Virgo girl age 28. I want to date but scared?

Virgo girl age 28. I want to date but scared?

I'm a new member to this site but have visited quite often.

I'm sorry to not have been specific.

I had a 4yr relationship that ended because we were of different "culture/race" sort of. Ultimately, marriage was not going to happen so I was forced to let go. I thought our love could have conquered anything. I was wrong. That ended 2 yrs ago and last yr I was sort of swept off my feet by a cancer. I thought he was open for a relationship. I let my guards down and three months in...he wanted out for stupid reasons. Everything was perfect. I had the butterflies...that I only felt one other time...when I was 18. I never knew people just broke up without good reasons. Times spent with the cancer was wonderful. He would not want me to be in the kitchen alone...he was right there helping me (when we spent times together). He would kiss me for at least 30-40mins when we see each other and not want to leave our company...just say it was romantic/passionate.We did HIV/Std tests at the beginning of the relationship in the event we wanted to be intimate. About 3 weeks into the relationship we decided we were serious and seeing each other exclusively. We met on match.com. We removed our profiles etc and all was great. All of a sudden one night we had a little fuss. I saw him about twice per week and I was missing him like crazy after not seeing him maybe 5days? He lived 40mins away. I told him how I felt. This particular weekend I was supposed to go out with him and friends and I wanted it to just be us. He said he has to end the relationship. This was Aug. 2006. I was shocked. I did not sleep that night. It took me by surprise.He loves me but he's not in love. I told him that takes time and we could take it slower if he wanted. He said no he wanted out. Turned out his friends were in shock at his decision as I was.

This has left me confused about relationships. I feel it's time to date again but whenever I feel like I'm liking a guy...even from one conversation...(crazy) I feel naucious in my stomach or simply scared.

virgo79.......u better do a self-study before gettin into another relationship. go to www.astro.com and fill in your birth details. Try to readup the virgo relations in here too.
astro.com should help u understand why u r behaving in certain ways at certain times. This is very important for u. Probably something in your moon sign or ascendant is causing the guys to move away......perhaps. If u could put your finger on it then u control ur life more. so good luck. lookup where ur venus is and u n d e r s t a n d.

We r all eager for that elusive luv. Its kinda mirage. dont be too obvious. try to contain yourself. look for it without being too obvious. have more self respect. guard your heart well & u become an able & worthy guardian.

Soulness, it sounds like you think the problem more so lies with me? Wow. Thanks for your advice, except I don't know exactly what time of the day I was born (on my b'day...should that affect the accuracy of my moon/ascending sign.)