Rise

the pain wont stop,
and the days seem to be longer than usual
wishing time was non existant at this point
so i can fly free without any fear
so i can fly free and forget
but why forget when i can let it be
and let this flame within me burn brighter
grandmama why did you leave
why did you leave me alone
was i not good enough
was death just a past pushed aside
in hopes to run away
did these tears not touch your heart?
did my face, remind you of her?
money justifies freedom
money supports your greed
but money doesnt equal this heart
but money cannot replace my strength
and money cannot override this spirit.
it burns within me
pain can subdue it
emotions may be temporary
but always take a second look
you'll see a different me, each passing day
but remember this, i never needed you.
just wanted you to love me.
grandmama why did you leave
why did you leave me alone
was i not good enough
was death just a past pushed aside
in hopes to run away
did these dirty hands place something in your dirty heart
did these dirty hands make you run and stray with the money you tried to obtain.
but these dirty hands, are my dirty hands.
mommy was just a little girl
just a little girl
who had emotions, who had fears
slowly buried with these tears.
mommy was just a little girl
just a little girl,
daddy did all he could do
money didnt justify his freedom
money didnt support his heart
money didnt support his pain
there was no money.
it was just you and me,
and now its just me.
but i rise.