Help with my Aquarius Man

I am a Cancer female with Cap moon. My fiancé is Aquarius male with Pisces moon. We have been together for 10 years. We were together for a year when I was 16, when I was 17 he went to prison for 5 years. He is 3 years older than me. Before he left, we had an amazing relationship. About 2 years into him being gone, I started having sex with other people. I broke up with him when he had been in there for 3 years for another man for a short period of time. I got pregnant and left the other man. He was heartbroken. He finally took me back. When he got out, he became an amazing father to my daughter. I got pregnant with his child when he got out of prison. The problem is, we have been through two big rough patches since he got out. The first time I found pictures and texts of another girl on his phone. The second time, he left and went to the strip club, spent a lot of money and didn't come home. He came home the following day and I told him to leave because he felt no need to explain himself. He came back two days later and we made up. I found an unopened pack of condoms in his truck. He finally admitted to me that the reason he has been so distant and doing hurtful things to me was because he wanted me to hurt the way I hurt him. He said he went to the strip club because he knew it would kill me. Since the second time, he has been very open and has been going to counseling with me. He has also been pressuring me to marry him since he got out of prison. I am torn between my heart and mind. I am afraid he doesn't really love me. He says he regrets everything and feels like a shitty person for getting revenge on me. I have done everything in my power to prove my love to him. I'm afraid I'm not good enough and that that he will hurt me again. he has been very caring and loving since he came back, but I'm scared to death. What do I do?

Thank you for the response!

I have been juggling marriage in my head for quite some time. I feel very confused that he has wanted to marry me this entire time yet has done the things that he has done. Every day is a battle between my heart and mind whether to stay or let go. It is torture.

I guess I am trying to see from other peoples perspective if he loves me. He always comes back to me. I know that is not common for Aquarius men to do when they do not love their significant other. It is very confusing. I am just lost right now. I think at this point, I still have the same feelings for him, but my heart is broken and I am trying to guard it. I don't want to be hurt anymore.

You left while he was in prison....thhe doubt should be on his end !!! You flakey little minx...

Agreed, it was a crappy thing to do. But in my defense, I have always been faithful while he was here. I have never been one to sleep with multiple people at the same time. And I certainly wouldn't be living with someone doing anything that would even come close to cheating. I have helped him get his life on track and put up with all of the bs that I chalked up to him doing because he was in prison. The last five years (two of which he was in prison) I have been completely faithful and been a good partner to him.

So, you are saying that even after all that I have done, he is the one who should be skeptical of me? I'm just trying to understand your logic so I can get different perspectives.

Also, since he has been home he has been wonderful, but I am apprehensive. He says that when I told him to leave the last time (and only time I have ever told him to leave) that he remembered what he has with me. He says that I am everything he wants and he just forgot because he was so clouded with the hurt he was experiencing.

Let me tell you here, I'm Aquarius n I truly loved my cancer girlfriend, the very cute n like Angel made only for me. I loved her but after some time I found that being aquarius I'm not emotionally campatible with her emos and relationship is running over wheels of emotional sharings and feelings...So I figered out thet though I want her, it would be better for her that let me go her or break up with me...just coz don't want to ruin her life. If you really want your Aquarius man being cancer you has to be very very patient and may your aquarius find something dominant over you...this is not problem of not having feelings for cancer but just matter of way of expression...all the best...I hope you both do well together and your Aquarius may be very luckiest one!

Why didn't you break up with her instead of trying to force her to break up with you? Just curious.

I am very patient with him. I just get confused because he does these things but still begs me to marry him. It doesn't make sense. I have told him that if he does anything else like that, I will leave in a heartbeat. I'm not a doormat. His actions sometimes contradict his words. You're right, we definitely express our love and feelings differently.