after that it was a million and one excuses..and it's my sisters birthday and my friend might have a bbq and and and..and then he was like, well we have strong chemistry so dont you think that would be very tempting? i don't want to move too fast. and honestly, i didn't think about that. I just thought I wanted to have him in my safe space and just relax. And that I miss him. I said well I will make other plans, but I don't have sex for a while in the beginning out of respect for everyone, I think pretty inocnetly. He seemed to understand, but I was bummed out so I got off the phone. Leo ego scarred. And I never share my feelings :/ Anyways, I'm just pulling way back and considering it not right for me.

Funny enough, I think he will process it slowly and come after me, but I'm already moving on. I just want to be alone I guess. Then he texts me this morning with a billion exclamation points, and I'm just wanting space now. We are not in sync.