AFTER

Honestly, I want to die.

Living is cool, don't get me wrong, but when the end comes it had better just be nothingness after, 'cause living is hard work.

None of that forever and ever enjoyment in heaven/suffering in hell/ghosting about in limbo/reincarnating as a kitchen sponge crap.

Seriously, sleep is the best part of my day. Some enthuse that that's a sign of depression but the fuck do they know about the constant tick-tick-tick-tick-tick of a mind that burrows straight past the bottom of things, through hell and beyond? The fuck do they know about the erratic rise and fall of body temperature as you're hit with every emotion available to man every minute of every day?

This life isn't easy, especially when you open your eyes and LOOK. Rights can be wrong, wrongs can be right, sometimes everything is wrong, most times nothing is right and then you have to deal with six or so billion other people's opposing feelings and values in addition to .

I want rest. Never been suicidal, don't hope things ever come to that but after life ends I want .

Just as you see the above sentence. A line of words abruptly ended with nothing showing up after the fullstop.

That's what I want after I die.

perhaps you have been part of the everything going all the way back to the singularity

Apparently the world's population is near 7 billion now.

Great, another billion people who's crap I gotta deal with lol

Posted by Imho
you carry something or many things you need to let go

your expectations are too high

you disappoint yourself y
fear paralyzes you

take a chance

live life

with your middle finger up & no regrets

You've got that first one right, I'll give you that.

To the others, though I've passed that point of no return.

Posted by 0987654321234567890
nice balls, btw

What balls? (by the way, are you gonna leave me hanging or...?)

Posted by james tate
perhaps you have been part of the everything going all the way back to the singularity

I wish... NOT!

Posted by aPiscesPrincess
You mean you just don't want balls? Like your avatar says. 😛

No but seriously, don't talk about wanting to die 😢 I understand what you're saying though.

It's not about dying. Got waaaaya too much I wanna do.

It's about living forever after or not wanting to.

Yay! Replies!

Posted by everevolvingepithet
"we live many lives, are you atoning only this one? the wise one jt touched on this..."
Justin Timberlake ?

Hah.

On another tangent, we share the same birthday, me and the sexybach. Which is just well awesome.

Posted by everevolvingepithet
He stole 'The Gentleman' from NeYo according to NeYo and I just find that hilarious for some reason.

Haha!

The guy actually has comedic timing and delivery. He got in all the jokes that required achange in tone, facial expression etc

Kewl clip, man.

Posted by TastesOfChaos
Gedsy dont talk like that!!

You should go out and do something crazy... life is great when you LIVE it.

🙂

Sigh. You're right.

But to live for ever and ever and ever and ever and ever...?

Quite scary.

Even when you go out to parties there comes a time when you're ready to leave.

And life is one big party sometimes, that much is true.

I'm having fun, but when the buzz from the alcohol (still on the life as a party metaphor here) wears off it's "Goodbye party, hello sleep!"

Imagine not having that. Trapped with a dead buzz in a party that just won't end AND... has run out of alcohol.

Scare-ry.

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Posted by TastesOfChaos
Gedsy dont talk like that!!

You should go out and do something crazy... life is great when you LIVE it.

🙂

Sigh. You're right.

But to live for ever and ever and ever and ever and ever...?

Quite scary.

Even when you go out to parties there comes a time when you're ready to leave.

And life is one big party sometimes, that much is true.

I'm having fun, but when the buzz from the alcohol (still on the life as a party metaphor here) wears off it's "Goodbye party, hello sleep!"

Imagine not having that. Trapped with a dead buzz in a party that just won't end AND... has run out of alcohol.

Scare-ry.

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Everybody puking on everybody else (because obviously you can't leave the party and do that in the privacy of your own home).

Not being able to eat or drink water to mend your hangover 'cause obviously this is somebody else's house, right? You gotta respect THAT.

And just being in a messy environment where boys wanna fight other boys instead of chase girls, girls wanna fight other girls instead of be chased by guys and everyone's buzz has worn off.

Hmm. That would be a fun place to be, actually, if of course you found a safe place to hide first.

I miss Uni...

Posted by everevolvingepithet
"Imagine not having that. Trapped with a dead buzz in a party that just won't end AND... has run out of alcohol."
I think the half sobering up/half drunk and still got to get home is the worst.

You can feel your legs. Really feel them.

Plus you're aware your breath stinks like Godlessness and there's something in your throat that can't quite make up its mind whether to come out orstay in there.

Plus, you live very far.

And it's cold outside.

And you only came in a t-shirt, no jacket.

Not cool.

Posted by everevolvingepithet
+1 I think JT is a pretty good actor, better than his music.

I like both TBH. But him as an actor is way more impressive.

Posted by TastesOfChaos
I wouldn't want to live forever... unless you retained the same body and mind it would be impossible anyway.

I think you should live everyday as if it were your last... take risks, make mistakes and live it to the fullest...
and die with no regrets or "woulda coulda shoulda"s

I wanna at least travel some of the world before I die.
Go sky diving
Have children
Lots of stuff!

Can't be dying yet!!

I'm actually afraid of death, I hope I go peacefully...

I'm afraid of death but not, at the same time.

I got stuff to do, I wanna travel two and there's too many people and experiences I'd miss out on if I was to die this. very. sec--

I like kids two. I don't know whether I'd be a good parent, though. I'm too indulgent and kids always see me as an equal.

Life will have to shape me into that.

Posted by TastesOfChaos
You're silly... How old are you again?

24? 25?

Remember when I thought you were like 35? Hahaha

lol yeah, I'm 24. People always think I'm way younger, though.

Walked into Coral (betting agents) the other day to ask after vacancies and the woman behind the counter remarked she was about to ask me for my i.d!

Good compliment, I guess.

I swear you're almost 30? Your kids will love you, you know, TOC. You're so young at heart.

Posted by TastesOfChaos
Anyhoooo... Life could be worse?

Posted by PurringInTheRain
Hey, people! Guess what? I'm asexual. That's right, I'm not attracted to men OR women sexually. I told DazedScorp this in secrecy, and he's such a fucking asshole that he's holding this above my head, trying so hard to hold it against me, bwah. Fuckin' Scorpios, 'eh? He told me HIS real name in secrecy, but I'm still not a big enough bitch to tell you all. But yeah, I'm telling you guys first. I'm not attracted to anyone sexually. Oh well, big deal, who cares? Anyway, that's all I have to say. It's really not a big deal. Night.

You could be ^THAT^ chick...

HAHAHAHAHAHA

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The fuck? Ahahahahahahahaha!

Posted by everevolvingepithet
Exactly, but just think. Topping ToC's thread in waaaayyyy less time than 2 years it took iirc ?
hmmmmm
Not my thing playing Devil's advocate but the thought's their if these kids want to get busy with the posting 🙂
lol@ me being a kid, I'm not that wet around the gills I'd like to think, but thanks for that 🙂

What's all this about NOW?

Ugh, I should just leave dxp. Keep missing the action. Ah, fuck.

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Posted by everevolvingepithet
Exactly, but just think. Topping ToC's thread in waaaayyyy less time than 2 years it took iirc ?
hmmmmm
Not my thing playing Devil's advocate but the thought's their if these kids want to get busy with the posting 🙂
lol@ me being a kid, I'm not that wet around the gills I'd like to think, but thanks for that 🙂

What's all this about NOW?

Just keeping things ship shape as ever.🙂

Ugh, I should just leave dxp. Keep missing the action. Ah, fuck.

No one ever leaves ! 🙂

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It's like some kind of trap, this site. Twice I've deleted/abandoned accounts. Twice!

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Posted by oldskoolflavor
tendency to bully people who go against the norm = frightening
just saying

You talking to me son?

I'm not bullying her... This bitch came at me from all fucking angles on my Dynamic Nuthouse thread (TWICE) and has talked about me on countless threads non STOP since...

Don't tell me you are fooled by this chump? You watch, she'll delete her account now and come back all innocent like nothing happened... and she'll keep up this FAKE facade so that everyone "loves" her again and thinks she is soooooo sweet... until the next time she gets drunk and takes drugs of course...

Bitch is whack.

WRONG, bitch. I'm not coming back to this shithole after my account is deleted. I'm done. Cunts like you make it not worth visiting. BTW there's nothing fake about me at all. I've never been mean to the people I actually LIKE here when I get drunk and post, and I don't "take drugs", moron. I take sleeping pills for insomnia. That's it. Stop exaggerating.

I wouldn't leave for that reason alone seriously.
You seem to enjoy it here when you're talking about rescuing cats and stuff, oh and the astrology lol.
ToC loves playing grotbags at times, I wouldn't pay it any mind, plus I think ToC kinda enjoys being queen bee at times so it's kinda healthy for her to get it out of her system.
I know she's deeply in love with Gem2 so maybe she makes a beeline for you because you've answered one of his posts ?
Now fairs fair, everyone comes here for the occasion scrap not the astrology, but I think it's a little unfair when it turns into a gang thing.

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Who is Gem2? And why doesn't he have my blessing?!

oh my gosh Lena's thread is ginormous! You mean people actually fight back nd forth in thesame thread for WEEKS at a time?!

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Posted by oldskoolflavor
tendency to bully people who go against the norm = frightening
just saying

You talking to me son?

I'm not bullying her... This bitch came at me from all fucking angles on my Dynamic Nuthouse thread (TWICE) and has talked about me on countless threads non STOP since...

Don't tell me you are fooled by this chump? You watch, she'll delete her account now and come back all innocent like nothing happened... and she'll keep up this FAKE facade so that everyone "loves" her again and thinks she is soooooo sweet... until the next time she gets drunk and takes drugs of course...

Bitch is whack.

WRONG, bitch. I'm not coming back to this shithole after my account is deleted. I'm done. Cunts like you make it not worth visiting. BTW there's nothing fake about me at all. I've never been mean to the people I actually LIKE here when I get drunk and post, and I don't "take drugs", moron. I take sleeping pills for insomnia. That's it. Stop exaggerating.

I wouldn't leave for that reason alone seriously.
You seem to enjoy it here when you're talking about rescuing cats and stuff, oh and the astrology lol.
ToC loves playing grotbags at times, I wouldn't pay it any mind, plus I think ToC kinda enjoys being queen bee at times so it's kinda healthy for her to get it out of her system.
I know she's deeply in love with Gem2 so maybe she makes a beeline for you because you've answered one of his posts ?
Now fairs fair, everyone comes here for the occasion scrap not the astrology, but I think it's a little unfair when it turns into a gang thing.

Who is Gem2? And why doesn't he have my blessing?!

Ahh, old school name..Television is the new moniker.
No blessing ? I think he get hyphy all up in this, no need for blessing ?

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Ah. Television is a he? I like

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Posted by oldskoolflavor
tendency to bully people who go against the norm = frightening
just saying

You talking to me son?

I'm not bullying her... This bitch came at me from all fucking angles on my Dynamic Nuthouse thread (TWICE) and has talked about me on countless threads non STOP since...

Don't tell me you are fooled by this chump? You watch, she'll delete her account now and come back all innocent like nothing happened... and she'll keep up this FAKE facade so that everyone "loves" her again and thinks she is soooooo sweet... until the next time she gets drunk and takes drugs of course...

Bitch is whack.

WRONG, bitch. I'm not coming back to this shithole after my account is deleted. I'm done. Cunts like you make it not worth visiting. BTW there's nothing fake about me at all. I've never been mean to the people I actually LIKE here when I get drunk and post, and I don't "take drugs", moron. I take sleeping pills for insomnia. That's it. Stop exaggerating.

I wouldn't leave for that reason alone seriously.
You seem to enjoy it here when you're talking about rescuing cats and stuff, oh and the astrology lol.
ToC loves playing grotbags at times, I wouldn't pay it any mind, plus I think ToC kinda enjoys being queen bee at times so it's kinda healthy for her to get it out of her system.
I know she's deeply in love with Gem2 so maybe she makes a beeline for you because you've answered one of his posts ?
Now fairs fair, everyone comes here for the occasion scrap not the astrology, but I think it's a little unfair when it turns into a gang thing.

She's not a queen bee. She's simply a Grade A Cunt.

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Aaaaah. So bleep means c u n t! Cool.

What does pwned mean? I've used it before without actually knowing the meaning behind it.

Think it's for when someone gets owned. Which again I really don't know what the backstory is behind that proclamation over someone's embarassing defeat.

haha wow the comments that fill the last couple pages of this thread are just the epitome of sadness.ive never seen so much passive aggressiveness in one place. bitches bein bitches up in dis bitch

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Posted by PurringInTheRain

Posted by TastesOfChaos

Posted by oldskoolflavor
tendency to bully people who go against the norm = frightening
just saying

You talking to me son?

I'm not bullying her... This bitch came at me from all fucking angles on my Dynamic Nuthouse thread (TWICE) and has talked about me on countless threads non STOP since...

Don't tell me you are fooled by this chump? You watch, she'll delete her account now and come back all innocent like nothing happened... and she'll keep up this FAKE facade so that everyone "loves" her again and thinks she is soooooo sweet... until the next time she gets drunk and takes drugs of course...

Bitch is whack.

WRONG, bitch. I'm not coming back to this shithole after my account is deleted. I'm done. Cunts like you make it not worth visiting. BTW there's nothing fake about me at all. I've never been mean to the people I actually LIKE here when I get drunk and post, and I don't "take drugs", moron. I take sleeping pills for insomnia. That's it. Stop exaggerating.

I wouldn't leave for that reason alone seriously.
You seem to enjoy it here when you're talking about rescuing cats and stuff, oh and the astrology lol.
ToC loves playing grotbags at times, I wouldn't pay it any mind, plus I think ToC kinda enjoys being queen bee at times so it's kinda healthy for her to get it out of her system.
I know she's deeply in love with Gem2 so maybe she makes a beeline for you because you've answered one of his posts ?
Now fairs fair, everyone comes here for the occasion scrap not the astrology, but I think it's a little unfair when it turns into a gang thing.

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:O

Posted by Prince_Pisces
bling dont embarass yourself. my roots are clearly showing in my picture LOL

Lol

"don't embarrass yourself" hahahaha omg quote of the day

Anyways...I think the solution is simple here...TOC, Purr can tell you hate cats.

That's it.

Cat hater.

omg! it's not the cat's fault.

lol

it can't even defend itself.......

Bling on the otherhand

meowww

shits getting real.

lol

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Posted by brianafay
omg! it's not the cat's fault.

lol

What's my fault, exactly?

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as in it's not the cat's fault you two are beefing it up in the mean streets of DXP...
she shouldn't call it ugly, it has nothing to do with this!

Take it down a notch though girl

you're all defensive and edgy

if TOC's a cunt...she's a cunt...but it's really not something to get this worked up over?
Right or wrong?

I'm correcting you. Lol

her problem with you is not the cat's fault and she shouldn't take it out on the cat!
(lmao at me talking about the cat like it has any idea)

she was pretty mangy...poor thing. She was an orphan, we saved her!

RIP SandyPaws

< just now realizing the difference in your username

haha derrrp

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Posted by brianafay
she was pretty mangy...poor thing. She was an orphan, we saved her!

RIP SandyPaws

I always get sad when animals die 😢 Well unless they're birds lol

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EXACTLY

I hate birds...people with birds creep me out. Why do people like them? They're stupid and rude

Finally a relevant topic^^

haha

I ♥ my Blinger Roo

I'm not taking sides........although his comment was quite catty (that was his intention afterall...he proved his point)

TOC's not evil....that's giving her a bit too much power imo.
She's actually very sweet. It's a front....which I feel like you know a little something about that

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Posted by brianafay
she was pretty mangy...poor thing. She was an orphan, we saved her!

RIP SandyPaws

I always get sad when animals die 😢 Well unless they're birds lol

EXACTLY

I hate birds...people with birds creep me out. Why do people like them? They're stupid and rude

I know right?! They're loud and they bite people LOL. Not even cute either 😢

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They have cold scaly feet....fuckers need some Jergens or something....
Also that smell!!!! Ugh bird smell :/

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Posted by brianafay
I — my Blinger Roo

I'm not taking sides........although his comment was quite catty (that was his intention afterall...he proved his point)

TOC's not evil....that's giving her a bit too much power imo.
She's actually very sweet. It's a front....which I feel like you know a little something about that

I've never seen her be nice. She's always talking shit and telling people to kill themselves.

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Haha fair enough. :/

After spending some time on this site I completely understand the frustration. I think it's fun playing with the crazies too from time to time.
*shrugs* fine, judge me.

Being that I talk to her outside of DXP quite frequently (including Skype dates) I assure you she's not evil at all.
She can be a little shit as we all can be occasionally...all the coolest peeps are imo 🙂

I think you guys should squash it...in summary. 🙂

*sigh*

what is all the beeferoni over anyways? I miss everything these days...drafting and designing and mounting and planning and making clay models like I'm in kindergarten again.

you're all beautiful. Stop it