A msg. for Alana~

Hi Alana~

This is the only way that I am able to reach you. I have attempted many times to send an email your way and it will not send 😢 I will keep trying but gotta tell ya, I am one very baffled girl!

I did receive your msg. and I am so very sorry about what happened. Without going into much detail here...please know that my heart hurts for you and I most certainly would make the same decision that you have. Life just sucks sometimes doesn't it?

I have a friend, pal (M) that just said to me...."I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY TO YOU." while I was in the gym..."okay" I say and walk off to chat with some of my other buddies...go figure..and he says we are friends? We must have a different definition of the word "friend".

I'll close for now and wait to hear about your past Sunday...

Frustrated Feathered Freebird...darn wings seem so heavy I can't even lift them off the ground! Just great, now I'm grounded!

Hello my dear Freebird - hope all is well with you and you have somehow found wings to FLY again girlfriend. I also hope it wasn't your male aqua friend who said such hurtful words to you and am sooooooooooo angry that so MANY people seem to have just that - a different definition of what constitutes 'friendship". I for one have found it to be a constant battle I face. Is it just us Aires that this keeps happening to?

Also Freebird - please forgive my intrusion here - but after reading your msg to Alana - I was concerned and just want to make sure she's ok. Not sure what happened over her birthday weekend, and again NOT intruding, just sending warm wishes and ((((((hugs)))))) to you both!!!

Natasha
xoxo

Hi Natasha....I'm up and flying again! You know us Aries do NOT stay "grounded" for very long...maybe a day or so but then it's off again onto another adventure! You ask if it was my male aqua friend...actually, it was. He keeps my head spinning at times and I am sure I do the same for him. Never a dull moment with him.

When he gets hurt he says some pretty mean things..I will NEVER let him know that he hurts me like that (at least not in the moment that it is happening). And truly...I have learned to not take much of anything personally...he is coming from a place with his own issues reflecting them back on me. I just go on with my life and let him go.

He ended up emailing me and I did not respond as I was gone for the day so he then called me and we talked and talked and talked. What a piece of work he is (in a good way). We are very good friends and this is how I want it to be...such a freedom in this. I am such a free spirited person and so enjoy my freedom. What is so neat about our relationship is that if there is a problem we can talk and resolve it and then move on. Very simple. He does tell little stories but I seem to have a knack for catching him..I just laugh it off, why not?

I still have not heard from my buddy Alana and am becomming a little concerned. I will let her share her episode if she so wishes when she can...I hope to hear from her soon. Thanks Natasha for asking about me and Alana as well. So thoughtful you are. Warm wishes to you tooooooo...and, how is it going with your Mr. Aqua pal? BTW...where are you? I think I may have asked you this but for some silly reason I have forgotten..sorry. I do know that where you are is COLD..I remember that!

Warm hugs to you to my pal!

((((((((((xoxoxox))))))))))

Hello to you my feathered beautiful pal and so sorry - only getting time to talk now as I was off work yesterday...as for my email account - it got stuffed up and nothing was coming thru but I hope its ok now after I deleted all the dam spam-ham!!! And thanks for the concern too Natasha - thank you my pal.

So to get down to the nuts and bolts of my birthday weekend!!! It was probably the most strangest, surreal time of my life....here goes kids!!

As you know, Mr. Virgo and I weren't talking all week and I wouldn't answer the phone to him but I felt sure that he would call on Saturday to ask me out and to stay over....I longed to see and hear from him. During the day Mr. Aries (the 18 year old that I had a one-nite stand with and has alwasy kept in touch!!) phoned me and asked me over to his house for a meal and wine for my birthday....at first I declined and then I thought..little pet...why not!!So he collected me by car and over we went - I had a lovely two hours chatting with him - but by the end of the two hours he was getting a little frisky....more than a little frisky!!!(you know those fired-up arians!!)....so I told him I was meeting my pals in club and had to go (which was the truth) - so he walked me to a taxi - had a few kisses and hugs from him but nothing more!!:-)
Next stop - the club....met my three girlfriends there....went down to disco....have to say I felt on air that nite, very confident and alana-ish!!! Lots of good friends there - some lovers from the past etc. - all came over to say hi, kiss, hugs, drinks for birthday etc....got chatted up by a Mr. Aries, A Mr. Scorpio (my those piercing eyes!) and lastly by Mr. Sagitarius from FRance - we had a few kisses and exchanged nos. but I have no intention of following thru!! I watched him the whole nite playing the whole disco and dancing with every girl in the place...OH those sags:-)
Anyway Sunday comes....my birthday....my ex-husband brought me out for a lovely meal and we had a lovely time talking and chatting.....He's Mr. Taurus!!! He bought me a watch. Mr. Virgo is ringing all day but I won't answer (why should I - he couldn't be bothered ringing on the Saturday to ask me out!!).......the Mr. Aries that I was with for 3 weeks recently rings and asks can we meet that nite, just as friends...he has a special present for me...I huff and puff but as he keeps repeating just as frieds..so I say OK. That nite I trot to the pub and Mr. Aries gives me the most beautiful bunch of roses and most beautiful crystal ornament I have ever seen.....my phone is constantly ringing but I won't answer - it's Mr. Virgo....eventually I go to the toilet and answer it - He says to me...why haven't you answered your phone? I reply - Do you know what day it is today N? He says NO? I repeat the question...he eventually says - its Sunday!!!I say do you know the date N.? He says NO. I say, the date is Feb. 1st. - it's my birthday. He says - your birthday—?I say yes..my birthday!! and I hang up on him...(a year and a half together and he forgets!!!) - anyway I return to Mr. Aries and the phone keeps ringing - at least 30 times....eventaully I get a text from Mr. Virgo and it says..."Fcuk you and fcuk your birthday". Tears come to my eyes when I see that - my heart sinks. Phone keeps ringing - eventually he leaves a voicemail on it saying "prostitute music...brothel music...fcuk you cookiemonster" - -
Anyway, Mr. Aries takes me for a pizza and we go to his house. I know that he wants to get back together and he talks about his feelings, love etc. for me. I tell him that I cannot be more than a friend, that I don't want to be in a relationship with anyone at the moment....he starts to cry (god, everyone I say good bye to starts to cry - never knew I had that power!!!) - I hug and kiss him and hold him and tell him that it's over and he will forget me in a few weeks...to go out and find another girl who will make him truly happy...anywa

Hello my ladies Freebird & Alana - missed talking to you both! 🙂

Freebird - so glad to hear you are flying HIGH again girlfriend. Where am I? How quickly they forget - in cold, snowy, icy Canada.

And my aires pal....I couldn't agree with you more that us Aires are grounded, but never grounded for long. I actually surprise myself sometimes with it, in that somehow I always convince myself that after all that I have been through in my life - I can and HAVE survived many ups & downs. So true the statement 'what doesn't kill me makes me stronger'. Any stronger and dear Mr. Hulk Hogan will be 'green' with envy 😉

As for your Aqua friend and the hurtful things he says to you. I cannot say I have experienced that with Mr. Aqua, but give you credit for being strong and NOT take it personally and simply remove yourself from him when he's in that 'negative' place. A lesson I must learn too, perhaps with your help! In my case, Mr. Aqua has been a gentleman, easy to talk to, although he can be quiet (very quiet) at times and it can be hard to 'draw him out'.......such as what's happening now and been happening since well before Christmas. We talked about everything and anything and for HOURS at a time, just like you and your aqua friend. Ohhhh Freebird, how I so miss our talks, miss his friendship and can only hope he misses mine too - but am trying real hard (in Aires fashion) not to focus on it, to trust things will work out in its own time, but am BAFFLED by his in-action to contact me especially since my text msg to him 2 weeks ago - and his birthday is this coming Tuesday (Feb. 10th).

I ask you BOTH my ladies - do I text/call him ON his birthday even tho I have not heard from him??

My lady Alana...........you have no idea how sad & pissed I was to hear your birthday weekend turned out as it did. My heart hurts for you my friend and I send LOTS of ((((hugs)))) your way in hopes that today is better than yesterday for you, and each day gets better & better!! But my lady, do not feel stupid at your judgement of spending the time you did with Mr. Virgo. As you stated here on this board (different topic....ie. LUST, LOVE, ADDICTION).......you have shared MUCH with him. Do not ignore all the GOOD you have shared with him, how you have grown, learned, and loved. This anger will hopefully subside 'some' - but Mr. Virgo deserves what he has coming to him - and I agree owes you a HUGE apology!!! Give him a run for his money My Lady - as only YOU can and he'll be putty in your hands - assuming you want 'putty'! 😉

I continue to thank you both for allowing me into your worlds and for sharing your stories/journey's with me. (((hugs)) to you both.

PS - can I ask my ladies to cross their fingers/toes for me (PLEASE) that Mr. Aqua shows up at the club tomorrow nite! I feel like all HE has to do is show up - and Ms. Aires here will take care of the rest!!! 😉

Natasha
xoxo