The in between

It’s a funny place to be. Okay not really. But, I fought against it so many years, trying to fill the hole with lots of things ( and yes including relationships or random dates) I find myself not fighting now. Wanting to stay in the quiet, not being scared of it anymore. It’s so easy as a Saggie to fill your life with so many things. But there seems to be something special about just sitting in this in between space. Slowing down & checking it out.

Damn transformation appears to actually be happening, children getting close to causing an empty nest but never do quite do it, figuring out retirement, not letting former loves pull me anymore. What is there to do? Is this contentment and peace? Ah probably not, just waiting for where the current takes me.

Does this make sense to anyone? Or am I just speaking spiritual Mumbo jumbo. 🤔🤪