What have I done!? (Page 2)

@Infinite 8: Don't worry lol her flirtation are in no way disprecpectul... she do it right in front of my eyes because she enjoy seeing me jealous in a friendly way...and like I said, My Bull gets really uncomfortable so it's actually kinda funny...I'm not really jealous... I just play along 🙂

But only her can do that... other women— no freaking way!!! I'll tear them apart lol 😄

Funny thing is... I've never thought of myself as the healous type....and I have never been in any of my other relationship...and my husband never once give me a reason to be jealous... but damn it he's mine!!! 😛

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Posted by FirstDecanTaurianWomen0428
Hi @magicmona damn you okay over there? Lol

hi hun. i'm fine now, thank you. was reeling earlier lol. how are you?

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Better now thanks. Muahz.

To Leylia12... Thank you very much for your support and thank you Infinite8.

I did as you suggested Leylia12...I've been seending him letters for a few days now... and still haven't got a reply from him. No text, no e-mail, no phone call...Not able to see him and see how he's doing is really hard. I keep looking at my phone hoping for a text message or a phone call... and when I'm not looking at the phone... I'm on my computer clicking refresh from my e-mail account hoping for an e-mail from him. I am more than aware that in his condition..he might not have the time nor the energy to think about all this... and to think that I put him through all this for months... I can't even begin to imagine how hard it must have been for him all this time.

I miss him soooo much... and I'm soo worried about him...I don't know his condition as I haven't seen him for days. I just can't take my mind off him... In my letters I told him exactly that...that I miss him a lot... his voice, his smile...I told him how sorry I am... and that if he could give one more chance... that I would like to make good on that promise of mine... to be there for him as he always had been for me.

This pain in unbearable...for 3 days now... I've been writing letters to him for 3 days... and every morning, I went to the hospital and give it to the nurse and ask her to deliver the letters for me. Every morning I am physically so close to him but unable to see him... and every time I leave the hospital It felt like I left a part of me over there...

Every evenings after work now... I hurry home and check my mails and write him letters...I have never noticed this... but I am surrounded by him... alll these gifts he gave me over the last 2 years... they are all over the place so there are no escape...As hard as it is everyday... how much it hurt... it is also a reminder of what I've put him through...

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The bull is responsible for his actions, guys stop blaming op. If the bull was practical enough(he's Taurus though) he would have stop pursuing after he's not getting back the same level of attraction at the start.

I think you're missing the whole point... but sure...

And he did stop... didn't he? If you actually read the whole story...OP is actually the one trying to get him back

And no one is blaming her...we just want her to face the consequences of her actions... that's all

Haha I did read, he could have stop chasing her when she said " thank you for all the gifts but we are just friends right" to save all his time. Taurus guy was buying her gifts and all, trying to convert her from Friend to lovers lol I hate to say that but that is weak.... Hmm. That is why when scorpios gals or any female in my life is playing mind games with me i shut them down immediately, no time for games man.

Currently I am with my scorp gal, she's trying to make me chase he and always asks me why am I not calling or texting or finding her haha, i would be like " I am sorry baby but u know I am busy, you could drop me a text to let me know u miss me and I will get back to u when I am done". Sometimes i feel kinda tired trying to out-masculine her and wish I can find someone who prefers to stay in her feminity more usually cancer ones but cancer ones are too emotional for a longterm relationship. Well to date a scorp gal u just have to always be in your toes

What types of level of attraction from the start?

Like how she was "pretending not to be interested" aka mind games she played

Yes, typical scorp. Ego bigger than a Leo except theirs is internalised and only shown through their "mind games"...

U can't imagine having the ego the OP had to treat someone like that for two years. I wouldn't even treat my own worst enemy like that....

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Having never met the op and going purely from what she's written here, I get the feeling that she only is pursuing him because of a mixture of guilt and pity.

If he makes a full recovery will she suddenly find she's not attracted to him anymore?

This may well be the case ^^^

Hi SillyScorp,

At this point I don't think you can do much but to wait for him. I do understand how hard it can be not able to see him at the moment and especially in this situation... in his situation. Just do your best to be there for him as he were for you. You don't always have to be next to him to be there for him...those letters or yours should be enough to let him know that you aren't far. Keep yourself busy and do your best to control those emotions of yours. You don't want him to see you like this and be worry about you now do you? If he still care for you he wouldn't want to see you like this. As much as it could feel so real to have the other person worry about you.... because it feels so right... it feels so concrete, but it's not healthy...So again... hang i there 🙂

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Hi SillyScorp,

At this point I don't think you can do much but to wait for him. I do understand how hard it can be not able to see him at the moment and especially in this situation... in his situation. Just do your best to be there for him as he were for you. You don't always have to be next to him to be there for him...those letters or yours should be enough to let him know that you aren't far. Keep yourself busy and do your best to control those emotions of yours. You don't want him to see you like this and be worry about you now do you? If he still care for you he wouldn't want to see you like this. As much as it could feel so real to have the other person worry about you.... because it feels so right... it feels so concrete, but it's not healthy...So again... hang i there 🙂

Thank you Leylia12. He finally passed away around a month and a half ago...I've been visiting his grave every single day since. I just don't know what else to do... I feel so alone and empty. Everyday I go see him and talk to him about my day, my weekend, my work...might be silly but I feel like I'm still connected to him... like he is still there listening to me. I miss his smile soooo much... how he always makes me feel like everything will be alright. Every now and then I keep replaying old messages from him on my answering machine...because I'm afraid I'll forget his voice. I miss him so badly... this hurt so much...

I'm so sorry to hear this.

Stay strong... as I am sure he would have said it himself if he could...Everything are gonna be alright!

I'm so sorry to read this, it's so sad. But I know he knew that you cared about him. God bless you

This is so very sad OP. I hope he can hear you wherever he may be now. ??