CAn you advise?

Hello there,

I am a Pisces with a problem! I hope someone can help.
I have just read this description of
Pisces:

Pisces, when active in the chart, is loving, caring, communicative, easily influenced,
easygoing, dreamy, pleasant, comforting, philosophical,
idealistic, creative, volunteering, contemplative, spiritual, reverent,
empathic, devoted, unpretentious, visionary, romantic, versatile,
musical, open-minded, gentle, polite, charming, gracious, lucky,
enthusiastic, prosperous, tactful, healing, trustworthy, psychic,
and tolerant.


Unfavorable Pisces can be manipulative, passive-aggressive,
timid, helpless, degenerate, psychotic, ungrounded,
have poor concentration and follow-through, procrastinating,
bad with money, lacking in goals, undefended emotionally, lazy,
indulgent, gullible, tearful, impulsive, unreliable, airheaded,
unsettled, indecisive, confused, superficial, melancholic,
inconsistent, addictive, overzealous, a loner, uncommunicative,
bad with details, and misplaces trust.

Unfortunately, at the moment, the 'unfavorable Pisces' description
applies to me.
I was at one stage have of the 'favorable' description. In fact
I know I was. The biggest thing I had, was the Piscean hope and foresight.
I was optimistic about what I wanted to do and what came natural to me.
But being a Pisces ( although I never realised it at the time, and that it
would bring me to this point) I lacked the practical skills to put
my dreams in motion.

I was naturally very quick and bright,and funny - with lots of ideas
bouncing around. Musical, entertaining etc etc.

A few months ago I moved back in with my parents - and as
they are quite straight, cynical 'down-to-earth' insensitive ( I don't mean that
disparagingly they are just like that) people who don't go in for anything
ethereal or flimsy, like the arts- I have found myself being so influenced by their attitudes,and
getting more and more discouraged and sinking deeper and deeper, that I am ending
up once again doing things and jobs just to please them at the end of the day
that I feel I am my losing my own identity. Not only am I doing things to please
them, but I am BEING ways to please them. Naturally when I am around people that respond
favorabley to me, I am quite high-spirited and funny and all the good things about Pisces.
When I arrived here, I was like that to a degree, but they disparaged of it more and more.
It is only my nature, and how I deal with things, by using humour. I mean I can get
things done better if there is humour about it. But I wasn;t being 'serious; enough
for them, and more and more I felt worse and worse.
When I came back to live here I thought they would help, but they don't want to
help, because they don't believe in the things I do, and are not so open-minded.

All I want to do is go to drama school. But they have trampled all over my
dreams and feelings long enough already, that I don't want them to do it to
my one true dream. But I am finding it harder and harder to help myself. So I am at
the stage where there is NO WAY I can reveal my true dream, becaus they will onl
be extremely cynical and disparaging of it and I couldn;t take that.

I am slipping in to unfavorable mode more and more each day due to
these difficulties.

Not to blame them or anything - but I didnt realise it would affect me so
much, otherwise I would have avoided coming here.

I need to ask anyone out there, who might have a little expertise in
Astrology ( or psychiatry!)- will I be stuck in this mode forever??
I am doomed to be the Pisces victim, failure?? What can I do to help myself?

In astrology terms my father is a Leo, my mother a Capricorn. My
father is so typical Le

Ellie,
First off you seem to have an extraordinary assessment on your situation, some people are never truly able to pinpoint their actual cause of anguish. It is apparent that deep down you already know what you need to do and why. It is not like you are some sixteen year old having to ask for dads permission to take the car keys or what not. You are a twenty five year old woman. It seems it would serve you best now to show your parents your conviction. If you have to drum up a couple of jobs to take advantage of a possible 'out' for you, then do so. Then make a plan of your own. Muster up the courage and just lay it out to them, prepare yourself to proceed no matter the consequence. But only you can identify if that will provide you the ultimate satisfaction of self worth and peace of mind that you seem to crave. You are twenty five and it is never too late to share your talent. Never. Godspeed in your task.

The whole identity thing..keep in mind is stunted in a stagnant situation. If you feel as if you need to evolve then that should be even more incentive for you to make a change. If you do decide that your adventure is just beginning you cannot let whatever fear or uncertainty that lies ahead cripple you. You have to believe in your own ability and the promise of self respect that you'll undoubtedly take in, upon initiating a more meaningful life. You just have to keep in mind that at this moment in your life you see yourself in an unfavorable light but it can be changed. You have to prime yourself for those opportunities which are everywhere and know that if you want to make a change bad enough than you will. Follow what you are intended to do.

Pisces......you tell your story so very very well and with such emotion.......and that is good, very good......but the bottom line in your story as far as I am concerned is your following quote:
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"
"All I want to do is go to drama school"

That my dear is the bottom-line for me...it's what you as a true piscean girl wants.......the rest of the players in your story are only "players"....Papa and Mama.....what they don't want and what they do want....most mamas and papas never ever really want what their children want or want to be...that is the nature of the beast....no matter how many american happy family films you gonna see where mama and papa give thier unconditional love to their son or dauthter in whatever profession they choosee.....hey come on missy, this is real life...mamas and papas are there to put every obstacle under the sun in your way!!:-) and they do it os subtely and so well sometimes, it's beggars belief....but all Mamas and Papas have lived their own lives and fought their own demons...it's now time for you to stand on your own two feet, say to yourself - it don't matter what they think - the world revolves around me...I am the centre of my universe...and guess what....you will go the drama school, head held high! and another guess what....in a few years times, your parents are gonna be so proud of you and your dad is gonna utter......hey I knew you were gonna make it as an actress all along.. just had to be cautions:-) Carpe diam my friend.....seize the day
Ciao Alana