Wedding plans getting me down...

since my engagement, i havent really thought about my own wedding. we have not set a date. i have not looked at a dress. but today i was trying to think about it, especially since my aqua bff is marrying her cap this saturday. but i cant do it. i start getting really sad. because my father (scorpio) died, then his brother, my uncle(libra) died, 4 years later. these were the paternal figures closest to me. my dad had 7 brothers, there are 4 still alive, but i am not close to them.

so there is the walking me down the isle and giving me away, then the father daughter dance. 😢 😢

im really bummed out over this. yes i will admit i broke out the pics of me and my dad and i started crying. this is suppose to be a joyous time. but i'm not enjoying it at all.

i feel really guilty because libra doesnt know i feel like this. i dont want to get him down about the wedding. its suppose to be the greatest day for us. but i am in a major funk.

maybe im just having a pity party...idk.

dont need grief counseling. sad my father cant be at my wedding is all. being on the boards has nothing to do with it. unlike some, i am very connected to my fiance, he knows something is wrong. and of course he knows this will be hard for me. as for my health and happiness, one day of crying is not going to ruin my whole life that i have to shut it down.

how is your relationship and connecting to your husband?

would you stop exaggerating. i was not spending so much time on your post. omgoodness. *rolling eyes*

thanks for the tip. yes i do have a life with my own junk going on. i made an appointment to try on dresses and my mom is coming so, happy times.

Posted by chemengin
since my engagement, i havent really thought about my own wedding. we have not set a date. i have not looked at a dress. but today i was trying to think about it, especially since my aqua bff is marrying her cap this saturday. but i cant do it. i start getting really sad. because my father (scorpio) died, then his brother, my uncle(libra) died, 4 years later. these were the paternal figures closest to me. my dad had 7 brothers, there are 4 still alive, but i am not close to them.

so there is the walking me down the isle and giving me away, then the father daughter dance. 😢 😢

im really bummed out over this. yes i will admit i broke out the pics of me and my dad and i started crying. this is suppose to be a joyous time. but i'm not enjoying it at all.

i feel really guilty because libra doesnt know i feel like this. i dont want to get him down about the wedding. its suppose to be the greatest day for us. but i am in a major funk.

maybe im just having a pity party...idk.

I'm so sorry that you are going through this...if I could make a suggestion; I would strongly recommend that you share with your fianc? your feelings. Sometimes emotions can cloud our creativity and perhaps if you put your heads together on this one a clear picture on how to move forward will emerge.

I'm wishing the best for you on your special day!

thanks nina. i'm going to talk to him about this tonight. he already gave me his guest list 🙂 and a picture of his tux. so i know he will make this easier for me.

thanks AquaJ I'm working on it.

I'm so sorry you're going through this Chem. If my father had passed, I would be having very similar feelings. Your wedding is supposed to be one of the most important days in your life- and to have one of the most important people in your life be missing must be incredibly difficult.

Crazy weird idea- I know it's unconventional- but what about your Libra walking you down the isle rather than standing at the alter? He is already the most important man in your life 🙂

Sorry i didnt see this, chem. These things happen because at a wedding u always see both parents present to wish their little girl away, but life is not always like that. Why dont u ask your brother to wish u away or go for something less traditional? The two of u meeting at the centre without the any 'bouncers'. Both my parents werent at the wedding, but to me they were- try looking at it that way and u'll be fine. Im sure your daddy would want his little princess to be happy, do it for him. Be happy and enjoy your day.

thanks ladies...you guys are the best. 🙂 great ideas too.