Finally read my natal chart with proper time. I want to die.

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Yeah. Taurus ascendant and the amount of mental health bs as well as death-related crap makes me think that I would be better off killing myself.

I'm feeling pretty awful b/c apparently I'm a shell of a human being who isn't doing anything and is so awfully flawed, that it can't be repaired. brb jumping off a cliff. I'm clearly not supposed to live a decent life and since I'm a detached piece of shit, I'll be better off dead 🙂

And yes, I'm suffering from paranoia c:
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Posted by TheGreatSearcher
Yeah. Taurus ascendant and the amount of mental health bs as well as death-related crap makes me think that I would be better off killing myself.

I'm feeling pretty awful b/c apparently I'm a shell of a human being who isn't doing anything and is so awfully flawed, that it can't be repaired. brb jumping off a cliff. I'm clearly not supposed to live a decent life and since I'm a detached piece of shit, I'll be better off dead 🙂

And yes, I'm suffering from paranoia c:
Its not your Taurus Ascendant. 🙂
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Yeah. Taurus ascendant and the amount of mental health bs as well as death-related crap makes me think that I would be better off killing myself.

I'm feeling pretty awful b/c apparently I'm a shell of a human being who isn't doing anything and is so awfully flawed, that it can't be repaired. brb jumping off a cliff. I'm clearly not supposed to live a decent life and since I'm a detached piece of shit, I'll be better off dead 🙂

And yes, I'm suffering from paranoia c:
Its not your Taurus Ascendant. 🙂
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Would like to know what is it then...
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Yeah. Taurus ascendant and the amount of mental health bs as well as death-related crap makes me think that I would be better off killing myself.

I'm feeling pretty awful b/c apparently I'm a shell of a human being who isn't doing anything and is so awfully flawed, that it can't be repaired. brb jumping off a cliff. I'm clearly not supposed to live a decent life and since I'm a detached piece of shit, I'll be better off dead 🙂

And yes, I'm suffering from paranoia c:
Its not your Taurus Ascendant. 🙂
It's his Pisces Moon! Oh wait..

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Ha!

Yeah that would actually make more sense.

😛

But he's got an Aries moon... soo more likely

he's bored out of his skull than despairing of

life.



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Yeah. Taurus ascendant and the amount of mental health bs as well as death-related crap makes me think that I would be better off killing myself.

I'm feeling pretty awful b/c apparently I'm a shell of a human being who isn't doing anything and is so awfully flawed, that it can't be repaired. brb jumping off a cliff. I'm clearly not supposed to live a decent life and since I'm a detached piece of shit, I'll be better off dead 🙂

And yes, I'm suffering from paranoia c:


Is your moon in the 12th House?
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Yeah. Taurus ascendant and the amount of mental health bs as well as death-related crap makes me think that I would be better off killing myself.

I'm feeling pretty awful b/c apparently I'm a shell of a human being who isn't doing anything and is so awfully flawed, that it can't be repaired. brb jumping off a cliff. I'm clearly not supposed to live a decent life and since I'm a detached piece of shit, I'll be better off dead 🙂

And yes, I'm suffering from paranoia c:


Is your moon in the 12th House?

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Yes
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Yeah. Taurus ascendant and the amount of mental health bs as well as death-related crap makes me think that I would be better off killing myself.

I'm feeling pretty awful b/c apparently I'm a shell of a human being who isn't doing anything and is so awfully flawed, that it can't be repaired. brb jumping off a cliff. I'm clearly not supposed to live a decent life and since I'm a detached piece of shit, I'll be better off dead 🙂

And yes, I'm suffering from paranoia c:
Its not your Taurus Ascendant. 🙂
It's his Pisces Moon! Oh wait..




Ha!

Yeah that would actually make more sense.

😛

But he's got an Aries moon... soo more likely

he's bored out of his skull than despairing of

life.





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I know many pisces moon and they don't think like this. 😕



I think it's just him feeling less of a man, in his young age. he sees that he should be more ambitious but ambitiousness is not in his blood. lots of guys young, have difficulties in this day and age.
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especially if you are not an ambitious young man. A lot of people put a lot of "Pressure" on young men these days.



edit - I know a lot of young men in the FAMILY and relations of other family members who are not of any of his placements

and they are BURDENED with the PUSH to be AMBITIOUS!

but they don't have it in them. so they feel like shit.

they are more creative and more nurturing young men too. so maybe in the realm of working in the hospital or something for you?

because young men need to have a direction in life.
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you know I think that maybe my brother in law who has pisces moon may have this, too.

but he would never dare tell anyone. Water is secretive with feelings.

so encouragement is very important.

his family and loved ones encourage him a lot.

and that's a good thing.

OP, maybe your family doesn't encourage you and make you feel good, that you doing the best you can do, and whatever you are happy in, is fine. even if it's just working as a clerk job, or a hospital orderly or helping old people.

what is your occupation and goals in life, OP? do you have any?
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Yeah. Taurus ascendant and the amount of mental health bs as well as death-related crap makes me think that I would be better off killing myself.

I'm feeling pretty awful b/c apparently I'm a shell of a human being who isn't doing anything and is so awfully flawed, that it can't be repaired. brb jumping off a cliff. I'm clearly not supposed to live a decent life and since I'm a detached piece of shit, I'll be better off dead 🙂

And yes, I'm suffering from paranoia c:
All this because of a Taurus ascendant...? Calm down, cutie!
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Ambition for me is contradictory by my emotional sun.


are there cancer sun men who are billionaires?

I bet there are.

or milionaires?

i'd have to research. lol

they make the most $ $ $ financially when they are (just generally) doing something creative. music, dance, art, invention even.


I could definitely see me doing that actually.

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I had this thought about Japan culture...

and my family was telling me about how a lot of young men commit suicide because their parents are sooooo hard on them to be ambitious. And maybe if they knew astrology they would find out how SENSITIVE these men are and cannot be cut throat and are too sweet and kind and feel horrible.

and then they commit suicide. because they cannot do it, they fail a lot and that they get a lot of abuse from their families. I read a study on it.
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http://www.bbc.com/news/world-33362387

Last year in Japan, more than 25,000 people took their own lives.

That's 70 every day. The vast majority were men.

Those figures do not make Japan's the highest suicide rate in the world in a developed nation.

That dubious title belongs to South Korea. But it is still far, far higher than virtually all other wealthy countries.

It is three times the suicide rate in the United Kingdom.

The fastest growing suicide demographic is young men. It is now the single biggest killer of men in Japan aged 20-44.



And the evidence suggests these young people are killing themselves because they have lost hope and are incapable of seeking help.

The numbers first began to rise after the Asian financial crisis in 1998. They climbed again after the 2008 worldwide financial crisis.

Experts think those rises are directly linked to the increase in "precarious employment", the practice of employing young people on short-term contracts.

Japan was once known as the land of lifetime employment. "

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Yeah. Taurus ascendant and the amount of mental health bs as well as death-related crap makes me think that I would be better off killing myself.

I'm feeling pretty awful b/c apparently I'm a shell of a human being who isn't doing anything and is so awfully flawed, that it can't be repaired. brb jumping off a cliff. I'm clearly not supposed to live a decent life and since I'm a detached piece of shit, I'll be better off dead 🙂

And yes, I'm suffering from paranoia c:
Its not your Taurus Ascendant. 🙂
It's his Pisces Moon! Oh wait..




Ha!

Yeah that would actually make more sense.

😛

But he's got an Aries moon... soo more likely

he's bored out of his skull than despairing of

life.







I know many pisces moon and they don't think like this. 😕



I think it's just him feeling less of a man, in his young age. he sees that he should be more ambitious but ambitiousness is not in his blood. lots of guys young, have difficulties in this day and age.

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I *am* a Pisces moon and I can easily see the

futility of it all-- but that's a given and it's not

the end of the story.

That's just where it begins to get interesting.







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Yeah. Taurus ascendant and the amount of mental health bs as well as death-related crap makes me think that I would be better off killing myself.

I'm feeling pretty awful b/c apparently I'm a shell of a human being who isn't doing anything and is so awfully flawed, that it can't be repaired. brb jumping off a cliff. I'm clearly not supposed to live a decent life and since I'm a detached piece of shit, I'll be better off dead 🙂

And yes, I'm suffering from paranoia c:
Its not your Taurus Ascendant. 🙂
It's his Pisces Moon! Oh wait..




Ha!

Yeah that would actually make more sense.

😛

But he's got an Aries moon... soo more likely

he's bored out of his skull than despairing of

life.







I know many pisces moon and they don't think like this. 😕



I think it's just him feeling less of a man, in his young age. he sees that he should be more ambitious but ambitiousness is not in his blood. lots of guys young, have difficulties in this day and age.




I *am* a Pisces moon and I can easily see the

futility of it all-- but that's a given and it's not

the end of the story.

That's just where it begins to get interesting.



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I don't feel that way and neither does my mother in law.

it's probably because you don't see any PURPOSE in your life, something to LIVE for.

everyone has this. you gotta find a purpose.

maybe have children, someone to love. adopt some animals, give them a purpose and love and give them lots of love. Pisces loves children and animals. my mother in law doesn't have any cats or animals, but she keeps her life fulfilled with her friends and traveling. she don't need a man though.

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I *am* a Pisces moon and I can easily see the

futility of it all-- but that's a given and it's not

the end of the story.

That's just where it begins to get interesting.




I don't feel that way and neither does my mother in law.

it's probably because you don't see any PURPOSE in your life, something to LIVE for.

everyone has this. you gotta find a purpose.

maybe have children, someone to love. adopt some animals, give them a purpose and love and give them lots of love. Pisces loves children and animals. my mother in law doesn't have any cats or animals, but she keeps her life fulfilled with her friends and traveling. she don't need a man though.

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Oh quack, lisabeth... I'm speaking in the ecclesiastical sense.

Far be it from me to criticize your spiritual pursuits but there is more to life

than just the daily grind-- like I said... getting to the end of yourself is only

the beginning, and THAT is where it really begins to get interesting.



But thank you for confirming (finally) that you are also a Pisces moon...

fourth house-- sixth house?











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Yeah. Taurus ascendant and the amount of mental health bs as well as death-related crap makes me think that I would be better off killing myself.

I'm feeling pretty awful b/c apparently I'm a shell of a human being who isn't doing anything and is so awfully flawed, that it can't be repaired. brb jumping off a cliff. I'm clearly not supposed to live a decent life and since I'm a detached piece of shit, I'll be better off dead 🙂

And yes, I'm suffering from paranoia c:
?

What does the rest of your chart look

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Sun - Aquarius 10°32'

Ascendant - Taurus 6°02'

Moon - Aries 14°19'

II - Gemini 8°28'

Mercury - Aquarius 28°46'

III - Gemini 25°59'

Venus - Pisces 26°57'

IV - Cancer 11°02'

Mars - Scorpio 21°40'

V - Cancer 28°24'

Jupiter - Gemini 1°14'

VI - Leo 26°28'

Saturn - Taurus 24°05'

VII - Scorpio 6°02'

Uranus - Aquarius 20°15'

VIII - Sagittarius 8°28'

Neptune - Aquarius 6°27'

IX - Sagittarius 25°59'

Pluto - Sagittarius 14°37'

Midheaven - Capricorn 11°02'

Lilith - Aquarius 7°20'

XI - Capricorn 28°24'

Asc node - Cancer 15°19'
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you know I think that maybe my brother in law who has pisces moon may have this, too.

but he would never dare tell anyone. Water is secretive with feelings.

so encouragement is very important.

his family and loved ones encourage him a lot.

and that's a good thing.

OP, maybe your family doesn't encourage you and make you feel good, that you doing the best you can do, and whatever you are happy in, is fine. even if it's just working as a clerk job, or a hospital orderly or helping old people.

what is your occupation and goals in life, OP? do you have any?
Studying as of late, might go for the position of a lawyer, not too sure yet. I do have an artistic hobby, but I get burnt out very quickly if I'm not making progress.