the real reason why im mad...

okey okey, man where i should start... anyways, the real reason why i was so mad is that the line she uses to the guy are 80% alike the one i give her... i mean cmon... and she put in the date where she called me the 1st time in a while... so she knows i will look at it. she came by like 2 days ago, but i was busy and my family was there, so i didnt wana act all up, then i went to get a coffee, and saw her w/ her friend walking, she saw me, and i saw her for a second... and her friend came to me asking me stuff... i didnt even bother to talk to her, since shes acting like all cool and shit... so anyways... i got into a accident this mornign right... i just couldnt help it to think about her... so today i wrote a message on my board:

man, a trunk hit my car today, its like a dreaming coming true. unreal, kinda like my life. 1st thing came to me ~~ was you. but whatevers. i though it was going to be painful. but i couldnt feel it, only thing i felt was the cold, its bitter cold. and so cold that my heart cant feel anymore.
message of the day: i just wish your happy.

so that's what i wrote, i dunno why i wrote that, but i feel like thats how i felt at that moment...
0n3 L0b

I know how you feel candyman but you have to understand that even if you're heart-broken she doesn't feel the same way as you and therefore will pull even farther away if you keep sending her those messages.

okey, i told out the post, i feel like i done too much for nothing again... but this mornign i feel like shitty thats why i posted. but i udnno if she see it. i guess it doesnt matter. but i told it out anyways.

Your soul hurts because of her and the only thing you wish was that it was HER to console you. You so desperately want to near that which is the cause of your pain... her. She's the only person in the world who can relieve the sadness and you SEEK compassion, you seek understanding... you feel like she has to know how you are feeling... somewhere in your mind you want her to feel guilty.

But I'm sorry to tell you that that won't happen, if anything you're pushing her away. She may not be evil... a bitch, you are pressuring her. You can't force someone to like you.

Sometimes we get lost in our emotions and do things like what you're doing but you have to regain some sense here... letting emotions control you never does anyone any good... EVER. I've been there, not for the same reason but emotional yet I understand that they aren't feeling the same way and acting on my emotions will only hurt my dignity. YOU HAVE TO LET IT GO. The world doesn't end and honestly you have a better shot at getting her back if you simply DON'T CARE.

It's hard but you can't dwell on it. Stop messaging her... you'll understand after it's over.