I just cant believe it , I am in shock!

What on earth can I be talking about? My ex-cancer thats what. After all the stuff about him seeing someone else not being the truth, I find out it has been true all along.

Its been going on since a little before christmas and she is still married none the less. Wow what a skunk he is to be just using me for someplace to stay until they can be together.

His mom broke down and told me all about her as he had told her all about it. He bought me a valentines gift and said he cared alot about me, but I did not buy into that for one minute.

We had not had sex since new years eve, and it makes me sick to think he was with her and me for awhile like that. He called her right from the house the last time he was here. I kicked him out the day that I found out about everything. His mom also said he has a little boy about 1 1/2 years old. This happened during the time we were suposed to be dating each other and no one else. He had told me that he could not have childrem due to an accident from his childhood. Well that was the first lie of many I have learned. She aslo said he could not come stay with her until he finds a place to go because he steals money from her all the time. There were three times in the last year that I have been missing money and he tried to blame it on my sons friends.

She said he has always gone from one person to another and used them until they figure him out and make him leave. He will never grow up or change she said. I was just floored as I could hardly believe what I was hearing. She is such a sweet person and I know she did not lie to me about anything she told me.

He was driving my new car without a license as I did not know he did not have one. I could have lost the car I just bought because it was non opt. with DMV and he put plates from another car on it so he could drive it. If he had gotten stopped they would have inpounded the car. He got stopped in my other car before the transmission went in it and is suposed to go to court on the third of this month. I could have lost the car for good because of him. I did not know he was driving it behind my back.

This man is very good at making a person feel like he is trustworthy and stuff. I had no idea he was like he is at all, and I am in shock. I know I am better off without him without a doubt but I am so hurt in so many ways.

I dont think I will be able to trust anyone again after what he has done. I just dont know if I can as I feel so betrayed.

I still have to pack his stuff as I dont want him in my house, and it would be to painful to see him right now. But he has been gone since saturday morning. Sorry for unloading all of this on you guys, but man this was a real curve ball I was thrown. I cant even cry about it I am so angry and in shock. It has not had time to sink in all the way yet I guess. Man this has not been my year (the end of last year and this new one either). God in heaven what did I do to deserve this kind of stuff happening to me. I try to be a good person, and have a very loving and giving heart. Maybe that is why...because people like him need to find suckers like me or they cant pull off their deceptions and games.

I feel so used unlike anything I have ever felt before, I only hope I can get past all of it and trust or even love again someday...but I just dont know. what a terrible dissapointment he has turned out to be. And I waited for two years trying to regain his love only to find out that he never did fall in love with me again this time. He was just out to get even she had said and that is pretty awful to think about. I did not mean anything to him, just something to wipe his feet on I guess. Thats what makes me so darn mad because I know I am worth so much more than that.

I just cant talk about it anymore as it is making me sick to my stomack, it truly is.

So I will go for now, God my life h

Opps! I meant my life has to get better from here not her. sorry!

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I know you are right about what you are saying here. I just try to keep remembering that "you cant loose something you never had" isnt that right?

He was never mine to loose I guess this time around, because I never truly had him. What I mean is I was never in his heart as it was not real for him. I try to remember this because it seems so useless to let myself hurt over someone that is not giving me a second thought. Do you know what I mean? It gives me some comfort anyway.

TW2

That man just sounds sick. Not normal.
It's good you got away from him sooner than later. Sometimes the worst things can be blessings in disguise.

Meditate, do something that connects you to your greater being.

Good luck...

Thanks kafka for your concern for me. And I think I may agree with your opinion of my ex-cancer.

But just so everyone knows, I am doing just fine without him. I have new friends and have connected with some old ones.

And man there are men comming out of the woodwork to ask me out. Its kind of nice for a change. It sure is helping me to not feel like I was feeling. You know like I was not worth a second glance to anyone anymore. I have found out that is not the case, so as they say it's his loss not mine.

Anyway thanks so much again, but I am flying high lately and so much happier.

TW2