I still love him, but I'm not sure he has felt the same for a while

I dated an Aquarius for almost 4 years, although last year we took were broken up for 5 months. When we did get back together, things were great. He had moved in with me, and I promised myself i would never let him go. During some of this time, I got laid off from my job, and it took me about a month to find a new job. Luckily, I was fired at the end of the month, so I had money to pay my half of the rent. During the next month (jan) I was in search for a new job. We were clear he would pay the rent for February, and when the time came, he was only able to pay half of the rent and thought I would be paying the other half. Now, I felt really crappy not having a job, although I was trying my best. I did buy most of the food, toilet paper, and other things with what I had saved. We got into an argument, and my father said he would pay the difference. My boyfriend said he would do $ 400, and I was supposed to give all the money to my landlord the next day. The night before I was supposed to give my landlord all the money, I asked for my boyfriends share before I went to bed (he goes to work at 6 AM.) He only gave me $ 250 and said he would hopefully have the rest the next day.

Now, a few days before this, my landlord talked to me expressing he was annoyed he did not get the money on the first, I assured him my boyfriend would have the whole thing on saturday, and my landlord said he would be here monday morning to get it. Sunday was when my father had given us a money order with the rest of the money, adding up to the full rent with my boyfriends $ 400 that only ended up being $ 250. I was very mad. He was pretty drunk, as we had a party for the superbowl. He shoved me a few times, and packed his bag. I tried pushing him onto our couch to try to hold him and calm him down, although he had no reason to be mad. Things got ugly, with him damaging some of my property and my neighbor came upstairs to intervene. She said she'd call the cops if my boyfriend didnt leave, and I refused to let it happen because he was too drunk to drive and it was almost 1AM. She called the cops, and they arrested me. I got out on bail the next morning, and he had packed everything and left. This sucked, but I was happy he cleaned up some of the mess he had made, he made my bed (why?? im not sure) he made himself food and left me leftovers. I had tried contacting him a few times, only for him to block me. I emailed him once after he blocked me, just telling him I love him, I'm sorry it happened the way it did, I never wanted to let him go and I hope we can talk peacefully when emotions settle.

I'm not sure my question exactly, but would an Aquarius feel bad? is it possible he doesn't love me anymore? I felt he had been slipping away from my month of unemployment. I'm just very confused. I know I just "just get over him" but I at least want it peaceful, and I feel its cruel he just will not talk to me although I know he usually needs time with heavy emotions