I am an aquariuas female whos been involved in a long distance arrangment (no relationship title placed ) for over a year. When we met I was unhappily involved with someone, and he was involved with someone as well. Our relationship has always seemed one sided, me answering all his questions wanting to know about my situation, but he is always so vague when it comes to his life and feelings, but there is such a strong connection because I feel we somewhat reflect eachother. So when I ended my relationship 3 months ago we started seeing each other more frequently and my feelings for him have become so intense that one night a few weeks ago I had a glass too many, and I finally opened up to him about my true feelings, and told him I could not continue our relationship like this, because it is breaking me inside and its not what I want. So he promised he would work on "us"...I did not tell him I wanted to be in a relationship so to speak i just wanted something beyond the superficial. Since then he has called more and texts me everyday, but I still want more. Am I being selfish? I like my space and respect the fact that he deserves his as well, but I don't feel anything is progressing beyind the physical, except, last week when we were intimate he told me he "really" loved me. Like we've never dropped the L bomb, and I just don't know if it was the heat of the moment or genyine... I am so confused, he doesn't put in half the effort as me, but he is quick to send me money anytime I need it, or send me money to come see him. When I tell myself I want to end it my intuition and heart tells me no. I am very capable of knowing what I should do if I am unhappy with our "relationship", I just don't know if I am over analyzing everything. My chart is full of water, which i think makes me more emotionally vulnerable. I have never been more confused with my feelings in over a decade!!!
