I'm going through a phase in my life where I'm beginning to feel stuck, isolated and depressed. I went from sleeping three hours at night to not sleeping all night. Now I'm losing interest in eating like my appetite is gone. Right now I am staying I am staying with my grandparents because I just seperated from my husband a few months ago and have no desire to go back. I also wanted to stay and help my grandmother heal from her surgery which she just had. I have been out of work a few months now. Some of my family is really forcing me into applying for SSI despite me saying no and that I don't want it. They think they know what is best for me but I don't think they know or understand me very well. They won't support my decision to work and doubt me and put me down saying I can't work. Not working has changed my life in dramatic ways that I am not proud of as a 24 year old woman. I don't want to depend on my grandparents or family members financially because it makes my life dependent on them in many ways. I also have a three year old son to provide for. His father has custody but I still get visitation. I have had alot of jobs but have been able to hold down a job before with Voc. Rehabilitation Services but my life was stable then. Then I became homeless off and on for four years due to unexpected circumstances and some poor decision making regarding men. In my case I have Auditory Processing Disorder and ADHD. I have just started taking medication for the first time for ADD but I can't tell the effects yet. The only income I have is after I file taxes and I know they will try to hang onto that for me. I don't know what to do I have no where else to go and I don't want to make drastic moves until my grandma heals. Should I sneak and try to work without them knowing? I just want to live a normal and productive life.They are really doubting me. I think if I stay here they will enable me, discourage me and get in the way of my dreams.
