Feeling a bit Emotional

Starting a new job has caused me to be more tired these few weeks. We handle home insurance claims for multiple mortgage companies so I am bringing home three 3" binders filled with rules, regulations, and procedures. So my brain has been tired..lol thus I haven't been feeling like spending some nights with my Cappy guy. So he is on some other bull.... Purposely ignored me and is dry because Thursday night I told him i was going to get myself together then come over, but I fell asleep while rubbing my cat and when he noticed that it was taking too long he tried to call and did not receive an answer..lol I told him that I was tired but he didn't want to hear that he said he wanted me there with him, so I said ok. I apologized but he has been acting funny all weekend.. So I was like whatever!

So I wanted to hang out. I don't have many friends. The friends that I do have we only go shopping and out to eat..lol they dont do casinos, ??clubs, or bars. My best friends who would party with me live out of state. So I pretty much rely on my cousins when I want to party, however, I have noticed them posting on FB about going here and going there without including me 😢

Last month we celebrated a cousins birthday and I was attracting a lot of younger men. They were making comments like Stella got her groove back, but then after that they would go out each weekend and not include me. Yesterday at a younger cousins baby shower I asked what was up with them going out and not inviting me along, excuses like "we thought you would be with your guy". ??That is bull.... Whatever, because like I did before, I went out with them and went to his place afterwards..lol??

And another kick in the face as we were leaving the shower I asked what were their plans for the evening and they said well we went out yesterday, so I was like ok. However, later in the evening one of my cousins post that they were at that cinema about to watch Tyler Perry's new movie. Wow that really hurt and the worst part about this is that my best cousin who I went to High School with is doing this to me too 😢

Awwww, times like this should remind us that we are all we got in the end. Talk to your cousins one on one and get to the nectar of this situation because clearly there is more going than they are letting on. If they can't keep it a 100 then eff em you don't need anyone around you thats going to be fake anyway. And your bf is being an ass and making it all about him, if you dont have the mental capacity to deal with him at the moment because you and your brain is tired then he should understand and want to make things easier for you. I say screw em all.

Awww??_.big hugs Aries. People just suck sometimes. Maybe send them a little shout-out that you're feeling left out??_ what the HELL is going on and that you want to party tooo? I wouldn't dive too deep with the cousin thing. They probably just think you're busy.

My experience with people is that they get iffy if they feel threatened by you or are jealous. People sometimes don't like to be around us because we're too awesome and make them feel shit about themselves. Especially if we attract more attention than them or have better jobs/lives than them.

Oh, get off it, lotus. Not everyone is jealous of you if they are "iffy". You probably project those feelings onto others which can make you not fun to be around. Fire signs can come off as being cocky.

As for the OP... You sound like you're too dependent on your family/friends for your happiness. Maybe because you're in a new area you feel a little insecure so you could be acting clingy and too woe-is-me. If all you're doing is whining and complaining then that's no fun for others. Get yourself out there doing the things you love, that involve other people, and friends will follow suit.

Thank you all, but miss ninja... girl bye! First of all I am an only child so being alone is something I value so I do not need people to be around me 24-7 it bothers me. And just because I am a human that has emotions does not mean that I am clingy! I had a moment in which it hurt for family to leave me out because like the others noted, there is some jealousy going on. Even though my family and i are or have went through tribulations in our lives I choose to keep it moving and be happy, so my aura is different from theirs and I am ok with it now, it is what it is. I will attract like people in my life. I have friends but they are married so they cannot hang out like I want too. This single life is a bit new to me.