Oh, kittens. Still needing to learn to cope.

My littlest tree frog died in my hands this morning. 😢 Tomorrow was his veterinary appointment. I'm so upset and just - I dunno.. the thought of a creature so helpless and dependent on me for everything just going through those last horrific moments. Oh my gosh.

I've been sterilizing everything all day for the other two tree frogs. I'm praying they haven't been exposed, although they're much hardier than the littlest one.

I sometimes feel so fragile and weak in moments such as this. Maybe because it's a reminder of mortality and that we have no control in the end.

Is this something that gets easier with age and 'exposure', or do I become stronger with this?

Honestly I've always been comfortable with death. I'm actually quite comfortable in the hospice setting. But once I'm responsible for any piece of the creature and it's survival - I'm crumbled.

I'm sorry to hear about your frog. : ( That's so sad.
IMO, I think that if you truly care for something, once it dies, your heart is going to break again. As long as you were a great owner, though, you just have to think 'I gave it the best life I could and cared about it'.

I'm so sorry 😢 *hugs*

He must have been very cute and sweet. How old was he?

"Is this something that gets easier with age and 'exposure', or do I become stronger with this?"

Losing a pet is a tough blow. It's never easy, no matter how it happens and how prepared or unprepared we are. With time and healing, you will find yourself remembering all the happy times you had together.