crimson_tide
@crimson_tide
20 Years
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I dreamed I went to work, and Mr. Cancer, this guy i've been sort of involved with was there. Before I went to sleep, I could remember just gushing about how I really loved him. But boy, this dream changed everything.
So anyway I was at work, and he kept making wisecracks at me, which I just ignored. But then all of a sudden we were on this bus going on some trip. Everyone I must have known in my entire life was on that bus. My sisters, my cousins, my friends, all of my crushes, all the people I hated...they were there.
So anyway, this movie comes on and everyone's watching the movie, then Mr. Cancer pops up and starts putting me all out there. He starts making jokes about my love life--how I can't keep a man seeing as that the guy I was currently with at the time just dumped me. That was sooo cold. Then he goes on and just starts dissing me in front of everyone, telling them how I'm not that cute at all...I'm just plain ugly. He starts telling everyone that I'm such a loser and stuff. I wasn't bothered about it at first, but then I just became really hurt. I pulled out my diary and began writing about how I thought I really liked him and how I couldn't believe that he would do this to me.
And then Mr. Cancer goes to the back of the bus where I'm at to check on me, and my sister tells him that I was crying. And then he tries to be my friend all over again--but it's too late.
Then we made a stop at this restaurant to get something to eat. This old lady who reminded me of my 8th grade english teacher who loved to torture me as well, just dissed me in front of everyone!
But then I'm with one of my friends and for the first time that whole day, since that trip, I actually feel good. But then she turns into my ex Cancer friend, the one I haven't talked to in a while. Things were awkward at first but I began to feel comforted. We laughed and talked again like old times. Like we were old friends again. And it felt good. But then she starts throwing up all over the place,and I began to have convulsions or a nervous breakdown or whatever. Then my dad who was there and my mom, pulls us to the back where the bathroom was. I just start crying and crying and he's like don't worry about it. You're coming home with us. Then my mom was there and she was just laughing, bringing up all the old stuff that people were saying about me when I was on the bus earlier. Then I just start crying and crying and then I wake up just crying and crying.
That dream seemed so real. It just felt so awful. Not that I won't ever talk to Mr. Cancer again, I just won't ever feel the same way I felt about him before. It was terrible. And when I think about it, some of my self esteem issues do stem from my Mother(an aries). She's always picking out something about me and I just take heed to whatever she says--'cause she's my mother. And my dad as always was there to protect me, and I realized that no matter what happens to me, he'll always be there for my well being. I ain't gotta like him, but I don't hate him.
that must have the worst dream of my entire life.