I'm sure I should stop this...

I dated an aqua for about 4 months this time last year. We split, partly amiciable, but with a few bumps. We are friends now...

but

I have found it impossible to lose these feelings for him. I believed I loved him before we broke up, and I believe the same is still true. I have dated a few men since then, and never felt anything near what I do for him.

Unfortunately, one of those men was his friend. Not his best friend, but a good one. He said it was okay to a mutual friend of ours, but he and I never discussed it openly. The relationship didn't last long, just over 2 months.

I am fighting the urge to tell him how I feel, namely because I think my dating his friend will have turned off those feelings for me in return. Aquas...is this too long a shot? I know he had feelings for me about 6 months ago, but the same reasons limited us getting back together as what broke us apart...he wasn't living here. He is now...and I miss him in my life...

Then why torment yourself. Just ask him.