You gems are sooo sweet. but sour.

i think of you guys like sour patches. One minute sour then sweet.

my boyfriend is irritating me.

We've been both so career focused that we haven't been spending much time together. I say i miss him and would like to see him soon yet he brushes it off like "oh we have plenty of other times to see each other."I felt that its turned into a old married couple who don't enjoy the time with each other. So after 1 week of this shit. I adapted just start to take him off my priority list. Going out with friends and more "me" time. I literally haven't been as enthusiastic in responding in a timely manner. I just see it as a new stage of this "thing" we have. So i guess i've been more distant than usual with him

so he randomly texts me"hey baby, how is your night going? I can't wait to see you again 😛. thanks for being so patient and understanding as i try to get a job"

its a fucking loaded text. If i say you welcome it only encourages him to not balance and neglect me. If i don't im not be a good person and acknowledging the fact people have other obligations. which makes me seem needy and posessive (nothing but that)

What irritates me is that he is all social protocol...if you can't wait to see me then why not just chill together? so what your working? i got my portfolio and shit to do as well!

But really how hard is it to just see each other. be "around" each other. that contradicts his "i can't wait to see you again"

he doesnt feel this way but rather just to only do one thing: a reminder that we're still together. pathetic.

half assing it. i could care less. as if from the crack of dawn to mid night you gonna be searching for jobs and get responses.And if he is afraid i'll be bored or whatever...then he is wrong. we already had that conversation about that. II just love spending time with him even if we're doing our own thing. I also enjoy our own space.

I feel he is not speaking OF the REAL issue here. GOd why cant he just be real? he is only going around in circles and around the issue.I hate pretending like we're something when i seriously think we're nothing at all. game fucking over. how does he not get it? its not what he says or does. ITS WHAT HE "ISN'T" SAYING AND "ISN'T" DOING that is the answer. yet he doesn't just fucking say it.

come and go as you please. he doesn't get it. out of sight is out of mind. i guess it is what it is.

i love you gems and hate you all at the same time. jesus christ.

so why aren't you holding yourself accountable? it's a 2-way street and you should say something too if you feel this way.

that is true...good point there. i guess because i've already asked him to hang or chill. yet he doesn't respond to it directly rather saying he has so much work to do blah blah blah. so i figure its his way of saying i need to work. but now it is getting ridiculous.

i broke up wit him...its not right for me to resent him and become bitter while he needs to focus. i'm just lonely in that sense. but i know life will move on!

it hurts..he was crying...i feel horrible but gems get over things fast. i know he'll be okay.

LOL did you just compare yourself to ted bundy— HAHAHAHA

on a side note:

i cannot handle the conflicts i have or being in a relationship like the one i had. too much emotions running through me.your right..i cannot handle that trauma. im that sorta of person..i suppose. "all or nothing.." YES!!!

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Posted by woundedbird

Im kind of like Ted Bundy but wouldnt ever go there. I would destroy myself. I guess he eventually did that too. I wouldnt harm another though. He gave interview and he said that when he was in college
he fell head over heels in love. The girl dumped him. He spent years plotting on how to get her back, when
he finally did get her back ...he killed her. Thats anger! I could totally relate. HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME!
I LOVED YOU TOTALLY AND WAS VUNERABLE AND YOU DID THIS?!
I AM ALOT LIKE THAT! I CAN WAIT YEARS AND YEARS AND GET EVEN!

ha what? you are highly entertaining but i dont think you're trying to be

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Exactly. She doesn't have a clue that she's the butt of her own joke. Ha Ha Ha! Nice!

Good catch Wiz.

sighs 🙂 always develops into a new topic. and this is why gems are awesome for a good portion of the times.