encumbrance

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Lobo
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I have long since felt a gnawing at my core being. I have been stricken and dressed with irrational and unwanted emotional responses. Fear and hesitation occupy and lay waste to my logic and confidence. I find myself bathed in a pool of fantasy turned nightmare. I thought myself above all others in mental strength, cunning and courage. But I am defeated.


Thus I was forced to see my true image, that of a coward and villain (spits). So blind by hubris pride that I was not prepared to battle a combatant on equal footing. I have been given a small flicker of redemption as I crawl and bump my head foolishly in the piercing dark that I myself have feed and created. I pondered for so long in the nothingness that were my thoughts, will I fall again? Should fate embrace me, shall it bestow a gentle kiss or blade into my heart?


I can't see my adversary.... I feel myself being distracted and unfocused. I want to give up. But something is gnawing at me. Something constantly pulls and pushes me into the flame that challenges a man's worth his metal. I'm am drawn even being laced with fear I hunger to sate my emotional sadomasochistic desires. I have since learned to use my affliction to strengthen my resolve.




I see plan formulating, and I master and embrace my social derangements with purpose now. My greatest weakness is now my unlimited strength.... I think I've best my foe, and now I'm truly ready to take foot on the battle field and "take" glory in clinched fist. If the kismet filled stars the cover the sky judge that I fall in battle... So be it as I will get back up and put one foot in front of the other. I'll not shirk this fight this time.