The possessive only grows more possessive.

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MzKrabz0
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Lately,
I've been using a journal to sort through my thoughts. I do not like asking for advice. Nor do I ask for help with anything. Honestly I'd rather struggle toward a breakthrough. I've been praying as well as seeing things for how they are instead of TRYING to make them APPEAR how they SHOULD be.

I've been listening to my gut as well as having some stability in all my decisions without second thought.

I guess I just want you all to be considerate, and show empathy towards my dilemma -- though to all of you, I am just another internet stranger.

Him; Sun[Aquarius] Moon[Sagittarius] Myself; Sun[Cancer] Moon[Aquarius]


Him - I've known Him for three years. We began dating October of 2012. Six months into our relationship my gut told me to run, but I stayed...stupidity. In staying He was very possessive, treated me as a possession. Controlling, manipulative, and He isolated me. Two years later July of 2014. I broke up with Him. He was hurt, and heartbroken.

It wasn't until October 2014 did we finally talk it out. I got an understanding of why he was so terrible. He explained things to me about; past people, relationships, horrific life events. He'd hidden, and was ashamed of all of these things he'd held onto.

I even went out with him later that month.

Now,
In four months I do not feel someone can TOTALLY change, but I do believe that a person can begin to, and he is showing great effort. We are not together, as of right now we have gotten really close, we are bonding, and building. I do feel that if he does, and has truly made a change then he is someone I see myself with for a long while.

I'm not sure what else to type, or If I have left anything, I'm afraid. I do love this man. If it just so happens when I am prepared,and ready. I have decided to say "Yes, this is a man I will share my life with." Which neither of us are ready for that at this time.. They say, "The possessive only grow more possessive. If another chance is offered it does not get better, It only grows worse."

Can people change, do you believe that. Am I an idiot?

Be Gentle.. Please..

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I do believe people can change if they want to change for THEMSELVES. They cannot truly change if someone expects or asks them to. They cannot properly change if they are doing it for someone else.

Repetition only happens if there is a strong belief in that repetition meaning as I said, he isn't going to change and continue to try and change and keep it up unless its important to him and him alone.
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MzKrabz0
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I really appreciate that insight. I questioned his reasoning for his change. I said, "What made you WANT to be a different person from whom you were? If this is for me, I need to walk away right now." His expression, as well as his tone spoke changed. He said, "I am NOT doing this for you, not my mom, no one else. This is for me. You can walk away again, but I am still going to be the best man that I know I can be. What you've seen in the past that is not me, the hell with that man I was once before.
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MzKrabz0
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@Iam
Yes ma'am. I am staying in my lane with myself to achieve, and acquire the things I need to mold myself into a beautiful intelligence person. I appreciate your realistic sense of this. I refuse to fall into being so naive any longer.

@Tiziani He does want my friendship. Yes. He is more about building something with me once more rather than
rushing into something again. He has spoken to me that he see's me as his wife, and would love for me to be that one day, but we must first build a relationship, a companionship if you will. We aren't expecting. We are simply in for the ride wherever it may go. I'm unsure what the future may bring, besides his mistakes in the past he is a wonderful hardworking man, with a lot of skill, and talent.


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As Tizani said
"Only the ones that make us see beyond ourselves tune into that survival instinct."
Change happens with mindfulness and love and people like you can be catalysts for change. There are traits such as shyness in people that CANT be changed. You will always be a shy person. You can hide it of course. Your eyes can correct for vision problems until they grow old and cant compensate...But possessiveness is not a trait it you are born with, nor can it get worse. If someone can really see what being possessive actually is then there is no reason why they need to stay that way. It will never benefit them. You must support him. Even if he slips a little. Because he probably will slip again. Just nudge him and he will remember.
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I have a feeling your gut instinct is that he really hasn't changed deep down. Why aren't you listening to your gut?


Wanting to change and actually changing are two different things. Someone may want to quit smoking, for example, but they still light up on an hourly basis.

I think someone CAN change, but it takes longer than six months to change something that drastic in their personality. And you need to ask yourself what steps has he taken to change? Has he sought therapy or some other professional guidance?