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NostalgicCappy
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6 Years

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I never put too much of my personal life out there, but I’m in need of advice, guidance, or talking some sense into me maybe? I don’t even know.

So, I was very impulsive and moved out of state a couple of years ago. My boss was upset that I had “left everyone hanging”, but the truth was, I didn’t have WiFi set up yet so I wasn’t purposely trying to cause issues for anyone.

Anyways, I missed my job and home right after I moved. So, I reached out to my boss and asked to come back. I was able to come back under conditions and I had to build trust again. So, I also moved back. This was all within less than 3 months. I wanted to prove myself to my boss again.

Long story short, I’ve been back for two years almost, and I’ve proven myself 10 fold. Unfortunately, things have not been the same since I left. I felt a comfortable and personable semi friendship with my boss before I left, now it’s totally different and not only do we not talk at all unless it’s urgent for a client, but he ignores the majority of my messages, even important ones.

I now feel completely awkward and uncomfortable, and the passion I had at first is gone. It took me a long time because I was shy, but I wrote an email to my boss and told them that things have been different since I left, and I think they’re still upset with me. I asked if we could start over and with a clean slate. That was in October, I did not hear a word back. So, I’m even more uncomfortable and feel awkward. I can not work somewhere without feeling like I can at least joke around a bit with my boss and feel comfortable to be myself. However, I still feel a level of loyalty and I don’t want to just walk away. Also, of course the money helps to pay bills.

We were a good team before, and I was also hoping to discuss how I could bring more business in to help, as we had been discussing that before I left too. I felt like the company was my second home and I have always been close to the clients. I miss all of that, as now it’s like walking into a cold room with bad energy.

Any constructive criticism or advice?

Thanks guys and gals, this has been an ongoing fucking nightmare and I guess I just needed to vent too.