ok, just seens like i cant forget her.

today it was going already right, i bring the car to the shop and they say i can get like 1000 back, so i was happy... then during the day, i went to the store which where me and her used to work... nothing happen... trying to forget... so on, and leave the place, 30mins later i got a call. someone just stole something from the store. and the kid who stole was a friend of her... im like ummmm i dont wana get involve, but one of the kids was like if you dont let me go you wont be able to open the store, and trys to hit my mom, im like hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, should i give that kid a lesson but then i will get alot of problems later.( ok my mom let that kid go).. but anyways. why her friends, you know, it could be anyone that i dunno... then i dont have to be so confuse, and these kids are the type she likes i guess... lil gangsta wanabes.... who steal and likes to hit old ladies... if thats the type she likes then i just feel sorry for her.
i'm still thinking if i should call her about this, but its not her doing, so there is no point i guess. i dont know anymore, its stupid.

i will try. i will try. but i really dont wana lose

lose what? If you don't mind me asking...did you ever "have" her to begin with? You have not lost anything Candyman - you have yourself and that is what is most important.

Chin up Mr. - the BEST is yet to come 😉

ok my little stupid idea... i know she is alot younger than me, and i understand her feeling is unclear... little stupid me made alot of things happen, the reason i let her b'itch at me is that i want her to see our age gap isnt that important (im not using her to get something or anything) ... the reason im so nice to her and a non-give up will to love her is that i will make her understand this is lasting... after she changed her feeling to me in 2 weeks she bought a boy to work and tell me she's w/ him... i know shes young and she doesnt know what she wants, that why i show her that i still love her then she broke up w/ him in like a week. but okey she couldnt work anymore... so all i can do is write msg to her... so last week she was pmsing me when i call so i realize i cant do this forever, so i just dont talk to her, in like 2 days, she got her new boyfriend going. but whatever... this is my last try of giving her meaning of love. if she still dont wana accept it. then i will move on.
little funny thing happen i see her 2 days in a row and i just igorne her and she igorne me but i saw her eyes (it was a second of shock for both of is)... i normally never see her... i guess its god's little way saying that i shouldnt give up just yet.
im might be a fool, but thats what im doing when i love a person.

Why do you love her?

Do you love her because you can't have her? Try to think clearly and ask yourself that question.

How long were the both of you actually together?

Is there someone older than you that you can talk to openly? Not a buddy, an adult. You're father, mother, etc.

It's hard to believe, but you will look back on these days and laugh about this.

But in the mean time, you're driving yourself crazy.

Try not to go to places where you will see her until you settle yourself a little better. Right now you are very emotional. Most people cannot think clearly under such circumstances and they tend to see things that aren't there, good and bad. So try to distance yourself. In the begining it will be difficult, but just try.

Candyman you are obssessed and not in love. I can understand that as I am a Scorpio. We do get obessessed to the extent of madness and self-destruction. I had a Pisces guy whom I scared with my spooky fantasies. I could have toned down myself. But I was too obssessed about my passion for him and ignored how I was putting him off. For a while I thought how crazy he was running away from the greatest experience of his life- and that I am the only person who can offer him so much! One day in typically piscean fashion he just swam away. Took me a while to understand that it wasn't him but it was ME.